I Am Loco
Ill Niño Lyrics

Life is weighing down on me, killing me inside
The difficulties of life are causing me great emotional pain and distress.

Something I could never be will guide me to the new Light
A newfound hope that I may be able to achieve what I thought was impossible will guide me towards a brighter future.

Frustrated
Feeling annoyed, angry and dissatisfied with my current situation.

Sedated
Using drugs or other substances to numb my emotions and cope with my problems.

I pray to myself, God please
I am desperately seeking comfort and guidance from within myself, and praying to a higher power for assistance.

Don’t take away from me the only fucking thing that I learned to believe
Please don't take from me the one thing that gives me hope and a reason to believe in myself.

I am becoming the monster, You promised to keep him away
I am becoming the very thing I feared and tried to avoid. A dark and dangerous part of myself that I thought I had control over.

Now I feel like he's living in me!!!
I am overwhelmed by the realization that this darker part of myself is taking over, and I am powerless to stop it.

Anyway, I could never ever be, What you think is right for me
No matter how hard I try or how much I change, I will never be what others expect or want me to be.

Are things that I will not believe
There are certain things that I cannot accept or believe, no matter how much others may try to convince me.

I want to start a new life, Get myself a sharp knife, Look into my own life, Kill things I don't like in me
I want to reinvent myself and rid myself of the negative aspects that I hate within me, even if it means making drastic changes or causing myself pain.

But sometimes I feel ok, And think I'm unique
Sometimes, I feel good about myself and believe that I am special and different from others.

You always try to critique, I turn my back on it anyway
You always criticize me and try to change me, but I choose to ignore your opinions and do what I feel is best for myself.

Sucker! Punk-ass motherfucker! I am loco! Te falta un poco! To get your ass in a choke-hold!
I am angry and lashing out at those who criticize or challenge me, threatening them with violence and asserting my dominance over them.

Just kill me - I can't breathe, I am guiding myself right to the end
I feel so overwhelmed and burdened by my problems that death seems like the only escape, and I am heading towards my own demise.

I can't learn - come to terms, With the sickness that makes me crash and burn
I am unable to fully understand or accept the illness or negative qualities within myself which are causing me to fail and suffer.

I’m crying, I feel like I am dying but I'm trying, I beg to myself put my pride up on the shelf
I am struggling and suffering greatly, but I am still trying my best to keep going. I need to put aside my ego and ask for help and support.

Life is not forever, But if life will stay together, I would have a friend in my depression, have an end
Life is short and unpredictable, but if things could stay stable and peaceful, I would be able to cope with my depression and find some resolution.

But I've been thinking, And thinking always gets me into trouble
I have been reflecting on my problems and situation, but this often leads to more confusion and pain.

But since I have a double personality, I wasn't me you see
I feel like I am not fully in control of myself, and that there are different parts of myself that are at odds with each other.

Now I'm a refugee, And everything inside of me is just a part of my Disease!!!
I feel like an outsider and someone who doesn't belong, and all the negative aspects of myself are just symptoms of a larger problem or disease.