Manic Depressive
Insane Clown Posse Lyrics


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[Verse - Violent J]
In my mind's eye
You throw wickedness at me
I'm just a toy to you
I bring no real joy to you
The way I see it
You don't want me here no more
You want a hole in my forehead
And blood pourin' on the floor
Cause I'm so dirty
Fuckin' dirty and shoddy
I want up out of this body
That's hated by everybody
Sometimes I don't know why
I continue to try
It's so much easier to die
Than to get by
And to get by
And to get by..

[Verse - Violent J]
If I'm gonna die
I'm taking you with me
Get you and get me
We can be bloody
If I'm gonna fly
I'm gonna succeed
Take you and get me
We can be bloody
Sometimes I don't know why
I continue to try
It's so much easier to die
Than to get by
And to get by
And to get by..

[Verse - Shaggy 2 Dope]
I don't want to leave my house
Don't want to open my mouth
Don't want to read my mail
Don't want to meet with pals
I don't want to fuck shit up
Don't want to fuckin' get up
Don't want to take up space
Don't want your time to waste
I don't want to fight this back
Just want to fade to black
Don't want to turn to faith
Or want to burn at stakes
I don't want to build my life
I want to bloody my knife
Don't want to grab the phone
Don't want to leave this room
I don't want to talk with you
I'm fuckin' stalkin' you
Don't want to fix myself
I want to nix myself
I don't want to try to change
Just want to fry my brains
Don't want to slow shit down
I want to throw shit around
I don't want to run nowhere
Don't want no one to care
Don't want another crack at it
I'd rather be a crack addict
I don't want to look for help
Don't want to help myself
I don't want to even try




To get by
To get by..

Overall Meaning

The song Manic Depressive by ICP is a poignant reflection of the struggles of mental illness. The lyrics describe the inner psychological turmoil that is characterized by feelings of worthlessness and the desire to hurt oneself. Violent J ruminates over the fact that his mind continually throws wickedness at him, and that he feels like he is nothing but a toy to the person he is addressing in the song. He is convinced that this person wants him dead, and that he is so dirty and shoddy that everybody hates him. The chorus reflects the desperation and hopelessness that comes with trying to fight against mental illness. It seems as though it would be easier to die than to keep struggling to get by in life.


Shaggy 2 Dope's verse further reflects the struggle of trying to cope with the symptoms of mental illness. He doesn't want to leave his house, meet with friends, or even open his mail. He feels like he is a burden and that his time is being wasted. He doesn't want to try to fix himself, and instead, he wants to hurt himself. Shaggy 2 Dope's desperate plea for respite from his troubles reflects the overwhelming amount of pain and confusion that can come with mental illness.


Line by Line Meaning

In my mind's eye
In my imagination


You throw wickedness at me
You intentionally harm me


I'm just a toy to you
You regard me as insignificant


I bring no real joy to you
I do not make you happy


The way I see it
As far as I am concerned


You don't want me here no more
You do not want to be around me anymore


You want a hole in my forehead
You wish to kill me


And blood pourin' on the floor
And have my blood flow on the ground


Cause I'm so dirty
Because I am undesirable


Fuckin' dirty and shoddy
Completely filthy and worthless


I want up out of this body
I want to escape from my physical self


That's hated by everybody
That everyone dislikes


Sometimes I don't know why
At times, I don't understand why


I continue to try
I keep attempting


It's so much easier to die
Ending my life is less difficult


Than to get by
Than to survive


If I'm gonna die
If I'm going to pass away


I'm taking you with me
You will also die


Get you and get me
We will both perish


We can be bloody
There will be blood


If I'm gonna fly
If I'm going to prosper


I'm gonna succeed
I will achieve success


Take you and get me
You and I will achieve success


Sometimes I don't know why
At times, I don't understand why


I continue to try
I keep attempting


It's so much easier to die
Ending my life is less difficult


Than to get by
Than to survive


I don't want to leave my house
I do not want to go out


Don't want to open my mouth
I do not want to speak


Don't want to read my mail
I do not want to check my messages


Don't want to meet with pals
I do not want to hang out with friends


I don't want to fuck shit up
I do not want to mess anything up


Don't want to fuckin' get up
I do not want to get out of bed


Don't want to take up space
I do not want to occupy physical space


Don't want your time to waste
I do not wish to waste your time


I don't want to fight this back
I do not wish to resist these feelings


Just want to fade to black
I want to disappear, to die


Don't want to turn to faith
I do not want to turn to religion


Or want to burn at stakes
Nor do I want to be burned alive


I don't want to build my life
I have no desire to create something meaningful


I want to bloody my knife
Instead, I want to kill


Don't want to grab the phone
I do not want to answer the phone


Don't want to leave this room
I do not want to depart from this room


I don't want to talk with you
I do not want to converse with you


I'm fuckin' stalkin' you
I am obsessively following you


Don't want to fix myself
I do not want to improve myself


I want to nix myself
I wish to end my own life


I don't want to try to change
I do not want to attempt to make changes to myself


Just want to fry my brains
Instead, I want to damage my brain


Don't want to slow shit down
I do not want to take things more slowly


I want to throw shit around
Instead, I want to cause chaos


I don't want to run nowhere
I do not want to escape


Don't want no one to care
I do not want anyone to care about me


Don't want another crack at it
I do not want to try again


I'd rather be a crack addict
I would prefer to be addicted to drugs


I don't want to look for help
I do not want to seek assistance


Don't want to help myself
I do not want to help myself


I don't want to even try
I do not want to make an effort


To get by
To survive


To get by..
To survive




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