Solitude of Enoch
Ka Lyrics

It's hard to say, every sentence is pain
Communicating is difficult, as every word spoken is filled with emotional distress

Brothers killing brothers, descendants of Cain
Siblings are harming each other, just like Cain murdered Abel according to the biblical story

Props if getting knocked, and no mentioning names
Respect is given to those who take a hit without snitching or naming others involved

I had to steal all that time I spent in the flame
Endured much suffering and pain to learn valuable lessons and gain experience

Got to be in grace first to fall from it
Must first have achieved a state of goodness before being able to lose it

That money chase birthed the full summit
The pursuit of wealth led to great success and achievement

Was wasteful as big eyes and a small stomach
Spent recklessly, like being greedy with one's vision but lacking in appetite

Funny used to call my friends money, I lost hundreds
Ironically referred to his friends as 'money', but actually lost significant amounts of money due to poor financial decisions

From low lands, sugar no man, God fearing
Came from humble beginnings, with plenty of hardships but still remaining devoutly religious

Had death threats, not deaf yet, I'm hard hearing
Received threatening messages, but still remained vigilant and alert to potential danger

Revenge is the engine, with my heart steering
Motivated by a desire for vengeance, in control of one's own actions and feelings

Enough disastrous crashes, had to star veering
Suffered too many setbacks and failures, had to change direction and avoid further harm

Had to use your fists to change your fiscal
Had to resort to violence at times to improve one's financial situation

Figuring how to get rich became the ritual
The process of determining how to become wealthy became a habitual practice

As teens bought full magazines, if we had an issue
As teenagers, bought magazines containing dangerous weapons, in case of conflict with others

We all had beef, but for dinner having gristle
Everyone had conflicts with others, but still had to eat meat that was tough and inedible

All hooded, even headed in doubt, I'm sure-footed
Wearing hoods and in constant doubt, yet still moving forward boldly and confidently

Fear built relationships rapport couldn't
Fear contributed to building relationships that could not be easily replaced or forgotten

Being angelic get you popped, saying something that's off-putting
Trying to act virtuously can lead to danger, as saying something that is unpleasant can cause harm

Feeling weak for being in love like a Moor shouldn't
Feeling shameful for loving someone, as it goes against cultural norms and expectations

Was action packed, had you capped just to hate hub
Life was filled with action and danger, and people would shoot others out of jealousy or hatred

For years spoke the code like every place bugged
Spoke using a secret code, as if every location was monitored or bugged

Since them dudes in school, move like I taste blood
Ever since some people in school threatened me, I've been acting hyper-alert and ready for conflict

Fights brought forty nights, like the great flood
Frequent violence caused many long and difficult periods of conflict, like the biblical flood

Still a nexus to the treacherous gutter
Still connected to the harsh and dangerous aspects of life

Kept two, never monochrome, my gift technicolor
Always kept two weapons, never the same color, symbolizing a diverse and versatile skillset

Like the coat of Joseph, hope it don't affect my brother
Wearing nice clothes or having success should not lead to jealousy or conflict with others

Became man in the house quick, had to protect my mother
Had to grow up and become the man of the house quickly, in order to protect and care for one's mother

One of my cousins said hey was gon' beat me like my pops
One of my cousins threatened to physically harm me, like my own father had done before

I blacked out, was ready to leave him in a box
Reached a level of uncontrollable rage and was prepared to harm the cousin who threatened me

My sister calmed me down, saw me reaching for the shots
My sister helped me calm down, as I was about to use a weapon to harm my cousin

That's my linchpin, since then, we been on the rocks
That moment was the turning point for our relationship, and it has been strained since then

May your life be fruitful I appeal to you
Wishing that someone's life will be filled with abundance and success

I'm defense against ten trying to conceal the truth
Feeling like one is the lone defender against many who are trying to hide the truth

Breaded when I medicine, that's what a healer do
Financing my own healing, that's what it means to be a true healer

Out here was too rough to bluff, every dealer knew
The streets were too harsh and dangerous to rely on trickery or deception, every drug dealer was aware of this

Don't mind if it was gross, this hope's genetic
Doesn't matter if the situation is difficult or unpleasant, the hope for success and prosperity is an inherent part of one's being

Did the most to cope when the coast wasn't copacetic
Did everything possible to deal with difficult times, when things were not going smoothly

When I rapped to you it's natural, no synthetic
When I rapped, it was genuine and authentic, not artificial or fake

Survivors of my father, it's my old genetic
Surviving and overcoming the issues instilled by my father is a part of my innate character

I rhymed like divinity
My rhymes were divine and transcendent

Times the inner me cry from the imagery
Sometimes my emotions are so powerful, that I am moved to tears by my own lyrics

Where we stood, no neighborhood sinner-free
Our community had its share of wrongdoers and sinners, no area was completely free of such people

From the curb, if any deserve to win it's me
Starting from a disadvantaged position, if anyone deserves to succeed and thrive, it's me

To quiet the stomach, we had to rummage
To alleviate hunger and survive, we had to scavenge for whatever food we could find

Father gave it all denominations, but wanted hundreds
Father gave money in various currencies, but preferred large sums of cash

We got it popping at the top of the morning
We were active and productive early in the day

Couldn't imagine what mothers on gutter blocks was enduring
Can't fathom the hardships that mothers who live in harsh neighborhoods were facing

We took the hits 'cause the knot was alluring
We accepted the consequences and risks, because the reward was tempting and attractive

My boy back up top, got popped for his urine
My friend who was recently released from prison, was arrested again because of a failed drug test

If a man slips, bent grip on his vice
If a person makes a mistake, they become more tightly bound to their bad habits

We try our best to get it, could triple the price
We work hard to obtain what we want, often resorting to illegal or unethical methods that can greatly inflate the cost

Though crew did it for food, not to be dripping in ice
Although members of our group engaged in criminal activity to survive, it was not to show off flashy material possessions

Pray the stocks stack on my blocks, but liquid is nice
Hoping that investments in the community will increase in value, but cash is also a valuable asset

Known to throw trips, show fifths, dip with the dice
Known to take drugs, brandish firearms, and gamble recklessly

Dusk to dawn, much go on, know ubiquitous nights
From morning until nightfall, there is a constant state of activity and danger that is always present

They get paid out trade route like you shipping a spice
People are getting rich through illegal trade, just like one would make a profit through selling valuable spices

The meek heard, 'Turn the other cheek'
The humble and powerless are told to remain passive and not retaliate

I got different advice, I got different advice
Personally, I have been advised to not act like a victim and to instead fight back when necessary