While on their first Indonesian tour in late 2008, Sansan left the band, for (according to the band's MySpace blog) "personal reasons." For the remainder of the tour, Onadio Leonardo filled in for vocals while playing bass. When Sansan later attempted to return to Killing Me Inside, the band members decided not to let him back in, preferring to move on without him.
After the Indonesian tour, the band decided to look for a temporary fill in bass player so that Onadio Leonardo could concentrate on vocals. Agung Anak Gde, bassist of Synystra, was added to the group to fill in the bass and backup vocals. This was their lineup for Java Rockin’ Land 2009.
In early 2010, Killing Me Inside released a new video for the song "Tanpa Dirimu" as the new single. The video, (directed by Rizal Mantovani), is the first to not include Sansan.
On June 3, the band announced via Facebook that they were officially finished with the recording of their new album and that it was to be released in the fall. They announced that the album would be self-titled. In early August, Killing Me Inside released a music video on their Facebook blog titled "Biarlah". The album was released August 30, 2010.
Now the band on their Indonesian tour as promo new album, also introducing new additional bassist, Angga Tetsuya.
Band members :
Current :
Onadio Leonardo : Vocals (sometimes play Bass) [2006-Present]
Josaphat Klemens : Guitars [2006-Present]
Davi Frisya : Drums [2008-Present]
Former :
Sansan : Vocals [2006-2008] (now on Pee Wee Gaskins)
Raka Cyril : Guitars [2006-2007] (now on Vierra)
Rendy : Drums [2006-2008]
Touring :
Agung Anak Gde : Bass/Scream [2008-2010] (now on Synystra & Leica)
Rudye Nugraha : Bass/Scream [2010] (now on Thirteen)
Angga Tetsuya : Bass/Scream [2010-Present] (also in Sunset Groove)
Tanpa Dirimu
Killing Me Inside Lyrics
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Dan aku memang bukan yang terindah bagimu...
Mungkin semuanya tak seperti dulu...
Saat kita bisa berbagi bersama...
Aku takkan rela bila kau tak ada disisiku...
Reff: ku berlari dan terjatuh... ( disini )
Aku sendiri dan aku berdiri hanya untuk bersamamu...
Aku disini selalu menanti saat nanti kau akan kembali...
Mungkin seandainya kau ada disini...
Saat aku lelah dan tak tau arah...
Aku takkan rela bila kau tak ada disisiku...
#Back to Reff#
Aku memang bukan yang terbaik...
Aaa... Aaa...
Tuk Hidupmu...
#Interlude#
#Back to Reff#
#Outro#
The first two lines of the lyrics suggest that the singer is aware that they are not the best or the prettiest person for their beloved one. The lines are an honest admission of their flaws, but at the same time, a plea to the lover to accept them as they are. The following lines explain how things have changed over time, and the couple cannot share their lives as they used to. The singer expresses their sadness at the prospect of being away from the lover and how they cannot accept a life without them.
In the chorus, the singer speaks of their tireless search for their partner, but they cannot find them. They are alone, but they still stand by and wait for their return. The verses follow the same pattern, with the singer expressing their helplessness without their love in life. The lyrics express the singer's hope that their love will return to them, and they can be together once again.
One possible interpretation of the lyrics is that the song is about a relationship that has ended, and the singer is still hoping for a reunion. As they express their feeling of loss, missing their love and longing for their partner's return, the song becomes a poignant reminder of the power of love and the pain of separation. Overall, the song's emotion is one of sadness and longing, with the singer trying to mask their grief while they wait for their love to return.
Line by Line Meaning
Aku memang bukan yang terbaik untukmu...
I know I'm not the best for you...
Dan aku memang bukan yang terindah bagimu...
And I know I'm not the most beautiful to you...
Mungkin semuanya tak seperti dulu...
Maybe everything isn't like it used to be...
Saat kita bisa berbagi bersama...
When we could share everything together...
Aku takkan rela bila kau tak ada disisiku...
I won't be okay if you're not by my side...
Ku berlari dan terjatuh...(disini)
I run and stumble...(here)
Ku mencari dan tak ada...(dirimu)
I search but you're not there...(you)
Aku sendiri dan aku berdiri hanya untuk bersamamu...
I'm alone and I'll stand just to be with you...
Aku disini selalu menanti saat nanti kau akan kembali...
I'm here always waiting for you to come back...
Mungkin seandainya kau ada disini...
Maybe if you were here...
Saat aku lelah dan tak tau arah...
When I'm tired and lost...
Aku takkan rela bila kau tak ada disisiku...
I won't be okay if you're not by my side...
Aku memang bukan yang terbaik...
I know I'm not the best...
Aaa... Aaa...
Tuk Hidupmu...
For your life...
Contributed by Aaron R. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@adytension
Aku memang bukan yang terbaik untukmu
Dan aku memang bukan yang terindah bagimu
Mungkin semuanya tak seperti dulu
Saat kita bisa berbagi bersama
Aku takkan rela bila kau tak ada disisiku
Ku berlari dan terjatuh (disini)
Ku mencari dan tak ada (dirimu)
Aku sendiri dan aku berdiri hanya untuk bersamamu
Aku disini selalu menanti saat nanti kau akan kembali
Mungkin seandainya kau ada disini
Saat aku lelah dan tak tau arah
Aku takkan rela bila kau tak ada disisiku
Ku berlari dan terjatuh (disini)
Ku mencari dan tak ada (dirimu)
Aku sendiri dan aku berdiri hanya untuk bersamamu
Aku disini selalu menanti saat nanti kau akan kembali
Dan aku memang bukan yang terbaik (ah ah)
Ku rindu dirimu
Ku berlari dan terjatuh (disini)
Ku mencari dan tak ada (dirimu)
Aku sendiri aku berdiri hanya untuk bersamamu
Aku disini selalu menanti saat nanti kau akan kembali
@bernabeorig4920
Aku memang bukan yang terbaik untukmu...
Dan aku memang bukan yang terindah bagimu...
Mungkin semuanya tak seperti dulu...
Saat kita bisa berbagi bersama...
Aku takkan rela bila kau tak ada disisiku...
Reff: ku berlari dan terjatuh... (disini)
Ku mencari dan tak ada... (dirimu)
Aku sendiri dan aku berdiri hanya untuk bersamamu...
Aku disini selalu menanti saat nanti kau akan kembali...
Mungkin seandainya kau ada disini...
Saat aku lelah dan tak tau arah...
Aku takkan rela bila kau tak ada disisiku...
Aku memang bukan yang terbaik...
Aaa... Aaa...
Tuk Hidupmu...
@tyz7012
Aku tau kamu pasti gak akan baca komen ini ,
Tapi entah suatu saat jika takdir Tuhan ngasih kesempatan kamu buat baca komen ku disini
Aku cuma mau bilang setelah perpisahan kita , aku merasa benar" gak bisa jalanin hari" seperti biasa, susah bgt buat bangkit,
Dan rasa sayangku ke kamu masih lebih besar daripada rasa sakit yang aku rasain .
Biarlah waktu saja yang akan manghapus semua kenangan tentangmu dan bisa berjalan kembali berdamai dengan keadaan.
Satu yang pasti aku sampai detik ini masih menunggu kamu cuk,
Walau aku tau hal ini akan sia sia , yang jelas aku masih sayang kamu sampai kapan pun itu :')
S.AdiPramudita
@luthfimuhamad7831
Yang dulu jaman SMP/SMA denger lagu ini dapet dari temen lewat bluetooth, masa muda lo bahagia bro.
@aldirmsl5886
Berharap jaman ini kembali bro..
@EN74182
Gue bro
@agungtriputra5064
Haha tiap ada lagu baru kmi hasil download d warnet gue di mintain kirim lewat bluetooth ama temen trus d dengerin bareng dah tuh lewat HP nokianya gue lupa tipeenya apa
@Noey87118
Kita satu server
@bahrulmuhliskurniawan674
Mantapp
@rodhizidni5571
Zaman now belum tentu tau bahwa ada band seperti ini dan musik seperti ini #EmoFans
@rindaayu2738
Music Video ini konsepnya keren, dan onad masih vokalis gak bnyk gaya, kewl
@titusfeby9208
Terima kasih KMI yg sdh pernah mengisi usiaku waktu muda dulu dgn lagu2 kalian..dmna saya masih dengerin lagu Indonesia lg jaya2 nya yg
Tdk sprti skrg demam main tiktok,dikit2 cover ..saya rasa permusikan lg lesu2 nya dgn karya ..bangga lah kalian yg lahir taun 90an masih dengerin lagu anak band/solo/grup dsb yg MASIH ORI..
@igedesurya1408
Btul bro, saya klahiran 93, ini lagu pas SMA tahun 2009 atau 2010 kayaknya