While on their first Indonesian tour in late 2008, Sansan left the band, for (according to the band's MySpace blog) "personal reasons." For the remainder of the tour, Onadio Leonardo filled in for vocals while playing bass. When Sansan later attempted to return to Killing Me Inside, the band members decided not to let him back in, preferring to move on without him.
After the Indonesian tour, the band decided to look for a temporary fill in bass player so that Onadio Leonardo could concentrate on vocals. Agung Anak Gde, bassist of Synystra, was added to the group to fill in the bass and backup vocals. This was their lineup for Java Rockin’ Land 2009.
In early 2010, Killing Me Inside released a new video for the song "Tanpa Dirimu" as the new single. The video, (directed by Rizal Mantovani), is the first to not include Sansan.
On June 3, the band announced via Facebook that they were officially finished with the recording of their new album and that it was to be released in the fall. They announced that the album would be self-titled. In early August, Killing Me Inside released a music video on their Facebook blog titled "Biarlah". The album was released August 30, 2010.
Now the band on their Indonesian tour as promo new album, also introducing new additional bassist, Angga Tetsuya.
Band members :
Current :
Onadio Leonardo : Vocals (sometimes play Bass) [2006-Present]
Josaphat Klemens : Guitars [2006-Present]
Davi Frisya : Drums [2008-Present]
Former :
Sansan : Vocals [2006-2008] (now on Pee Wee Gaskins)
Raka Cyril : Guitars [2006-2007] (now on Vierra)
Rendy : Drums [2006-2008]
Touring :
Agung Anak Gde : Bass/Scream [2008-2010] (now on Synystra & Leica)
Rudye Nugraha : Bass/Scream [2010] (now on Thirteen)
Angga Tetsuya : Bass/Scream [2010-Present] (also in Sunset Groove)
Torment
Killing Me Inside Lyrics
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But don′t just say you've gone away
You tell a fuckin′ tale (swallow me and spit me out)
How do I get trought of this? (I can't stand it anymore)
(Can you see) smiling when I sing this song
(Right now) I just want to be alive
(You know I was dying when you told me) that I'm not yours anymore
When the time she comes and wake me
And when she bit my lips and kissed me there
When she holds my hand and lives my life tonight
And when she said that she really love me (were the worst fuckin′ days)
(Can you see) smiling when I sing this song
(Right now) I just want to be alive
(You know I was dying when you told me) that I'm not yours anymore
(You know I was dying when you told me) you′re just playing and fooling around with me
When the time she comes and wake me (she comes and wake me up)
And when she bit my lips and kissed me there
When she holds my hand and lives my life tonight
And when she said that she really love me
But suddenly you came to me
And begged me to be yours again
And right now you're holding my hand
I′m sorry baby, but all I can say is
No
Hell no
Can you see the times grows older
She blew my dreams away
It's all done and now it′s over
I don't know how to say to you
Can you see the times grows older
She blew my dreams away
It's all done and now it′s over
I don′t know how to say
The time it's over
Right now
The time it′s over
Right now
The time it's over
Right now
The time it′s over
Right now
The lyrics to Killing Me Inside's song Torment discuss the pain of a lost love, and the struggle to move on from the torment caused by the relationship. The first line indicates that the singer has shed too many tears over this person and it is time for the pain to end. However, the person who caused this pain continues to cause additional suffering by telling lies and playing with the singer's emotions as if they were a toy to be used and discarded. The lyrics also touch on the regret the singer experiences for giving so much of themselves to someone who didn't appreciate it.
The chorus of the song is a plea for a fresh start, a chance to be happy and feel alive again. But this happiness is held back because of the memories of the torturous relationship, and the lyrics suggest that even the best moments with this person were some of the worst days of the singer's life. The final verse reveals that the subject of the song has returned, asking for a second chance, but the response is a resounding no.
Overall, the lyrics convey a sense of sadness, frustration, and anger, as the singer attempts to put an end to the torment of a failed relationship and start anew.
Line by Line Meaning
(For the last time) you waste my tears now, no more torment
This is the last time you can torture me, I won't shed tears anymore.
But don′t just say you've gone away
Don't just say it, actually leave.
You tell a fuckin′ tale (swallow me and spit me out)
You lie and deceive me, making me feel used and worthless.
How do I get trought of this? (I can't stand it anymore)
How can I survive this pain? I can't handle it anymore.
(Can you see) smiling when I sing this song
Can you see me smiling while singing this song?
(Right now) I just want to be alive
All I want is to feel alive right now.
(You know I was dying when you told me) that I'm not yours anymore
When you told me that I wasn't yours anymore, I was devastated.
(You know I was dying when you told me) you′re just playing and fooling around with me
When you told me you were just playing and fooling around with me, I felt betrayed and hurt.
When the time she comes and wake me
When the time she wakes me up.
And when she bit my lips and kissed me there
When she bit my lips and kissed me passionately.
When she holds my hand and lives my life tonight
When she holds my hand and lives my life with me tonight.
And when she said that she really love me (were the worst fuckin′ days)
The worst days were when she said she loved me and then left.
But suddenly you came to me
Suddenly you appeared before me.
And begged me to be yours again
You begged me to be yours again.
And right now you're holding my hand
And now you're holding my hand.
I′m sorry baby, but all I can say is
I'm sorry, but my answer is no.
No
No.
Hell no
Absolutely not.
Can you see the times grows older
Can you see time passing by?
She blew my dreams away
She shattered my dreams.
It's all done and now it′s over
It's all finished and now it's over.
I don't know how to say to you
I don't know how to tell you.
The time it's over
The time is over.
Right now
Right now.
The time it's over
The time is over.
Right now
Right now.
Writer(s): Josaphat Klemens
Contributed by Elliot S. Suggest a correction in the comments below.