Forgiveness
Koan Lyrics


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Far away from this time

it hide´s a place for me

where lie is fractured fancies... we held dear

I haven´t got the strength for fighting anymore, oh no
I´ve begun accepting used to being low

can´t remember how it used to go

suppose I knew laughter

must´ve been good in my thoughts

And now you´re creeping in my mind, making me tell lies

like I love you and it´s all gonna be just fine

gotta brak it now I hate youand I just don´t care

Why should I beg forgiveness

It came to ma quite slowly

I didn´t want to see

my heart was just a blacken playground

could this mean there is no

points of sanity

Give my heart and the rest of my soul





if you leave, I lost myself in loving you

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Koan's song Forgiveness describe a state of emotional turmoil that arises when the singer's past and present collide. The singer is looking back on a time that is "far away from this time" and sees it as a "place for me where lie is fractured fancies... we held dear." This implies that the past was built on illusions and untruths, but the singer still bears a sentimentality towards it. The singer then admits to being weak and tired, and to have given up fighting. They say, "I've begun accepting used to being low."


The chorus then enters in with a sense of angst and conflict. The singer declares that they hate the other person, and that they just don't care about them anymore. The singer wonders why they should beg for forgiveness, which suggests that the other person has done something wrong but has not made amends. The lyrics continue with a sense of lamentation about how this realization came too slowly, and how the singer's heart is now a "blackened playground." In the final lines, the singer pleads with the other person not to leave, but admits that if they do, the singer will lose themselves in loving them.


All in all, Koan's song Forgiveness offers a complex portrayal of a relationship that has gone awry. It highlights the difficulty of letting go of the past and moving on, and the internal conflict that arises when one is caught between the need to forgive and the need to protect oneself.


Line by Line Meaning

Far away from this time
I am in a distant place, disconnected from the past


it hide´s a place for me
This place where I am is my sanctuary and my protector


where lie is fractured fancies... we held dear
The things that we once cherished were built on false promises and illusions


I haven´t got the strength for fighting anymore, oh no
I am lacking the will and energy to continue battling and resisting


I´ve begun accepting used to being low
I have started acknowledging my limitations and my position in life


can´t remember how it used to go
I have forgotten how things were in the past and how it felt to be happy


suppose I knew laughter
I might have experienced joy and happiness before in my life


must´ve been good in my thoughts
It must have been a beautiful memory that I treasured in my mind


And now you´re creeping in my mind, making me tell lies
You are invading my thoughts and emotions, causing me to deceive myself and others


like I love you and it´s all gonna be just fine
I pretend that I still care for you and that our relationship will be okay


gotta break it now I hate youand I just don´t care
I need to end this toxic relationship and I have grown to despise you and feel apathetic


Why should I beg forgiveness
I do not see any reason why I should ask for your forgiveness


It came to ma quite slowly
I gradually realized and accepted the truth


I didn´t want to see
I refused to acknowledge the reality of our situation


my heart was just a blacken playground
My heart was once vibrant and full of life, but now it is dark and empty


could this mean there is no
This could imply that there is no hope for us or for me


points of sanity
I cannot see any rational or logical solution to our issues


Give my heart and the rest of my soul
I am completely devoted to you, with all my heart and soul


if you leave, I lost myself in loving you
If you were to leave, it would be the end of me as I have centered my entire existence around loving you




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