She was born in Hampshire and has lived in Devon, Brighton and London. She is of Finnish descent.
Hackman went to Bedales School where she met Cara Delevingne. Together they formed a short-lived band where Hackman played drums and Delevingne played guitar and sang.
Johnny Flynn also studied at the same school and knew and appreciated Hackman's music. He was instrumental in getting her first record deal with Transgressive and produced her debut single.
In 2013 she toured Australia and Europe as an opening act for Laura Marling
Drown
Marika Hackman Lyrics
Jump to: Overall Meaning ↴ Line by Line Meaning ↴
As brass posing as gold
You can shine me all you want
But I am hard as I am cold
To know your faults
To know yourself
I suit me well
For all that glisters
White and pure in the night
Identify your wants
Your heart
Well, where can I start?
Oh, to drown in your mind
I would, I know I would
To suffocate in your smoke
I'd choke on you if I could
Maybe I will
And if I'm rough
Or coarse through to my edge
You can polish me for hours
But I'll always look best in your head
We wished for lakes been kissed by sun
We found not one
Hundreds, then some
So, I drown in your mind
I will, I know I will
And suffocate in your smoke
Die, stuffing my lungs with their fill
"Bold" and "hard" - both terms suggest resilience and strength. Yet, the 'brass posing as gold' part introduces an element of falsehood, perhaps indicating a façade or pretense of the singer's supposed audacity. The line 'to know your faults, to know yourself, I suit me well' suggests that the singer understands their own flaws and accepts them, choosing to remain true to themselves. The second stanza introduces some ambiguity through its contradictory descriptions. Born with a 'healthy appetite for all that glitters,' which suggests that the singer is drawn to material wealth and all of its trappings. The next line, however, describes everything as 'white and pure in the night,' which signifies a preference for something innocent and unspoiled. In the third and final stanza, the singer surrenders themselves entirely to their subject, seeking to enter their mind and even risk suffocation to be closer to them.
The chorus is particularly telling as it speaks of the singer's desire to be consumed entirely by their subject. 'Drown me, suffocate me, and I would do it if I could, to be in your head.' The singer is entranced by their object of affection and desires nothing more than to give in entirely. It can be assumed that the person in question is idealized or even idolized by the singer. However, the final line suggests that the singer is entirely aware of the dangers of pursuing this person, but they will follow their impulses anyway.
Line by Line Meaning
Oh I am bold
I am confident and fearless
As brass posing as gold
I may look valuable, but I am not
You can shine me all you want
You can try to make me look better, but it won't change who I am
But I am hard as I am cold
I am tough and unfeeling
To know your faults
To recognize and accept one's own shortcomings
To know yourself
To have a clear understanding of one's own thoughts, feelings, and actions
I suit me well
I am comfortable with who I am
And I was born with a healthy appetite
I have always been eager for more
For all that glisters
For all that looks shiny or attractive
White and pure in the night
Appearing bright and untainted in the darkness
Identify your wants
Determine what you truly desire
Your heart
Your innermost feelings
Well, where can I start?
Expressing confusion about where to begin
Oh, to drown in your mind
To be completely lost in someone's thoughts
I would, I know I would
Expressing a deep desire to experience this feeling
To suffocate in your smoke
To be overwhelmed by someone's presence or influence
I'd choke on you if I could
Expressing a willingness to be consumed by another person
Maybe I will
Suggesting this desire may become reality
And if I'm rough
Admitting to having faults or imperfections
Or coarse through to my edge
Being blunt or harsh in one's behavior
You can polish me for hours
Others can try to improve or refine one's character
But I'll always look best in your head
Acknowledging that one's perception of oneself is more important than others'
We wished for lakes been kissed by sun
Expressing a desire for beauty and warmth in one's environment
We found not one
Realizing this is not always possible
Hundreds, then some
Recognizing the abundance of less perfect options
So, I drown in your mind
Repeating the desire to be lost in another's thoughts
I will, I know I will
Stating this will happen without a doubt
And suffocate in your smoke
Repeating the desire to be consumed by someone's presence or influence
Die, stuffing my lungs with their fill
Emphasizing the intensity and possibly deadly nature of this desire
Lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: MARIKA LOUISE HACKMAN
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
@lizzie3454
lyrics:
Oh I am bold
As brass posing as gold
You can shine me all you want
But I am hard as I am cold
To know your faults
To know yourself
I suit me well
And I was born with a healthy appetite
For all that glisters
White and pure in the night
Identify your wants
Your heart
Well, where can I start?
Oh, to drown in your mind
I would, I know I would
To suffocate in your smoke
I'd choke on you if I could
Maybe I will
And if I'm rough
Or coarse through to my edge
You can polish me for hours
But I'll always look best in your head
We wished for lakes been kissed by sun
We found not one
Hundreds, then some
So, I drown in your mind
I will, I know I will
And suffocate in your smoke
Die, stuffing my lungs with their fill
@syrinix1893
[LYRICS] (You're Welcome) c:
Oh I am bold
As brass posing as gold
You can shine me all you want
But I am hard as I am cold
To know your faults
To know yourself
I suit me well
[Verse 2]
And I was born with a healthy appetite
For all that glisters
White and pure in the night
Identify your wants
Your heart
Well, where can I start?
[Chorus]
Oh, to drown in your mind
I would, I know I would
To suffocate in your smoke
I'd choke on you if I could
Maybe I will
[Verse 3]
And if I'm rough
Or coarse through to my edge
You can polish me for hours
But I'll always look best in your head
We wished for lakes been kissed by sun
We found not one
Hundreds, then some
[Chorus]
So, I drown in your mind
I will, I know I will
And suffocate in your smoke
Die, stuffing my lungs with their fill
@enzosolis5377
[Verse 1]
Oh I am bold
As brass posing as gold
You can shine me all you want
But I am hard as I am cold
To know your faults
To know yourself
I suit me well
[Verse 2]
And I was born with a healthy appetite
For all that glisters
White and pure in the night
Identify your wants
Your heart
Well, where can I start?
[Chorus]
Oh, to drown in your mind
I would, I know I would
To suffocate in your smoke
I'd choke on you if I could
Maybe I will
[Verse 3]
And if I'm rough
Or coarse through to my edge
You can polish me for hours
But I'll always look best in your head
We wished for lakes been kissed by sun
We found not one
Hundreds, then some
[Chorus]
So, I drown in your mind
I will, I know I will
And suffocate in your smoke
Die, stuffing my lungs with their fill
@SeifAndCo
Oh I am bold
As brass posing as gold
You can shine me all you want
But I am hard as I am cold
To know your faults
To know yourself
I suit me well
And I was born with a healthy appetite
For all that glisters
White and pure in the night
Identify your wants
Your heart
Well, where can I start?
Oh, to drown in your mind
I would, I know I would
To suffocate in your smoke
I'd choke on you if I could
Maybe I will
And if I'm rough
Or coarse through to my edge
You can polish me for hours
But I'll always look best in your head
We wished for lakes been kissed by sun
We found not one
Hundreds, then some
So, I drown in your mind
I will, I know I will
And suffocate in your smoke
Die, stuffing my lungs with their fill
@lizzie3454
lyrics:
Oh I am bold
As brass posing as gold
You can shine me all you want
But I am hard as I am cold
To know your faults
To know yourself
I suit me well
And I was born with a healthy appetite
For all that glisters
White and pure in the night
Identify your wants
Your heart
Well, where can I start?
Oh, to drown in your mind
I would, I know I would
To suffocate in your smoke
I'd choke on you if I could
Maybe I will
And if I'm rough
Or coarse through to my edge
You can polish me for hours
But I'll always look best in your head
We wished for lakes been kissed by sun
We found not one
Hundreds, then some
So, I drown in your mind
I will, I know I will
And suffocate in your smoke
Die, stuffing my lungs with their fill
@Edible_Kittens
This is perfect for writing a sapphic vampiric novel. Satsuga, Marika. You’re one of a kind.
@classyclassical5086
I hope she gets more famous because we need more talented singers :)
@lmhr9
By your logic - when she gets famous - she BECOMES talented?
@classyclassical5086
No, sorry, i didn't mean that :P I mean we need more famous talented singers ;)
@lmhr9
AMEN TO THAT SISTER.
@NoorAldayeh
I don't think I'll ever get over how beautiful this song and its video is
@syrinix1893
[LYRICS] (You're Welcome) c:
Oh I am bold
As brass posing as gold
You can shine me all you want
But I am hard as I am cold
To know your faults
To know yourself
I suit me well
[Verse 2]
And I was born with a healthy appetite
For all that glisters
White and pure in the night
Identify your wants
Your heart
Well, where can I start?
[Chorus]
Oh, to drown in your mind
I would, I know I would
To suffocate in your smoke
I'd choke on you if I could
Maybe I will
[Verse 3]
And if I'm rough
Or coarse through to my edge
You can polish me for hours
But I'll always look best in your head
We wished for lakes been kissed by sun
We found not one
Hundreds, then some
[Chorus]
So, I drown in your mind
I will, I know I will
And suffocate in your smoke
Die, stuffing my lungs with their fill
@lesfemcounterculture4844
I live on your music, Marika. I just figured, the like button in Spotify is really just a tick mark to remind me which of your songs I haven't put on repeat yet.
@loudmarble8751
I'm really fascinated by this video. Doesn't help that Marika's voice is wonderful, she's really something special