After the split-up of Hederos & Hellberg, Hellberg went into the studio in September 2003 together with some fellow musicians forming Hellberg's backup band Healing Hand. Hellberg started recording his own songs, and ended up with ten songs about the melancholy of life released on his self-titled debut album.
Moon
Mattias Hellberg Lyrics
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In a most peculiar way
And the stars are looking dizzy
As they're hangin' in the sky
I am wanderin' the streets alone
I'm howlin' at the moon
O' I wish there was some medicine
It's too late to call for help
You see, I'm already too far gone
In the hoods of loneliness
Where I once started from
I am lost in you again
The day will soon be breakin' up
My empty little world
This paradise of disbelief
I've built my life upon
When the sunbeams hit the ground
Then I will fall apart again
Shattered by the light
That makes it painful clear to me
It's too late to call for help
You see, I'm already too far gone
In the hoods of loneliness
Where I once started from
I am lost in you again
The lyrics of "Moon" by Mattias Hellberg convey a sense of loneliness and desperation. The first verse sets the mood with the description of the moon looking hazy and the stars looking dizzy. This creates an otherworldly and melancholic atmosphere. The next verse talks about the singer being lost and wandering the streets, howling at the moon. There is a sense of longing and a search for comfort. The singer wishes for a medicine to heal his broken soul, which is a metaphor for emotional pain.
The chorus reinforces the theme of being lost with the phrase "I am lost in you again." It's unclear who the "you" refers to, but it could be a person or an emotion. The third verse predicts the arrival of morning and the collapse of the singer's world. The paradise of disbelief that he's built upon will shatter when the sunbeams hit the ground, and the singer will fall apart again. He's not able to escape his loneliness and despair, and the light makes it painful clear to him. The final chorus repeats the phrase "I am lost in you again," suggesting that the cycle of pain and loneliness will continue.
Overall, the lyrics of "Moon" express a deep sense of loneliness, despair, and the search for comfort. The metaphor of the moon adds to the otherworldly atmosphere, which intensifies the emotions conveyed by the lyrics.
Line by Line Meaning
The moon looks kinda hazy
The moon appears indistinct and unclear, lacking its usual radiance.
In a most peculiar way
The way the moon looks is unusual and strange.
And the stars are looking dizzy
The stars appear disoriented and unsteady as they hang in the sky.
As they're hangin' in the sky
The stars are suspended in the sky without any support, shimmering dimly.
I am wanderin' the streets alone
I am walking around aimlessly without any particular destination for company.
I'm howlin' at the moon
I am shouting loudly at the moon without any specific reason, maybe due to distress or seeking solace.
O' I wish there was some medicine
I desire a cure for my emotional imbalance or possibly a soothing antidote for my wounds.
That could heal my broken soul
I am in emotional turmoil, and I need emotional and mental healing to feel whole again.
It's too late to call for help
I am in the depths of despair and desolation and beyond the point of getting any assistance or support.
You see, I'm already too far gone
I have sunk so deeply into my emotional and mental problems that it may not be possible to undo the harm that has been done.
In the hoods of loneliness
I am wandering in isolated places where I have no one around me, and I am affected by my negative emotions.
Where I once started from
I am back to the initial state where there were no significant changes, and my problems still persist.
I am lost in you again
I am once again consumed by my problems, and I am drowning in them, to the point of being lost.
The day will soon be breakin' up
Morning will soon dawn, marking the start of a new day.
My empty little world
I have created a small universe where I am isolated and lonely.
This paradise of disbelief
I have constructed a place where I refuse to believe the harsh reality and prefer to stay in my own self-destructing world
I've built my life upon
I have sustained myself, providing a foundation to live through a world of despair and self-loathing.
When the sunbeams hit the ground
As the sun rises, its rays fall on the earth, illuminating everything around it with light.
Then I will fall apart again
As daylight approaches, I will once again crumble, succumbing to my negative emotions and hurting myself emotionally and mentally.
Shattered by the light
The brightness of daylight reflects the darkness within me, which shatters me even more.
That makes it painful clear to me
I am forced to confront the ugly truth about myself through the blinding light of day, which amplifies my already painful state.
Contributed by James R. Suggest a correction in the comments below.