The Torment of Existence Weighed Against the Horror of Nonbeing
Mayday Parade Lyrics


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You could call me a fiend
Say I'm unbalanced as I'll ever be
Wait around for the hook
All while you're desperately clinging to me
You could say that I'm lost
Searching around just to find my own soul
Digging under my own skin
Wearing the clothes just to know that I'm home

Now it's over and over and right back to me
What's the point if you've got one
Now I'm closer and closer to all that I need
Wait around and you'll see
Cause we all find love when we fall
And we say that it means the whole world
It means nothing at all

Me and all the lost boys
Spinning round in a circus we play
Hit me with it again
Once ain't enough now I should be okay

Now it's over and over and right back to me
What's the point if you've got one
Now I'm closer and closer to all that I need
Wait around and you'll see
Cause we all find love when we fall




And we say that it means the whole world
It means nothing at all

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Mayday Parade's "The Torment of Existence Weighed Against the Horror of Nonbeing" paint a vivid picture of a person grappling with their identity and the meaning of their existence. The opening lines illustrate the singer's awareness of their flaws, labeling themselves a "fiend" and "unbalanced." Despite this, others are still drawn to them, "desperately clinging" to them even as they struggle to find themselves.


The chorus seems to offer a glimmer of hope or optimism, with the notion that everyone can find love when they fall. However, this hope is tinged with irony as the final line suggests that this love may ultimately mean "nothing at all." The singer seems resigned to the fact that the pleasures and relationships of life are ultimately fleeting and perhaps even illusory.


The second verse further emphasizes this sense of disillusionment, with the singer joining "all the lost boys" in a never-ending cycle of searching and getting hit with the same challenges over and over again. In the end, the song seems to suggest that life is a constant struggle to find meaning and connection, but that ultimately these things may be impossible to obtain.


Overall, "The Torment of Existence Weighed Against the Horror of Nonbeing" is a poignant meditation on the human condition, exploring themes of identity, meaning, and the search for connection in a world that can often feel aimless and chaotic.


Line by Line Meaning

You could call me a fiend
I am often judged harshly by others and called names


Say I'm unbalanced as I'll ever be
People say that I'm unstable and will never change


Wait around for the hook
You are eagerly waiting for me to make a mistake, as if ready to pounce


All while you're desperately clinging to me
At the same time, you are desperately holding onto our relationship


You could say that I'm lost
I am confused and struggling to find my purpose


Searching around just to find my own soul
I am looking for a deeper understanding of myself and my place in the world


Digging under my own skin
I am examining myself and trying to understand who I truly am


Wearing the clothes just to know that I'm home
I am trying to find comfort and familiarity in my surroundings


Now it's over and over and right back to me
I keep experiencing the same cycle of emotions and events, leading back to me


What's the point if you've got one
I'm questioning the purpose or meaning of my experiences


Now I'm closer and closer to all that I need
Despite my confusion, I am slowly getting closer to understanding what I truly need


Wait around and you'll see
If you stick around and give me time, you'll see that I am making progress


Cause we all find love when we fall
Love often comes unexpectedly, when we least expect it


And we say that it means the whole world
We often have high expectations for love and what it means to us


It means nothing at all
Sometimes, despite our expectations, love does not fulfill us in the way we had hoped


Me and all the lost boys
I am with a group of people who are similarly confused and searching


Spinning round in a circus we play
We are caught up in the chaos and confusion of life, like performers in a circus act


Hit me with it again
Despite the difficulties, I am ready to face them again


Once ain't enough now I should be okay
I need to face my struggles repeatedly in order to grow and become stronger




Lyrics © Songtrust Ave
Written by: ALEXANDER ANTONIO GARCIA, BROOKS PATRICK BETTS, CHRISTOPHER JACOB BUNDRICK, DEREK SANDERS, JEREMY STEPHEN LENZO

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You could call me a fiend
Say I’m unbalanced as I’ll ever be
Wait around for the hook
All while you’re desperately clinging to me
You could say that I’m lost
Searching around just to find my own soul
Digging under my skin
Wearing your clothes just to know that I’m home

Now it’s over and over and right back to me
What’s the point if you’ve got one?
Now I’m closer and closer to all that I need
Wait around and you’ll see

Cause we all find love when we fall
And we say that it means the whole world
It means nothing at all

Me and all the lost boys
Spinning around in a circus we play
Hit me with it again
Once ain’t enough now I should be okay

Now it’s over and over and right back to me
What’s the point if you’ve got one?
Now I’m closer and closer to all that I need
Wait around and you’ll see

Cause we all find love when we fall
And we say that it means the whole world
It means nothing at all

I hope, I hope you're happy now
I hope, I hope you're happy now
Later you'll find out
Later you'll find out this is a castle and I am the king

There's a price that you pay for living this way
Every night on a stage forgetting yourself
For the words that you love
You don't say what you need
You just take what you want

Now it's over and over and right back to me
What's the point if you've got one?
Now I'm closer and closer to all that I need
Wait around and you'll see

Cause we all find love when we fall
And we say that it means the whole world
It means nothing at all, nothing at all

And we say that it means the whole world
It means nothing at all



All comments from YouTube:

Kazuma Kannagi

I listened to this once, and it instantly became one of my favourite songs. Although, I think I need a break before I listen to it again...

samantha zosaya

It's songs like this where I fall in love with Mayday Parade all over again. I'm in love with album so far. Amazing job guys.

Jaden G

Mayday parade helped me find out who I am :)

Mom&dads channel

Nah man, I've known you for years and you're still totally fucked.

Richárd Kónya

I like these words :) For me too

Lyvix Kitty

Now it's over and over and right back to me, 
Whats the point if you've got one?
Now i'm closer and closer to all that I need. 
Wait around and you'll see,
Cause we all fall in LOVE when we fall,
And we say that it means the whole world it means nothing at all,
(oh I hope your happy now!)
Love this song<3

Lacie Cartwright

Literally my favourite song from the album :')

brandi lynn

one of the best songs on the album <3

Juan Paulo II

Mayday has so many good underrated songs ngl

bmagicwoman

THIS ALBUM IS PERFECT <3

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