They have released several of their records via their own imprint, Rovena Recordings and have also been signed to Snapper, Spitfire, Century Media, Undergroove Records, Rovena Recordings and Tiefdruck Musik.
Releases:
Speak & Destroy (1999, UK release; 2000, US release) (Spitfire/Snapper)
A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000) (Spitfire/Snapper)
To Britain With Love... and Bruises (2001; only released in the UK) (Live) (Snapper)
The Shape Of Things To Come (2003) (Century Media)
The Horror Of Beauty (2003) (Century Media)
The Brutal Language (2005) (Rovena/Undergroove)
Throat Full Of Heart (2008) (Rovena/Undergroove)
Alive On The Other Side (2008) (Rovena/Cargo)
Ghosts and Good Stories (2010) (Tiefdruck)
A Southern Revelation (2011)
The Sacred Mood (2013)
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Former Members:
Chris Lisee - Bass (2005-2009)
JD - Drums (2008-2009)
Marcelo Palomino - Drums (2008)
Matt Lechevalier - Drums (2005-2007)
Yael - Drums (2000-2005)
Jason Brunk - Bass (2005)
Jonny Chow - Bass (2004-2005)
Meghan Mattox - Bass (1999-2004)
Melanie Makaiwi - Guitar & Bass (on Speak & Destroy)
They have a dedicated fanbase, most notably in the UK. Their sound consists of passionate and angry vocals set against heavy metal riffs and beats. Vocalist Tairrie B and Mick Murphy began a side project known as The Lvrs. Mick Murphy has another side project known as Neanderthal.
Monster
My Ruin Lyrics
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You murder me just to watch me bleed.
I live inside... my own make belief,
I sacrifice... what you can't see
I'm hissing mad and I'm dripping wet.
I have no father, I have no pet and I'll be damned the day I die
Your antimuse your antilife
I will destroy if I speak,
It will destroy how I speak...
I will destroy when I speak...
It will destroy you another lover, another man, another victim of circumstance.
I close my eyes with no regret I know your name baby but I forget
My mouth is cruel and my lips are mean,
I dirty minded and I am obscene
But I'll be saved the day I die,
I'll be your muse, I'll be your lie (repeat chorus)
I see God and he is my friend
But the devil's standing next to him,
He says my name and I feel so weak,
Just like a monster you cannot speak,
I am like a monster...
When I speak am I a monster... when I speak?
Your just a monster when we speak so I'm a monster when I speak...
Can I speak? I'll be your monster when we speak
And I will speak to destroy...
Speak and destroy....
Speak and destroy yeah.
The lyrics to My Ruin's song "Monster" seem to be a representation of the internal struggle of someone who sees themselves as a monster. The singer feels like they are constantly being destroyed by someone else and that they live in a world of their own make-believe. They feel like they have no support system, no father or pet, and are forced to sacrifice what others can't see.
The chorus speaks of the potential destruction that can occur if the singer speaks, that it will destroy how they speak, and in turn, destroy any potential lover or victim of circumstance around them. They feel as though they are cruel and obscene, but this is just who they are. The verses discuss God and the devil, with the devil having a hold over the singer that makes them feel like a monster. In the end, the singer decides to embrace this monster and use it to speak and destroy. The song overall seems to be about accepting oneself, even if that self is seen as a monster.
Line by Line Meaning
Destroy me as want turns to need
Please end my life as my need for destruction grows stronger every day
You murder me just to watch me bleed
You find pleasure in causing me pain and suffering
I live inside... my own make belief
I exist in a fictional reality, separate from the world around me
I sacrifice... what you can't see
I give up things that are important to me but are invisible to those around me
I'm hissing mad and I'm dripping wet
I am extremely angry and full of rage, to the extent that I am sweating
I have no father, I have no pet and I'll be damned the day I die
I lack any meaningful relationships or connections in my life, and will suffer eternally
Your antimuse your antilife
You are my nemesis and source of all negativity and suffering
Can I speak?
May I express myself vocally?
I will destroy if I speak
Whenever I speak, I cause destruction and chaos
It will destroy how I speak...
Speaking will negatively impact my ability to communicate in the future
It will destroy you another lover, another man, another victim of circumstance.
Talking to you will lead to your destruction and that of anyone who comes into your life
I close my eyes with no regret I know your name baby but I forget
I have no remorse for closing myself off to you, and have forgotten all about you
My mouth is cruel and my lips are mean
I say hurtful things and my words are often malicious
I dirty minded and I am obscene
I have vulgar thoughts and behave inappropriately
But I'll be saved the day I die, I'll be your muse, I'll be your lie
Even though I am troubled, I will offer inspiration and be a source of deceit in your life when I pass away
I see God and he is my friend
I feel a connection to a higher power that loves and accepts me for who I am
But the devil's standing next to him
Despite my relationship with God, temptation and evil lurk nearby
He says my name and I feel so weak
The devil calls out to me and I am powerless to resist
Just like a monster you cannot speak
I am like a terrifying creature, unable to find my voice or express myself fully
I am like a monster... When I speak am I a monster... when I speak?
My actions and words make me feel like a terrifying beast, and I question whether speaking makes me even worse
Your just a monster when we speak so I'm a monster when I speak...
You are a terrible person when we interact, so I must become monstrous in order to communicate with you
Can I speak? I'll be your monster when we speak
I need to express myself, even if it means becoming a monster when I talk to you
And I will speak to destroy... Speak and destroy... Speak and destroy yeah.
Whenever I speak, my words have the power to destroy and cause harm. So, I will keep speaking and destroying everything around me.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: BRIAN NEAL SCHWAGER, TAIRRIE BETH
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