Ni estabas ni estarás
Nach Lyrics

Cuando no era nada, ni nadie
Before I was someone and had anything, you were not there for me.

Va por quien estuvo ahí, abrazándome
This is for everyone who was there for me, embracing me when I needed support.

Cuando el tiempo pase y mi nombre solo sea un recuerdo
As time passes and my name fades away as a memory,

Por todos los que me cruce en el camino y me den calor
This is for everyone who crossed my path and gave me warmth.

Ni estabas ni estarás…
You were not there for me and you won't be there for me in the future.

Dónde estabas tú cuando el dolor se pinto en ocre
Where were you when the pain felt unbearable?

Cuando aquel profesor frustrado me llamo mediocre
When that frustrated teacher called me mediocre,

Cuando pedí prestado hasta para un café
When I had to borrow money even for a cup of coffee,

En noches bohemias y el DHC trajo brotes de esquizofrenia
During those bohemian nights, dealing with the effects of drugs that stirred up schizophrenia in me,

Tú no estabas allí sintiendo el hambre
You were not there for me when I was hungry.

En mis bolsillos cada amanecer, Cerveza y cigarrillos mi único placer
My pockets empty every morning, and beer and cigarettes my only pleasures,

Cuando vi aparecer sombras en el pasillo y sufrí insomnio discutiendo con mi ángel, mi demonio
When shadows appeared in the hallway, and my insomnia made me debate with my angel and demon within me,

Y donde estabas tú en aquel dilema
Where were you during that situation?

Si la pena se estratagema ante problemas en cadena
If grief becomes a strategy to deal with a string of problems,

Cuando cientos de poemas calmaban la fiebre de un chaval endeble
When I was a weak boy and hundreds of poems calmed my fever,

Ahora todos quieren fotos junto al celebre
Now everybody wants a picture with the famous.

No estabas allí si me, caí me lastime
You were not there for me when I fell and got hurt.

Mate mi fe cuando se fue mi hermana
When my sister passed away, my faith died with her.

Cuando tumbado en mi cama soñé que hacia milagros con un micro y nadie me animaba a conseguirlo
When I dreamt of achieving miracles with a microphone, and no one encouraged me to pursue it.

Dime donde estabas cuando la ansiedad me ahogaba
Tell me, where were you when anxiety was suffocating me?

Cuando cada pensamiento provocaba arcadas
When every thought made me nauseous,

Y temblaba cada poro de mi piel sin nadie que me abrazara y me dijera
When every pore of my skin trembled and there was no one to hold me and say,

Tranquilo todo irá bien
It's okay, everything will be alright.

Tú no estuviste allí
You were not there for me.

No viste mi mitad triste, Ni mis despistes
You didn't see my sad half nor my mistakes.

No fuiste muro contra los embistes del desprecio del cansancio del prejuicio
You weren't a wall to shield me against the attacks of disdain, exhaustion, and prejudice.

Hoy tan solo me ampara mi sacrificio
Today, only my own sacrifices protect me.

En aquel dolor, en aquel frio, En aquel temor, aquel vacio
In that pain, in that cold, in that fear, that emptiness,

En aquel amor cuando era crio, en aquella llama que se apagaba
In that love I felt as a child and in the flame that extinguished,

Va por quien ofreció su hombro como almohada
This is for those who offered their shoulder as a pillow.

Donde estarás tu cuando el futuro se tiña en negro
Where will you be when the future seems bleak?

Y llore recordando los triunfos que hoy celebro
And I cry while remembering the triumphs I celebrate today.

Creedlo es normal que no me crezca
Believe me, it's normal that I don't grow taller,

Si me llaman dios Cuando mi rap no les convenza me dirá adiós
If they call me a god, when my rap doesn't please them, they'll say goodbye.

Y estaré solo, mirando al pasado con gesto cansado
I'll be alone, looking at the past with a tired expression.

Contento y realizado sabiendo que lo di todo
Happy and content, knowing that I gave everything I had.

Cuando se apaguen los focos, Se cierre el telón
When the lights turn off, the curtains close,

Cuando solo sea otro loco en mi salón
When I'm just another crazy guy in my living room,

Sin inspiración, No estarás allí
Without inspiration, you won't be there for me.

No serás bálsamo del mal sabor
You won't be the remedy for the bad taste in my mouth.

De mi temor a hacerme viejo
Of my fear of getting old.

Cuando el espejo sacuda cada arruga en mi cara desnuda
When the mirror reflects every wrinkle on my naked face,

Y ante las dudas tu ternura nunca acuda como ayuda
And your tenderness never comes to my aid in times of doubt.

Donde estarás tú cuando todos me olviden
Where will you be when everybody forgets about me?

Cuando No consiga darles lo que piden y se giren
When I can't give them what they want, and they turn away,

Cuando sea un hombre solitario Suplicando afecto
When I'm a lonely man, begging for affection,

Y recuerde el escenario como aquel lugar perfecto
And I remember the stage as the perfect place.

No estarás allí en mis horas flojas
You won't be there for me during my weak hours.

Tampoco estas hojas, Tampoco esta fama que me sonroja
You're not these pages, you're not this fame that embarrasses me.

Si el tiempo me despoja de quien quiero, Espero espabilar
If time takes away the ones I love, I hope I'll wake up.

Y remontar certero el vuelo como un águila
And soar high with certainty like an eagle.

Y es que a mi lado nunca has estado
The truth is that you've never been by my side.

Si fui atrapado por mis fantasmas del pasado
If I was trapped by my ghosts from the past,

En aquel dolor, aquella espera
In that pain, in that wait,

Ni estuviste ni estarás
You weren't and won't be there for me.

Cuando nací ni cuando muera
Not when I was born, nor when I'll die.

Cuando llegue el dolor, y llegue el frio
When the pain and the cold arrive.

Cuando llegue el temor, llegue el vacio
When fear and emptiness come.

Y el desamor fluya en mi rio
And lovelessness flows in my river.

Cuando el éxito me gire la mirada
When success turns its back to me.

Va por quien me dé su hombro como almohada
This is for those who give me their shoulder as a pillow.

Y oiga el silencio del gentío
And hear the silence of the crowd.

Cuando el olvido acaricie cada pisada
When oblivion caresses every step I take.

Va por quien este y a cambio no pida nada
This is for those who are there for me without asking for anything in return.

Dicen que a través de las palabras el dolor se hace más tangible
They say that pain becomes more palpable through words.

Que podemos mirarlo como a una criatura oscura
They say that we can look at it like a dark creature,

Tanto más ajena a nosotros cuando más cerca la sentimos
That becomes more distant to us even though we feel it closely.