Autopsy Song
Otep Lyrics

...open wide, look inside
Examine me closely and inspect the inner workings of my being

At my autopsy
Revealing the harsh truth of my self-examination

I feel like a woman
I have emotions and I am capable of expressing them

I feel like I care
I'm empathetic and considerate to others' feelings

I feel like I shouldn't
I'm pressured by society to suppress emotions, and that's not right

I feel like a child of despair
I feel trapped and helpless, like a lost and abandoned child

I feel like it's over
I'm overwhelmed by my current circumstances and don't see a way out

I feel like it's coming after me
I'm haunted by my past and fear it will catch up to me

I feel like it's closer
I'm nearing the brink of collapse and can feel it getting near

I feel like this is all I'll ever be
I'm hopeless and my current state is my perpetual fate

I feel like a failure
I have not met expectations and see myself as a disappointment

I feel like a hungry parasite
I'm aware that I can be draining to others like a parasite, feeding off their care and attention

I feel like a razor
I'm sharp and cutting, capable of inflicting harm to myself and others

I feel like a prayer lost in flight
My attempts for help and guidance seem to go unanswered and I feel alone

I feel like ...
I'm overwhelmed by so many negative feelings that it's hard to articulate

I'm hopeless
I've lost faith in myself, others, and the future

I'm afraid I'm a slave
I'm aware that I'm subjugated to my negative thoughts and can't break free

I'm weak & average
I feel like I lack the strength and uniqueness to stand out

I feel like a hammer
I'm heavy, destructive, and hit hard

I feel like a nail
I'm vulnerable, constantly getting struck and experiencing pain

I feel like I'm guilty
I suffer from feelings of inadequacy and responsibility for things beyond my control

I feel like the wrist that it impales
I'm a victim of my own destructive tendencies

I feel like a butcher
I feel like I ruin everything I touch

I feel like I'm being deceived
I'm aware that my thoughts can be misleading and cause me to doubt myself

I feel like a beautiful loser
I feel like I could have been more but settled for less

I feel like all you sheep are laughing AT ME!!
I'm paranoid that others are mocking me and my struggles

Look inside open wide
I'm pleading with someone to pay attention to my struggles and notice that I need help

I feel I'm a complete waste of time
I feel like I have no value and the time spent on me is wasted

I feel I'm transparent
I feel like others can see through me and my facade

I feel like I can't escape my mind
I'm overwhelmed by my own negative thoughts and can't escape my mental state