Purple Rain
Potter Payper Lyrics

Had to question everything I stand for
I had to start questioning my own values and beliefs

Still purple rain and maintaining through the downpour
I'm still persevering and staying strong even in tough times

Cold night sleeping on the ground floor
I've experienced rough times, like sleeping on the streets

I′on hate my father I just wish he was around more
I don't hate my father, but I wish he had been more present in my life

Nanny came on a visit and she just broke down
My grandmother visited me and couldn't help but become emotional

She says she looks at me as if I was her own child
She treats me like her own child and cares deeply for me

And only I can choose the road I'm gonna go down
I have to make my own choices and determine my own path

So I know I′m on my own when it goes down
I understand that I have to rely on myself in difficult situations

But sometimes I can't cope G I can't lie
There are moments when I struggle and can't handle the pressure

Cah from young I been addicted to this fast life
Since I was young, I've been drawn to the thrill and excitement of a fast-paced lifestyle

Like I swear we were so high last night
We were intoxicated and clouded in our minds

And we didn′t make it home ′til like half five
We stayed out late and didn't return until around 5:30 AM

And this is real shit this ain't just the weed talking
I'm speaking honestly and genuinely, not just influenced by drugs

Every time I get away I hear a fiend calling
Whenever I try to escape this lifestyle, I'm pulled back by the temptation of addiction

I spend money I ain′t got like a remortgage
I continuously spend money I don't have, like taking out a loan against my property

I ain't slept for days feeling like I′m sleepwalking
I haven't slept in days and feel like I'm just going through the motions without real awareness

When I'm just tryna dodge another sentence
I'm trying my best to avoid getting arrested again

Stan Tookie Williams I′m just looking for redemption
I relate to Stanley Tookie Williams as I search for my own path to redemption

Hoodrat bitches holla looking for attention
Girls from the neighborhood constantly seek attention and validation

Snakes hissing in the distance and I can sense 'em
I can sense the presence of deceitful and treacherous individuals

Fake man wanna smile, say they're down to ride
Fake people pretend to be loyal and supportive

On the low I know the same man wanna fuck my wife
Secretly, I'm aware that some of these people have ulterior motives involving my wife

In the hood there ain′t nothing but some fucking sluts and liars
In my neighborhood, there are mostly promiscuous individuals and dishonest people

But I′ll clutch and rise it you could get touched I'm riding
I'll defend myself and retaliate if necessary, I'm ready to take action

Looking for a Judas 44′s, tre 8's, dottys and some Rugers
I'm searching for betrayers and enemies armed with different types of weapons

OT grow yard ciggies and some jewelers
I have connections out of town for illegal activities and purchasing stolen jewelry

Living for today like we ain′t got no futures
We live with a mindset focused on the present moment, disregarding long-term consequences

And I don't really wanna change
I have no real desire to transform my life

Seen so much shit, some shit I don′t even wanna say
I've witnessed and experienced many terrible things that I don't want to discuss

'99, they said my mummy went on holiday
In 1999, it was claimed that my mother went on vacation

I found out that my mummy was in Holloway
Later, I discovered that my mother was actually in Holloway Prison

But home is where the heart is, so I'm loving where I live
Although my mother was in prison, I still find comfort in calling it home and loving it

And I know most man never struggled like I did
I understand that most people haven't faced the same hardships as me

I was coming home hungry weren′t nothing in the fridge
Returning home starving, there was nothing to eat in the refrigerator

So I had to hit the road like something′s gotta give
In order to survive, I had to turn to the streets

'05, me and Dizz hitting kitties outta Holborn
In 2005, my friend Dizz and I were involved in illegal activities in the Holborn area

Chicks couldn′t grasp why I wouldn't show emotion
Women couldn't understand why I didn't express my emotions openly

Had to tell that bitch, chill, I live among some vultures
I had to calm her down and make her understand that I'm surrounded by dangerous and predatory individuals

And a home ain′t a home when your homes broken
A house can't truly be a home if it's filled with dysfunction and unhappiness

And then it gets harder
Life becomes even more difficult

Feltham, Chelmsford, Aylesbury, Parva
These are places associated with incarceration, symbolizing further challenges

And I got some youts that need looking after
I have some young individuals who depend on me for guidance and support

Two little girls that will never know their father
I have two daughters who will grow up without the presence of their father

′Cause daddy was a criminal, mummy couldn't cope
Their father's criminal activities led to their mother struggling to handle the situation

So daddy went jail, left mummy on her own
I went to prison, leaving their mother to take care of them alone

I was talking to the mandem they're like when you coming home?
My friends were asking me when I would be released from prison

Just keep rapping it could happen trust me you can blow
They encouraged me to continue pursuing my rap career, believing that I could achieve success

I gotta trap cah it′s the only life I know
I have to engage in illegal activities because it's the only lifestyle I'm familiar with

And my nanny′s always telling me as if I don't know
My grandmother constantly reminds me of things as if I'm unaware of them

And now I heard it′s action what defines the man
I've come to understand that it's one's actions that truly define a person

Blowing macaroni got me thinking 'bout this life I′ve had
Spending money recklessly makes me contemplate the life I've lived

And I'm just thinking ′bout this life I live
I'm reflecting on the choices and experiences that shape my current life

As I'm getting older had to question would I die for this?
With age, I've started to question if this lifestyle is worth dying for

Man are riding life in bin (la-la-la-la)
People are imprisoned, trapped in a cycle of crime and punishment

Shit the case is in the Old Bailey
The legal case is being heard in the Old Bailey, symbolizing the gravity of the situation

Separated mice from men, from young I learnt don't talk
I quickly learned to distinguish between trustworthy and untrustworthy individuals, and to keep silent about certain things

You know the game, you get caught that′s your own fault
If you're involved in illegal activities and get caught, it's your own responsibility

Did my first sentence as a baby boy
I served my first prison sentence at a very young age

Born in the 90s, fucking with them 80s boys
Born in the 1990s, I grew up associating with individuals involved in crime during the 1980s

Olders put me on road, back when it was all love
Older individuals introduced me to the streets, during a time when there was a sense of unity and camaraderie

Road taught me everything, teacher never taught us
I learned valuable lessons and life skills on the streets, rather than in the classroom

But don′t front like roads something that you're built for
Don't pretend that you're naturally suited for the lifestyle of the streets

′Cause you could die for something you wouldn't kill for
In this environment, you may end up risking your life for something you wouldn't intentionally harm others for

Mad years behind that steel door
I spent many years locked up in prison

Mad years on my strip mummy′s still poor
Even after all these years, my mother is still struggling financially

Wait there's still more I′m trapping 24's G
But there's even more to my story, I'm still involved in illegal activities 24/7

Up and down in and out 'til I got sore feet
Constantly moving and working until my feet ache

′04 to ′06 I never saw sleep
From 2004 to 2006, I hardly ever got any sleep

Raw B had me counting bags at 14
Raw B, a person I associate with, had me involved in counting bags of drugs at the age of 14

'07, I left the crown court free
In 2007, I was acquitted by the crown court and released

Back and forth on Feltham for like four weeks
I was sent back and forth to Feltham prison for a period of around four weeks

′08, I was back behind that door G
In 2008, I found myself once again incarcerated

Firearms charge I rid the whole four peak
I successfully fought against a firearms charge and avoided a lengthy prison sentence

But I rid that, the life you dickheads rap about I live that
I overcame that situation, and I can confidently say that I've truly experienced the lifestyle that some people rap about

Pebble down a big batch
I threw a pebble into a large batch (referring to drug dealing)

G-star pack and told him flip that
I provided someone with a package of G-star drugs and instructed him to sell it

I told him take three and bring six back
I instructed him to take three packages and return with six after selling them

And T's been gone for a minute now I miss akh
My friend T has been absent for a while, and I genuinely miss him

And I miss C and I miss whites
I also miss my friends C and Whites

On my kids′ life, every day I risk mine
I swear on my children's lives that every day I put my life at risk

I'm just tryna live right shit I gotta do wrong
I'm attempting to live a morally upright life, but sometimes I'm forced to resort to illegal actions

Couldn′t see you walking two steps with my shoes on
You wouldn't be able to handle walking even a short distance in my shoes and understanding my struggles

Ratchet always told me re-up before your foods gone
My friend Ratchet always advised me to restock on drugs before running out of supply

Ratchet always told me re-up before your foods gone
My friend Ratchet always advised me to restock on drugs before running out of supply