Deathbed
Relient K Lyrics
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Covering me
I can't believe this is the end
But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I'll be home
The year was nineteen forty one
I was eight years old and
Far far too young
To know that the stories
Of battles and glory
Was a tale a kind mother
Made up for her son
You see
Dad was a traveling preacher
Teaching the words of the Teacher
But mother had sworn
Went off to the war
And died there with honor
Somewhere on a beach there
But he left once to never return
Which taught me that I should unlearn
Whatever I thought a father should be
I abandoned that thought
Like he abandoned me
By forty seven I was fourteen
I'd acquired a taste for liquor and nicotine
I smoked until I threw up
Yet I still lit 'em up for thirty more years
Like a machine
So right there you have it
That one filthy habit
Is what got me where I am today
I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end
I can hear those sad memories
Still haunting me
So many things
I'd do again
But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I'll be home
I got married on my twenty first
Eight months before my wife would give birth
It's easier to be sure you love someone
When her father inquires with the barrel of a gun
The union was far from harmonious
No two people could have been more alone than us
The years would go by and she'd love someone else
And I realized I hadn't been loved yet myself
From there it's your typical spiel
Yeah if life was a highway
I was drunk at the wheel
I was helping the loose ends
All fall apart
Yeah I swear I was destined to fail
And fail from the start
I bowled about six times a week
The bottle of Beam kept the memories from me
Our marriage had taken a seven-ten split
Along with my pride the ex-wife took the kids
I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end
I can hear those sad memories
Still haunting me
So many things
I'd do again
But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I'll be home
I was so scared of Jesus
But He sought me out
Like the cancer in my lungs
That's killing me now
And I've given up hope
On the days I have left
But I cling to the hope
Of my life in the next
Then Jesus showed up
Said "Before we go"
"I thought that we might reminisce"
"See one night in your life"
"When you turned out the light"
"You asked for and prayed for my forgiveness"
You cried wolf
The tears they soaked your fur
The blood dripped from your fangs
You said, "What have I done?"
You loved that lamb
With every sinful bone
And there you wept alone
Your heart was so contrite
You said, "Jesus, please forgive me of my crimes
Sanctify this withered heart of mine
Stay with me until my life is through
And on that day please take me home with you"
I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end
I can hear You whisper to me,
"It's time to leave
You'll never be lonely again"
But this was my deathbed
I died there alone
When I closed my eyes tonight
You carried me home
I am the Way
Follow Me
And take My hand
And I am the Truth
Embrace Me and you'll understand
And I am the Light
And for Me you'll live again
For I am Love
I am Love
I, I am Love
The song "Deathbed" by Relient K is a powerful and emotive narrative of a man's life as he's lying on his deathbed. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of feelings of regret, despair, and hopelessness, as he looks back on his life and finds himself alone and dying. He starts to reminisce on his childhood and the stories his mother told him about his father, who was a traveling preacher that went to war and died there. The man, now dying, feels abandoned by his father, and he too has made many mistakes in his life, such as becoming a heavy drinker and smoker and ruining his marriage, which left him alone and childless.
The song takes on an interesting twist when Jesus shows up to visit the dying man. He reminds him of a night when he asked for forgiveness, and we hear the man's voice asking for forgiveness in the form of a sorrowful prayer. Jesus comforts the man and tells him that he will never be lonely again, and he takes him home.
The song is a modern-day parable, where the life of the dying man is a cautionary tale about the consequences of one's decisions, especially in light of one's spiritual life. The lyrics suggest that there is always hope for redemption and forgiveness, even at the last moment of one's life, and that love is the ultimate goal.
Line by Line Meaning
I can smell the death on the sheets
I am aware of the imminent end and decay that surrounds me
Covering me
Enveloping and suffocating me
I can't believe this is the end
I struggle to accept that this is the final chapter
But this is my deathbed
This is the place where I will take my last breath
I lie here alone
I am left in solitude as I face my demise
If I close my eyes tonight
In the moment of sleep, I anticipate finding solace
I know I'll be home
I believe I will find a sense of belonging and peace
The year was nineteen forty-one
In the past, during the year 1941
I was eight years old and
At that time, I was a young child of eight
Far far too young
Significantly too young to comprehend certain truths
To know that the stories
Unaware that the tales I was told
Of battles and glory
About war and triumphant deeds
Was a tale a kind mother
Turned out to be fabricated by my compassionate mother
Made up for her son
Created in order to protect and shield her child from harsh realities
You see
Allow me to explain further
Dad was a traveling preacher
My father worked as an itinerant religious teacher
Teaching the words of the Teacher
Spreading the teachings of Jesus
But mother had sworn
However, my mother had promised
Went off to the war
She departed to join the war effort
And died there with honor
She ultimately lost her life in a noble manner
Somewhere on a beach there
In some unknown location, possibly on a beach
But he left once to never return
My father departed and never came back
Which taught me that I should unlearn
This experience taught me to abandon
Whatever I thought a father should be
The preconceived notions I had of a father figure
I abandoned that thought
I completely abandoned that belief
Like he abandoned me
Just as he had left me behind
By forty seven I was fourteen
When I reached the age of fourteen in the year 1947
I'd acquired a taste for liquor and nicotine
I had developed a liking for alcohol and cigarettes
I smoked until I threw up
I continued smoking until I vomited
Yet I still lit 'em up for thirty more years
Nevertheless, I continued smoking for thirty additional years
Like a machine
With mechanical repetition and consistency
So right there you have it
So, it becomes evident at this point
That one filthy habit
That particular disgusting habit
Is what got me where I am today
It is the reason for my current situation
I got married on my twenty first
When I turned twenty-one, I entered into marriage
Eight months before my wife would give birth
Just eight months prior to my wife giving birth
It's easier to be sure you love someone
It is simpler to feel confident about your love for someone
When her father inquires with the barrel of a gun
When her father questions you at gunpoint
The union was far from harmonious
The marriage was anything but peaceful and balanced
No two people could have been more alone than us
We were immensely isolated and detached from one another
The years would go by and she'd love someone else
As time passed, she developed affection for another person
And I realized I hadn't been loved yet myself
I came to the realization that I had never truly experienced love
From there it's your typical spiel
From that point forward, it follows a familiar pattern
Yeah if life was a highway
If we were to compare life to a road
I was drunk at the wheel
I was intoxicated and out of control
I was helping the loose ends
I was aiding in the unraveling of loose threads
All fall apart
As everything crumbled and disintegrated
Yeah I swear I was destined to fail
I firmly believe that my fate was to be unsuccessful
And fail from the start
I was destined to fail right from the beginning
I bowled about six times a week
I engaged in bowling approximately six times per week
The bottle of Beam kept the memories from me
The bottle of Jim Beam whiskey helped me forget the memories
Our marriage had taken a seven-ten split
Metaphorically, our marriage had encountered a difficult and complicated situation
Along with my pride the ex-wife took the kids
In addition to my self-respect, my ex-wife gained custody of the children
I was so scared of Jesus
I held a deep fear and apprehension towards Jesus
But He sought me out
However, He actively pursued and reached out to me
Like the cancer in my lungs
Similar to the cancer that plagues my lungs
That's killing me now
Which is currently causing my demise
And I've given up hope
I have lost all optimism
On the days I have left
Regarding the remaining time I have
But I cling to the hope
Yet, I desperately hold on to the expectation
Of my life in the next
For the existence that awaits me after death
Then Jesus showed up
Subsequently, Jesus appeared
Said 'Before we go'
Spoke, saying 'Before we depart'
"I thought that we might reminisce"
"I believed it would be meaningful to recall certain memories"
"See one night in your life"
"Let us revisit a particular night in your life"
"When you turned out the light"
"The moment when you switched off the light"
"You asked for and prayed for my forgiveness"
"You pleaded and prayed for my forgiveness"
You cried wolf
You falsely alarmed others
The tears they soaked your fur
Your tears saturated your fur
The blood dripped from your fangs
Blood trickled from your fangs
You said, 'What have I done?'
You expressed remorse, saying 'What have I caused?'
You loved that lamb
You displayed affection towards that innocent creature
With every sinful bone
Despite your corrupt nature and actions
And there you wept alone
In that moment, you shed tears of sorrow in solitude
Your heart was so contrite
Your heart was genuinely remorseful and repentant
You said, 'Jesus, please forgive me of my crimes
You humbly pleaded, 'Jesus, I beg for forgiveness for my transgressions
Sanctify this withered heart of mine
Cleanse and purify my weary and damaged heart
Stay with me until my life is through
Remain by my side until the end of my life
And on that day please take me home with you'
And when the day comes, please bring me to your heavenly abode'
You said, 'It's time to leave
You informed me, saying 'The moment has arrived for you to depart
You'll never be lonely again'
You assured me, stating 'You will never experience loneliness again'
But this was my deathbed
However, this particular place is where I met my demise
I died there alone
I passed away in solitude
When I closed my eyes tonight
At the moment of closing my eyes for the final time
You carried me home
You guided me to my true home
I am the Way
I am the path and means
Follow Me
Accept and follow my guidance
And take My hand
Reach out and hold onto my hand
And I am the Truth
I embody absolute truth
Embrace Me and you'll understand
Embrace my presence, and you will gain comprehension
And I am the Light
I represent enlightenment and illumination
And for Me you'll live again
And through me, you will experience life once more
For I am Love
Because I am the essence of pure love
I am Love
I am the embodiment of love itself
Lyrics © CAPITOL CHRISTIAN MUSIC GROUP, Universal Music Publishing Group, Capitol CMG Publishing
Written by: MATTHEW THIESSEN
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
Vi
I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end
But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I'll be home
The year was nineteen forty one
I was eight years old and
Far far too young
To know that the stories
Of battles and glory
Was a tale a kind mother
Made up for her son
You see
Dad was a traveling preacher
Teaching the words of the Teacher
But mother had sworn
Went off to the war
And died there with honor
Somewhere on a beach there
But he left once to never return
Which taught me that I should unlearn
Whatever I thought a father should be
I abandoned that thought
Like he abandoned me
By forty seven I was fourteen
I'd acquired a taste for liquor and nicotine
I smoked until I threw up
Yet I still lit 'em up for thirty more years
Like a machine
So right there you have it
That one filthy habit
Is what got me where I am today
I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end
I can hear those sad memories
Still haunting me
So many things
I'd do again
But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I'll be home
I got married on my twenty first
Eight months before my wife would give birth
It's easier to be sure you love someone
When her father inquires with the barrel of a gun
The union was far from harmonious
No two people could have been more alone than us
The years would go by and she'd love someone else
And I realized I hadn't been loved yet myself
From there it's your typical spiel
Yeah if life was a highway
I was drunk at the wheel
I was helping the loose ends
All fall apart
Yeah I swear I was destined to fail
And fail from the start
I bowled about six times a week
The bottle of Beam kept the memories from me
Our marriage had taken a seven-ten split
Along with my pride the ex-wife took the kids
I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end
I can hear those sad memories
Still haunting me
So many things
I'd do again
But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I'll be home
I was so scared of Jesus
But He sought me out
Like the cancer in my lungs
That's killing me now
And I've given up hope
On the days I have left
But I cling to the hope
Of my life in the next
Then Jesus showed up
Said "Before we go"
"I thought that we might reminisce"
"See one night in your life"
"When you turned out the light"
"You asked for and prayed for my forgiveness"
You cried wolf
The tears they soaked your fur
The blood dripped from your fangs
You said, "What have I done?"
You loved that lamb
With every sinful bone
And there you wept alone
Your heart was so contrite
You said, "Jesus, please forgive me of my crimes
Sanctify this withered heart of mine
Stay with me until my life is through
And on that day please take me home with you"
I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end
I can hear You whisper to me,
"It's time to leave
You'll never be lonely again"
But this was my deathbed
I died there alone
When I closed my eyes tonight
You carried me home
I am the Way
Follow Me
And take My hand
And I am the Truth
Embrace Me and you'll understand
And I am the Light
And for Me you'll live again
For I am Love
I am Love
I, I am Love
Kao Vang
I was so scared of Jesus
But He sought me out
Like the cancer in my lungs
That's killing me now
And I've given up hope
On the days I have left
But I cling to the hope
Of my life in the next
Then Jesus showed up
Said "Before we go"
"I thought that we might reminisce"
"See one night in your life"
"When you turned out the light"
"You asked for and prayed for my forgiveness"
You cried wolf
The tears they soaked your fur
The blood dripped from your fangs
You said, "What have I done?"
You loved that lamb
With every sinful bone
And there you wept alone
Your heart was so contrite
You said, "Jesus, please forgive me of my crimes
Sanctify this withered heart of mine
Stay with me until my life is through
And on that day please take me home with you"
This got me today (as it does everytime) :(
Jeff R
Forever will be one of the greatest Christan songs ever made. A beautiful, powerful story, the gospel message stated plainly in a very relatable way, and a catchy song all wrapped up in 11 minutes.
J dizzy
This this song is what sung me to sleep before my heart stopped beating I woke up in the hospital 3 days later out of a coma still my favorite song it's gotten me through some sad times and some good times I appreciate you guys a lot
T & Z Parkour and Vlogs
Good for you man! I know isn't it amazing what music can do! (Especially RK)
Vi
I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end
But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I'll be home
The year was nineteen forty one
I was eight years old and
Far far too young
To know that the stories
Of battles and glory
Was a tale a kind mother
Made up for her son
You see
Dad was a traveling preacher
Teaching the words of the Teacher
But mother had sworn
Went off to the war
And died there with honor
Somewhere on a beach there
But he left once to never return
Which taught me that I should unlearn
Whatever I thought a father should be
I abandoned that thought
Like he abandoned me
By forty seven I was fourteen
I'd acquired a taste for liquor and nicotine
I smoked until I threw up
Yet I still lit 'em up for thirty more years
Like a machine
So right there you have it
That one filthy habit
Is what got me where I am today
I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end
I can hear those sad memories
Still haunting me
So many things
I'd do again
But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I'll be home
I got married on my twenty first
Eight months before my wife would give birth
It's easier to be sure you love someone
When her father inquires with the barrel of a gun
The union was far from harmonious
No two people could have been more alone than us
The years would go by and she'd love someone else
And I realized I hadn't been loved yet myself
From there it's your typical spiel
Yeah if life was a highway
I was drunk at the wheel
I was helping the loose ends
All fall apart
Yeah I swear I was destined to fail
And fail from the start
I bowled about six times a week
The bottle of Beam kept the memories from me
Our marriage had taken a seven-ten split
Along with my pride the ex-wife took the kids
I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end
I can hear those sad memories
Still haunting me
So many things
I'd do again
But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I'll be home
I was so scared of Jesus
But He sought me out
Like the cancer in my lungs
That's killing me now
And I've given up hope
On the days I have left
But I cling to the hope
Of my life in the next
Then Jesus showed up
Said "Before we go"
"I thought that we might reminisce"
"See one night in your life"
"When you turned out the light"
"You asked for and prayed for my forgiveness"
You cried wolf
The tears they soaked your fur
The blood dripped from your fangs
You said, "What have I done?"
You loved that lamb
With every sinful bone
And there you wept alone
Your heart was so contrite
You said, "Jesus, please forgive me of my crimes
Sanctify this withered heart of mine
Stay with me until my life is through
And on that day please take me home with you"
I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can't believe this is the end
I can hear You whisper to me,
"It's time to leave
You'll never be lonely again"
But this was my deathbed
I died there alone
When I closed my eyes tonight
You carried me home
I am the Way
Follow Me
And take My hand
And I am the Truth
Embrace Me and you'll understand
And I am the Light
And for Me you'll live again
For I am Love
I am Love
I, I am Love
T & Z Parkour and Vlogs
@visitur Agreed but he did do good! (I agree with you though) ;)
visitur
I'm 99% sure that at the end it says, "I am the life," not "I am the light." You can listen to the live version, or look at the fact he says "for me you'll live again," or just read John 14:6 = "I am the way, the truth, and the life." Otherwise, epic job! Just trying to help out.
Minty Toes
you: takes the time to write the lyrics of an 11 minute song
Me: carefully, he's a hero
Purple Yeti
I love how, even though Relient K has some strange and funny songs, but they still have these few songs that have a deep meaning. In other words, 10/10, would sing again
T & Z Parkour and Vlogs
Agreed man! they're the bomb! VERY underrated!
Dan Astalyn
I found out that even the strange and funny songs have a really deep meaning... I love them haha