Beginning
Richard Grassby-Lewis Lyrics

I said goodbye, just to come back 'round again
I left you, but I couldn't resist returning

This loving hurts when you know how it all ends, yeah
Our relationship is painful now that we know it will end

Like I'm sitting round after the credits roll and its all over
It feels like our relationship is a movie that has ended

Thinkin' deep got me stressed out- now I'm losing composure
Overthinking about our relationship has made me feel anxious and unstable

In a daze- running down my face
I'm crying uncontrollably, lost in my emotions

Play the scene back in my head
I keep replaying memories of us in my mind

Where I'm still holding on to you
I imagine myself still holding onto you, even though we're no longer together

You smile at me from my bed
I imagine you smiling at me from my bed, even though you're not really there

Tears
I'm crying

Upset with me, cowardly feeling I failed
I'm upset with myself and feel like a failure

I love you so much so then why did we fail
I'm confused and hurt because I loved you so much, but we still failed

Fears
I have fears about our future

It's deeper than us now I can't comprehend
Our problems are bigger than just us and it's hard for me to understand

Hope this isn't the end
I hope our relationship isn't over for good

Now we're beginning again (Mmm) We're beginning again Beginning again Beginning again, beginning again
We're starting our relationship again, hoping for a fresh start

I can't believe what we've become Can't feel my face it's all gone numb Smoking on weed, suck on my thumb Act like a baby in your arms In your arms In your arms (Can't feel relief even in your arms)
Our relationship has left me feeling lost and numb, and I act like a child when I'm with you. Even in your arms, I can't find relief from my pain.

I blame myself Think I need some help Looking through that mirror, it's the cards we're dealt Is it all my pride? Why we burn in hell Or are you messing with me? 'Till I lose myself
I'm blaming myself for our problems and wondering if I need help. I'm examining our relationship and questioning if it's my pride causing issues or if you're playing games with me.

Like ooh, I can't escape it This love is my favorite Enough that I'll save it from our rainy days Pray the pain can wash away (wash away)
Even though our love is painful, it's still my favorite thing. I'm willing to save it for the tough times and hope that the pain will eventually wash away.

Calling me selfish Throw in my well wish Clinging and clanging I'm just singing Sorry if its hurt you I just wanna stay Loving you Loving you (beginning again) Loving you (beginning again)
You're calling me selfish, but I'm trying to make things right. I'm holding onto you and singing, even though it may be painful. I just want to stay and love you as we begin again.

Now we're beginning again Beginning again Beginning again I can't believe what we've become Can't feel my face it's all gone numb Smoking on weed, acting so dumb Cry like a baby in your arms In your arms (now we're beginning again) In your arms (now we're beginning again) Can't feel relief even in your arms (Now we're beginning again) (Now we're beginning again) (Mmm) Just want to be held in your arms In your arms In your arms Just want to be held in your arms
We're starting our relationship again, but it's still painful and confusing. I can't find relief, even in your arms. All I want is to be held in your arms.