Spiral
S.E.N.S. Lyrics

Everybody's walking in a downward spiral
Everyone is trapped in a negative cycle of their own lives.

A lunatic encaged in his own brain
Feeling trapped and controlled by his own thoughts and emotions like a madman.

Makeshift thoughts taught me survival in this game
Adapting his thoughts as a strategy for surviving in life's challenges.

I might as well keep aim
He decides to keep striving for his goals.

Cause if I give up now I'll never change
If he gives up, he will remain stuck in his current situation.

Who am I to blame
He questions his responsibility for his own struggles.

I developed an interest like a prescription
He became addicted to something that initially seemed harmless.

So easy to O.D. it's hard to feed my addiction
His addiction has become so overpowering that it's difficult to satisfy it.

A victim to my own crimes so why the hell am I living
Feeling like a victim of his own actions, questioning the purpose of his existence.

I share my trust with people who care but apparently too much
He trusted others who seemed to care, but ended up being betrayed.

And caring is now backstabbing my gut
Putting his trust in others has caused emotional harm.

For all the fucks who decided to take the lies and the blame
Expressing resentment towards those who deceived him.

I can't erase that shame
He cannot rid himself of the shame caused by the deception.

But I take each day like I'm living in hell as it swells in my veins
He faces each day with immense difficulties that feel overwhelming.

This is what I portray as I gain the respect in my name
Despite his struggles, he tries to maintain a strong image and gain respect.

So for this I take the frown off my face
He removes his sadness and puts on a brave face.

Stand up to surround my anger and rage
Facing his anger and frustration head-on.

To conquer this game with all of my pain
He aims to overcome life's challenges despite the pain.

Making a change for myself that no one can break
He is determined to make a positive change in his life that cannot be destroyed by others.

Loneliness has set in as my sedative
Feeling isolated, he uses loneliness as a coping mechanism.

Music drains the thoughts which stops the pain
Listening to music helps him temporarily escape from his thoughts and emotional pain.

Again I made the same mistake and put faith in my brain
He continues to trust his own thoughts despite previous disappointments.

Still I wrap myself in a straight jacket
He confines himself mentally, restricting his own freedom.

Refusing harm from my insane habits
He chooses to reject the negative consequences of his self-destructive behavior.

But again I break my mental state
Once again, he loses control of his mind and emotions.

Lose control of myself and fade away
He becomes overwhelmed and loses his sense of self.

Until my brain displays an image of a gift I had in place
Eventually, his mind conjures a reminder of a talent he possessed.

Finally, my life makes sense
With this reminder, he starts to find meaning in his life.

But it's too late to save
Unfortunately, it's too late for him to fully recover or change his circumstances.

He grew up in a broken home with loaded folk
He was raised in a dysfunctional family environment with dangerous individuals.

Learned how to hold his own by choking throats
He learned to defend himself aggressively, even resorting to violence.

His only hope was to keep his dome afloat
His only hope was to maintain his sanity.

And reap what begun to sew
He hoped to reap the benefits of his hard work.

He started to load his clothes into a garbage bag
He packed his belongings in a hasty and makeshift manner.

Taking all he had and called his dad but through all this laughed
He reached out to his father, but their interaction was filled with bitterness and mockery.

Made a smirk and called him fat
He responded to his father's insults with a smug expression and insulted him back.

Then, after he saw this man and the way he lived
After witnessing his father's lifestyle and behavior.

He knew things would be a different state of bliss
He realized that his own life would take a different, more positive direction.

And that began to change this kid
This realization became a catalyst for change in his life.

Alcohol cut his brain in fifths and shared depression with laziness
He resorted to excessive alcohol consumption as a coping mechanism, which intensified his depression and made him lethargic.

Moved on to engrave his wrists
He turned to self-harm, specifically cutting his wrists.

And after all of this, he remained with him
Despite everything he went through, he still carried his pain with him.

Learned life was a crazy bitch and hated it
He realized that life can be unpredictable and difficult, leading to his dislike for it.

He needed maintenance on his life of shamelessness but no one gave a shit
He desired help and support to fix his reckless lifestyle, but no one cared enough.

Could you blame this kid
Can you really blame him for his current state of mind?

Always stepped on and no one had faith in him
Feeling constantly overlooked and underestimated by others.

So he scraped his wrists of all the wounds and made this fit
He used his past pain as inspiration to create this song.

Everybody wants to step on me
Feeling like everyone wants to bring him down.

Confused with life who am I supposed to be
Feeling lost and uncertain about his identity and purpose.

Feeling suppressed by all the pests
Feeling oppressed and burdened by those around him.

And nobody sees what this shit has done to me
No one truly understands the impact of his struggles on his mental and emotional well-being.

Who am I supposed to believe
Not knowing whom to trust or believe in.

Everybody's walking in a downward spiral
Everyone is caught up in a negative and destructive cycle.

Everybody's walking in a downward spiral
Everyone is caught up in a negative and destructive cycle.