Scars
SadBoyProlific Lyrics

I'm sick of loving, every time it's just a misconception
I am tired of falling in love because it never turns out the way I expect it to.

I find a girl and she lead me into a new dimension
Each girl I fall in love with introduces me to a new perspective on life.

Thinking about the future, counting out all of our blessings
I spend a lot of time imagining a future with the person I love and appreciate all that we have together.

Then I find out it's all fake, and she leave me guessing
Eventually, I discover that my imagined future with her is not going to happen, and I'm left confused and wondering what went wrong.

I guess I learnt my lesson, I guess we're better ended
I realize that I should have been more careful with my heart and that it's best to move on from this relationship.

I wish I never gave my heart out, dummy should've kept it
I regret opening up to her and wish I had kept my heart guarded.

Just like a piece of paper, she ripped my heart in half
She hurt me so much that it feels like she ripped my heart into pieces.

I guess this kind of thing is something I won't ever have
I feel like love is something that will never work out for me.

But it's fine, soon I'll just get use to it
I'm going to try to get used to the idea of being alone and not depending on love.

To keep my mind off of love, I'll just do stupid shit
I'll distract myself from love by doing things that are meaningless and probably not good for me.

I fell asleep, questioning is anyone for me
I often go to sleep wondering if I'll ever find someone who loves me.

Laying on my back, using music as a remedy
When I'm feeling down, I use music to try to feel better.

Listening and writing all these sad songs
I write and listen to sad songs as a way to express and cope with my emotions.

I'm, happy for a bit but doesn't last long
Sometimes the sad songs make me feel better temporarily, but the feeling never lasts.

I'm tryna find the joy in all this chaos
I'm trying to find the silver lining or positives in all the negative emotions I'm feeling.

Keep on praying for my future, hope it pays off
I'm hopeful that things will get better, and I pray for a happy future.

Broke my heart, you tore it in two
She hurt me so bad that it feels like she broke my heart in two.

So why am I still thinking of you?
Even though she hurt me, I can't stop thinking about her.

Yo, lately it's fuck emotions, grab the dope and then I roll it
Recently, I've been avoiding my emotions and numbing them with drugs.

I've been tripping off the potent, honestly I'm omnipotent
The drugs I've been taking have been making me feel powerful and in control of my emotions.

Used to think about our memories, I cleared them like my history
I used to think about the memories I had with her, but now I'm trying to forget them like they were never a part of my life.

Wrote this in a grave to set the scene cause love is dead to me
I wrote these lyrics in a dark place to represent how I feel about love - that it's dead to me.

Our love was one sided, I know you ain't felt the same
I realize now that our relationship was one-sided, and she never loved me the way I loved her.

I bet you relish the fact that I fucking felt this pain
I think she enjoys knowing that she caused me pain and heartache.

You gave me comfort, you were like my shelter from the rain
She was a source of comfort to me, like a shelter from the difficult times in life.

Gripping the razor blade I swear I'd never love again
I was so heartbroken that I thought about self-harm and swore off love forever.

I'll keep that promise, trust me I won't break it
I am serious about my promise to never love again, and I won't break it.

I ripped my heart out of my chest and chained it in the basement
To make sure I don't fall in love again, I've metaphorically removed my heart and kept it locked away.

Knockin' bottles till I'm wasted, clear to see I'm changing
To cope with my pain and avoid emotions, I drink until I'm drunk, and this is causing me to change.

Rather stick to blazin', and the dreams that I been chasing
I prefer to smoke weed and focus on my passions and dreams in life to avoid dealing with my emotions.

I know hearts don't physically break, but my chest hurts
I am aware that hearts don't actually break, but the emotional pain I am feeling is causing physical pain in my chest.

I can still smell her perfume on my sweatshirt
I still have physical reminders of her, such as her perfume on my clothing, that make it hard for me to move on.

They say that time can heal, soon I'll feel better
People often say that time can heal emotional wounds, and I hope that's true and I'll start to feel better soon.

But all that can heal this is if I never met her
Sometimes I think that the only thing that can make me feel better is if I had never met her at all.

Story never ends, if the story never starts
If I never take a chance on love and relationships, I will never have to deal with the pain and hurt that comes with them.

Take these sad feelings, trying to turn them into art
I am using my negative emotions to inspire and create music that others can relate to.

Paintbrush, light stroke, out all of my feelings
Like how an artist uses a paintbrush, I use music to express and release all of my emotions.

Spitting shit, typing quick, keep writing lyrics
I am constantly writing lyrics and expressing my emotions through my music.

Take the wheel, I can't see but keep steering
I'm lost and can't see a clear path forward, but I'm asking for guidance and support to keep going.

Moving on, kicking out my past demons
I am actively trying to move on from my past and let go of any negative emotions that are holding me back.

And I'm not walking, I'll be running from this torture
I am not just trying to move forward, but I am actively running away from the emotional pain I'm experiencing.

I see the light, do my best to move forward
Even though it's challenging, I am trying my best to see a brighter future and move forward from the pain and hurt I've experienced.