After their appearance in diverse compilations published in the North American market and the auto-edition of "Pride", E.P. of 1998, Self-Delusion has been taken in hand by the producer Frans Beltran (aka-Iberian Spleen and involved also in the production of Spanish bands as diverse as Magnatiz, Freak XXI, Klockwork or Shuga Whuga) to give form to their first album ("Happiness hurts me").
This recording shows the eclecticism of Self-Delusion creating songs on varied electronic structures, which take them from the classic tecnopop to trip-hop, techno-rock or electro. Their sound betrays them as big followers of the music of 80s; their members are indeed fans of very varied bands that go from Depeche Mode to The Smiths, from The Cure to Portishead, from Aviador Dro to Lamb or from Fangoria to Covenant.
Self-Delusion has been a supporting act for bands such as Wolfsheim and De/Vision, VNV Nation and Apoptygma Berzerk.
With "Happiness hurts", Self-Delusion makes a move to find a place in the electronic national scene as they have obtained it, occasionally, in the international one, where they have managed to edit and to receive prizes as the fourth position in the Clavia MP3 Competition (contest organized by the well known synths manufacturer Clavia -nordlead-) thanks their song "Christine", included in "Happiness hurts me".
Nowadays they're working in their second album, called "Not for Resale" (produced by Self-Delusion with the collaboration of Pina -from Fire).
Secret Life
Self Delusion Lyrics
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growing up inside
forbidden sea, so deep sea
spreading at your feet
as knives in veins erasing life
deciding needs for you
a sterile sea, as our lives
killing dreams in you
just don't try this way
feeding seeds of ill
just don't try this way
there's a new temptation not allowed
growing up inside
forbidden sea, so deep sea
spreading at your feet
killing dreams in you
just don't try this way
feeding seeds of ill
just don't try this way
do you need that, lie
do you want the moon?
...dig your grave
and creep inside
The lyrics of Self Delusion's song "Secret Life" describe a new temptation that is growing inside someone's mind, despite it being forbidden. This forbidden desire is described as a deep sea that is spreading at their feet, consuming them like knives in veins erasing life. The decision to give in to this temptation is left up to the individual, as they are the ones who must decide whether to let it control them. However, the song warns against giving in to this forbidden desire as it will lead to killing dreams and feeding seeds of ill.
The song's message is one of caution against falling for temptations that are forbidden, as they can lead to destructive and negative consequences. The imagery of a deep sea and knives in veins creates a sense of danger and urgency, emphasizing the seriousness of the situation. Overall, the lyrics convey a sense of warning against self-delusion and the need to make the right decisions for oneself.
Line by Line Meaning
there's a new temptation not allowed
There is something tempting you, but society or a moral code tells you that it's wrong to pursue it.
growing up inside
This temptation is growing stronger and more influential within you.
forbidden sea, so deep sea
The temptation feels like an endless and unattainable desire, like a deep sea that is impossible to conquer.
spreading at your feet
The temptation is becoming more and more present and overwhelming in your life.
as knives in veins erasing life
The pursuit of this temptation will ultimately lead to self-destruction, like knives cutting into one's veins and erasing their life.
deciding needs for you
The temptation has clouded your ability to make rational decisions, instead it is influencing your actions and decisions for you.
a sterile sea, as our lives
The mundane and unfulfilling nature of daily life is likened to a sterile sea, adding further allure to the tempting desire.
you must decide right now
It is imperative to make a choice about whether or not to pursue this temptation before it's too late.
killing dreams in you
This temptation is hindering your ability to pursue your dreams and passions.
just don't try this way
The singer advises against pursuing this temptation as it will ultimately lead to negative consequences.
feeding seeds of ill
Pursuing this temptation will only lead to further negative consequences down the line.
do you need that, lie
Questioning whether the temptation is a true necessity or a deceptive lie.
do you want the moon?
The temptation seems like an unattainable desire, like wanting the moon.
...dig your grave
Implying that pursuing this temptation will lead to a figurative death, whether emotional or otherwise.
and creep inside
Once you've given in to the temptation, it becomes ingrained within you and difficult to escape.
Contributed by Max O. Suggest a correction in the comments below.