Aphrodite
SuicideBoy Lyrics

Manifesto of depression
This song is a statement about depression and its grip on the author.

Stocking up my weapons, Natural Born Killers
The author is preparing for self-harm and the line references the movie 'Natural Born Killers', signifying their violent thoughts.

Get relief from my aggression
The author is trying to control their negative thoughts and emotions through self-harm.

Symbol of oppression triple six flexing
The author has embraced their perceived oppression and displays it as a badge of honor through a reference to the number 666.

Fuckboys love my seconds
The author receives attention from others, but only after they have had their own personal satisfaction fulfilled.

Smoking dope while I'm texting
The author is using drugs as a coping mechanism and distraction from their struggles, even while communicating with others.

Sounds so simple, right?
The author recognizes that thoughts of suicide and self-harm may be misunderstood by others and that the solution isn't as simple as it may seem.

Artesian on some ice, both wrists sliced
The author is cutting themselves intentionally and deeply, to somehow feel relief or to bring about their desired outcome.

Killing myself every night
The author is struggling with deep self-hate and a desire to end their own life, which is a nightly occurrence.

Motherfuckers want to adopt the dark
The author is disheartened and disagrees with people who want to appropriate the feelings of darkness and depression that the author is actually experiencing.

But I was born in it
The author is saying that they have experienced these feelings from a young age and that it is a part of them.

Popping pills until I'm stopping hearts
The author is using substances to numb their pain and is willing to go as far as risking their life to find relief from their struggles.

Bunch of worms swimming Through my veins and blood Put that lead through my skull
The author is metaphorically comparing their emotions to worms and feels like they are infested with despair. They want to end their life by shooting themselves in the head.

Death in the night, hiding from the light Everything changes when you make it out alive
The author is in a dark place but recognizes that if they can make it through, things can get better.

Middle of the night, hoping that I die Middle of the night, always fucking high
The author is struggling with depression and frequently turns to drugs to escape their thoughts of self-harm.

Got a life I'm trying to shake Get the fuck away die slow for me, baby Let's get the fuck away Die slow, let's get the fuck away
The author is trying to get away from their current circumstances and is willing to risk their life to escape their struggles.

I'm hoping that someone will come And slit my throat And then I can finally overdose Shawty looking like she needs some rest So in the grave, she goes I'm right beside her She trying to get what's in my chest Hollow ribs She doesn't know that I'm a ghost Haunting the air with my sweet decay For death, I do not delay Yeah, that's why my skin is grey 59 is the blood stain painted on your day Switching up the blade Yeah, she said she wants the knife Told her, 'bitch, I got the sword' Yeah, her dress ain't white no more I'm that 7th Ward dead lord Got my bitch dead on the floor Now she begging for some more Now she begging for some more
The author is lost in their mind and desires someone to end their life for them. They are struggling with mental illness and their physical form feels empty and decayed. The author is behind their loved one's death and is feeling powerful yet empty. They want to be wanted, and their destructive actions create this false sense of desire.

Would you die for me? Would you die for me? I need you, and I hope you need me too I want to kill you would you die for me? Would you die for me? I need you, and I hope you need me too
The author is lonely and struggling with self-hate, but feels like someone dying for them would give their life meaning. They are unsure of their own worth and want validation from others, even if it means hurting them in the process.