There are two versions of "Close to Me", one with a brass section and one without. The version without the brass section is the original album version on The Head on the Door while the version with brass instruments is a remix that was released as a single and appears on Staring at the Sea: the Singles. The instrumental brass section appearing on the single versions is actually adapted from a traditional New Orleans funeral march. The 12" extended mix contains an extended arrangement of the brass section, featuring original material not found on other versions. The versions with brass instruments also include a long creaking sound of a door closing at the beginning. This sound comes from the beginning of the music video that was shot for "Close to Me", which features the band trapped in a wardrobe that is falling off of a cliff into an ocean. The lyrics contain the words "If only I was sure/that my head on the door was a dream", which inspired the title for the album.
Close to Me
The Cure Lyrics
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I've made myself so sick
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I never thought this day would end
I never thought tonight could ever be
This close to me
Just try to see in the dark
To feel the fear before you're here
I make the shapes come much too close
I pull my eyes out
Hold my breath and wait until I shake
But if I had your faith
Then I could make it safe and clean
If only I was sure
That my head on the door was a dream
I've waited hours for this
I've made myself so sick
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I never thought this day would end
I never thought tonight could ever be
This close to me
But if I had your face
Then I could make it safe and clean
Oh, if only I was sure
That my head on the door was a dream
The Cure's “Close to Me” is a song with cryptic lyrics that reveal a complicated journey through the singer's mind. The song opens with the singer lamenting about how sick he made himself while waiting for something that has finally arrived. However, the singer realizes that he never thought this moment would arrive, and as he looks at the present moment, he realizes how close it is to him. The singer is unsure if he can handle this proximity to the truth and, as a result, wishes it would all just be a dream.
Despite the uncertainty in the singer's existence, they desire to try and make it work. They want to feel the fear before reality strikes, but they fear that reality may come too close. They pull their eyes out and hold their breath, waiting until their time comes. However, if the singer has the faith of the people around them, then they could feel safe and clean, and the world wouldn't be as scary. The singer wishes to escape from reality and go somewhere safe, where their head on the door is just a dream.
Line by Line Meaning
I've waited hours for this
I have been anticipating being close to you for a long time.
I've made myself so sick
My feelings have caused me great emotional distress.
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I regret waking up to face what the day has in store for me.
I never thought this day would end
I didn't think today would finally come to a close.
I never thought tonight could ever be
I never thought I would be this close to you tonight.
This close to me
Being near you is an unexpected, almost surreal experience.
Just try to see in the dark
I am trying to make sense of my feelings in a difficult, uncertain situation.
Just try to make it work
I want to figure out how to make a relationship with you possible, despite the challenges and obstacles in the way.
To feel the fear before you're here
I am scared of the potential consequences of being close to you.
I make the shapes come much too close
I am afraid my feelings are too overwhelming and will cause me to behave in a way that will scare you away.
I pull my eyes out
I am trying to avoid confronting reality and the potential pain that comes with it.
Hold my breath and wait until I shake
I am trying to control my emotions and not show my true feelings to you.
But if I had your faith
If I felt that you trusted and believed in me, I would feel more confident in my ability to make a relationship work.
Then I could make it safe and clean
I would be able to make you feel secure and comfortable in the relationship.
If only I was sure
Unfortunately, there are too many unknown variables and uncertainties in my feelings and in the potential relationship.
That my head on the door was a dream
I wish my fears and doubts were simply a product of my imagination and not based in reality.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: Robert James Smith
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Lyrics
I've waited hours for this
I've made myself so sick
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I never thought this day would end
I never thought tonight could ever be
This close to me
Just try to see in the dark
Just try to make it work
To feel the fear before you're here
I make the shapes come much too close
I pull my eyes out
Hold my breath and wait until I shake
But if I had your faith
Then I could make it safe and clean
If only I was sure
That my head on the door was a dream
I've waited hours for this
I've made myself so sick
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I never thought this day would end
I never thought tonight could ever be
This close to me
But if I had your face
Then I could make it safe and clean
Oh, if only I was sure
That my head on the door was a dream
@bobbybob2573
I've waited hours for this
I've made myself so sick
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I never thought this day would end
I never thought tonight could ever be
This close to me
Just try to see in the dark
Just try to make it work
To feel the fear before you're here
I make the shapes come much too close
I pull my eyes out
Hold my breath
And wait until I shake...
But if I had your faith
Then I could make it safe and clean
If only I was sure
That my head on the door was a dream
I've waited hours for this
I've made myself so sick
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I never thought this day would end
I never thought tonight could ever be
This close to me
But if I had your face
I could make it safe and clean
If only I was sure
That my head on the door was a dream
@ThisFeatureisPointlessLmao
0:44 [Verse 1]
I've waited hours for this
I've made myself so sick
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I never thought this day would end
I never thought tonight could ever be
This close to me
1:15 [Verse 2]
Just try to see in the dark
Just try to make it work
To feel the fear before you're here
I make the shapes come much too close
I pull my eyes out, hold my breath and wait
Until I sha-ha-ha-hake
1:37 [Chorus]
But if I had your faith
Then I could make it safe and clean
Oh, if only I was sure
That my head on the door was a dream
2:17 [Verse 1]
I've waited hours for this
I've made myself so sick
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I never thought this day would end
I never thought tonight could ever be
This close to me
2:39 [Chorus]
But if I had your faith
Then I could make it safe and clean
Oh, if only I was sure
That my head on the door was a dream
@SuccubusGoblin
it's incredible how they manage to make their songs sound so happy but when you look at the lyrics it's some super sad deep stuff. I really like that about them. they never fail to describe what one feels.
@daviperezramos134
The ability to be able to laugh at yourself is not for everyone!
@sirrobinofloxley7156
Goths, not Emos
@SuccubusGoblin
dunno what you guys mean, I was simply admiring their music ...
@sirrobinofloxley7156
@@SuccubusGoblin That's fine, if you listen to some emo music you might get what I mean
@SuccubusGoblin
@@sirrobinofloxley7156 I do, I listen to many different genres but dunno what you mean, sorry
@alexcrea
What I hate about Cure's songs it's when they end.
@rjjcms1
If they'd used a taller cliff it would have been longer.
@ssuuppeerrbbooyy
The hipsters gotta shut up at some point.
@georgeridley1827
just like my dads life :(