This is Life
Ugly Heroes Lyrics

That dude Apollo told me black out
Apollo Brown gave me advice to go all in and give my all

Got that pressure feeling like it's really building on the surface
Feeling pressure to succeed and it feels like it's increasing

Chilling, underneath I'm cracked out
Appearing calm on the outside, but inside feeling broken and overwhelmed

My blood pressure rises knowing what's on the horizon
Feeling anxious and stressed about what the future holds

Like I'm rising but already feeling tapped out
Feeling like I am making progress, but I am already feeling drained

Like my cash cow is fresh outta milk
Feeling like I have exhausted my resources and cannot continue to produce

And [?] taking diligence and effort to build
Building my dreams and success takes hard work and dedication

And nobody pays attention to the messengers killed
People do not appreciate or acknowledge the struggle and sacrifices made for success

I've been thinking lately I should make my exit and, chill
Contemplating quitting and taking a break from the stress and pressure of life

And that perspective's real
This is a genuine thought and feeling that I am having

Getting caught up in my record [?]
Focusing too much on my past success and failures

See my competitors know that I'm ahead of the field
My competition recognize my talent and potential for success

But still, I'm trying to be better than pill
I am striving to be the best version of myself, even better than some of the greatest in the game

So, you know my head gets filled with politics
Feeling overwhelmed with the issues and drama in the music industry

Like Obama and a senator's bill
Dealing with complex and challenging situations like a politician trying to pass a bill

With thoughts spinning, walk with them, lost in it
Feeling lost and consumed by the constant thoughts and ideas in my head

Liquor store blues, how's that medicine feel?
Using alcohol to cope with my problems, but recognizing that it is not a long-term solution

So walk with me in this dark city
Join me on this journey through a difficult and challenging life

With this heart skipping where the people talk shitty
Feeling anxious and uneasy in an environment where people speak negatively

Where it's hard living and the [?] giving
Living in a difficult and unforgiving environment

And it's part gritty, and it's part prison
The environment is harsh and unforgiving, and can feel like a prison

Where each day complacent and decay with the paint
Feeling stuck and unfulfilled, watching life slowly deteriorate

We play with the paint while we're looking for that new thing
Trying new things and experimenting while searching for something better in life

We wait every month on the day we get on but
Waiting for payday to have some temporary relief from financial stress

This is life motherfucker, what did you think?
Life is harsh and unforgiving, as expected

Red Pill told me black out
Another musician gave me advice to go all in and give my all

I wasn't always so blessed
I have not always had the privileges or opportunities that I have now

I'm thankful, had so much less than what I have now
Grateful for what I have now, knowing that it was not always this way

A rapper want beef I bring the mad cow
Ready and willing to confront anyone who wants to start conflict

Put in work now, so we can walk the last mile
Working hard now, so that we can live comfortably in the future

Mamma told me there'll be nights like this
My mother warned me that there will be difficult and challenging nights in life

A rapper will get [?], rocking mics like this
Being successful in the music industry means facing criticism and competition

Must be, I know I cat she had nine lives
Comparing myself to a cat with nine lives, meaning that I have survived despite facing difficult situations

First week, I know you feel lines Verb speaks
In the beginning of my career, people may not have taken what I say seriously

This is life motherfucker, what you thought?
Life is difficult and challenging, as expected

Students of the game, always [?]
Constantly learning and studying the music industry

Molotov cocktail all up in your thought
Being provocative and aggressive in my lyrics, like a Molotov cocktail exploding in someone's mind

Find fragments of my life scattered all up in my art
My art and music reflect different pieces and experiences from my own life

I'm all up in it from start, finish to end
Fully invested in my music and career from beginning to end

Till then keep manouvering
Keep moving and adjusting to the challenges and obstacles in life

Moving on the right path
Going in the right direction towards success

Moving with my pad, keep doing it
Continuing to create and make music while on this journey towards success

And there's a lot of days when I gotta take a step back
Recognizing when I need to take a break and reflect on my life and career

And anyone who's ever been there respects that
Those who have also experienced similar struggles and challenges can relate and understand

Cause when I get vindictive, I get intricate
When I am seeking revenge, I am very detailed and specific in my actions

And specific as [?] is
Very precise and exact in what I say and do

Most of my bullshit in this is self-inflicted
Many of my problems and issues are caused by my own actions and decisions

And I know that I helped this sickness
Knowing that I played a role in causing my problems and issues

Most of my problems i create
Responsibility for my own problems and issues

It's hard to swallow what I ate [?] scraped the bottom of my plate
Having to face the consequences of my actions and decisions, and feeling like I have nothing left

So am I following mistakes or do I make them on my own
Questioning whether my mistakes and failures are because of my own decisions or influenced by external factors

Cause everyday it seems I wind up with another issue
Constantly facing new problems and challenges in life

Something to get through, more I gotta live through
Acknowledge that these are struggles and challenges that need to be overcome, and more will come

And I get shocked by it, still surprised when the noises in my life in erupting, they're not quiet
Feeling overwhelmed and surprised by the chaos and noise in my life, and how sudden and unexpected it can be

So is it something to get used to or something I already knew
Questioning whether this is something that will become familiar and expected or if it was something I knew all along

Just had to move through
Continuing to persevere and move forward despite the struggles and challenges of life