This Is What I Get
Waterpistol Lyrics

if you listen first then you may not reach this end.
If you pay attention to what is being said, you may avoid consequences that come as a result of not listening.

you may be happy for as long as you pretend.
One might be able to find temporary happiness by pretending and ignoring reality.

everything that is said is done.
Once something is said, it cannot be undone even if it causes harm.

forget the fact that for her it's just not as fun.
Ignoring the fact that someone you care about isn't fully enjoying something can lead to misunderstanding and hurt feelings.

i know it's bad enough i missed.
It is difficult enough to cope with the regret of missing out on something important.

lost in the madness of a kiss.
Being caught up in the passion of a moment can make it hard to think clearly or make rational decisions.

and left to feel the way i do.
The aftermath of a situation can leave one feeling a certain way, even if it wasn't what they wanted.

the cost of loving someone who won't love you.
Loving someone who doesn't love you in return has a heavy emotional cost.

now i'm dying. there's nothing left.
Feeling helpless and hopeless, as if there is no way to fix the situation or move on.

i've shown through and can't reset.
It's difficult to undo or erase past actions, even if they were mistakes.

for that this is what i get.
The consequences of one's actions or inactions are reflected in one's current situation.

waiting after you.
Waiting for someone who isn't committed to being in a relationship or reciprocating feelings.

i'm sorry for holding on so long without your help.
Apologizing for attempting to fix the situation alone without the other person's assistance or input.

i tried my best to understand.
Making an effort to comprehend the other person's perspective and feelings.

you wanted this and i confess.
Acknowledging the other person's desire for a different outcome or relationship status.

i'm so selfish to think i had a right to seek perfection.
Coming to terms with one's own imperfections and recognizing that it's unfair to expect perfection from oneself or others.

and you think i gave it all up.
Feeling misunderstood or that the other person doesn't appreciate the effort put forth in the relationship.

i gave it all to be where i am.
Having sacrificed a lot to get to a certain point in the relationship, even if the outcome isn't what was hoped for.

and i feel this breaking my heart.
The realization of the relationship's outcome is emotionally painful and difficult to accept.

but i was tired of waiting and listening for the day you would tell me when it's okay.
Feeling exhausted and frustrated from waiting for the other person's permission or approval to move on or make a decision.

it's ok now. i've grown from this somehow
Reaching a point of acceptance and growth, even if it is painful, and moving forward with newfound knowledge and strength.