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LAUGH CLOWN
Xenia Rubinos Lyrics
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One of these days I'm gonna let my mustache grow back in
Don't know where I'm going, only where I've been
I know that cliche's tired but I feel it on my skin
I was worried that my papa lost the chain
His mother gave him the day he left, never saw her again
Sometime I feel like a clown, then I laugh, laugh, laugh, laugh, laugh
Does your brain feel fine
When you're fighting
Does your brain feel fine
When you're loosing with your mind
Ain't got no money, got no money
Got no job, got no kids
No country to live in
Who am I?
I know what you are but what am I?
Well, sometime I feel like a clown then I laugh, then I laugh
Now I'm laugh clown laughing
And sometime I feel like a queen then I stand, then I stand
Now I'm standing
Does your brain feel fine
When you're fighting
Does your brain feel fine
When you're loosing with your mind
Can you feel your way out of the morning just in time
Can you feel your way out of the morning, stand in line
Can't tell just how far it goes baby
Can you tell me just how far it goes
Oh when in time all wounds do scars grow baby
We'll see how far back it goes
Sometime I feel like a clown
Then I laugh, then I laugh, now I'm laugh clown laughing
Sometime I feel like a queen
Then I stand then I stand
Now I'm standing standing
And sometime I feel like a joke
That I tell, then I tell, now I'm telling
Does your brain feel fine
When you're fighting
Does your brain feel fine
When you're loosing with your mind
Can you feel your way out of the morning darkness just in time
Feel your way out of the morning darkness just in time
Your brain feel fine
When you're fighting
Does your brain feel fine
When you're loosing with your mind
Can you feel your way out of the morning just in time
Can you feel your way out of the morning, stand in line
In Xenia Rubinos's song Laugh Clown, the lyrics portray the struggles of self-acceptance and identity in a society that preaches conformity. The song begins with a lighthearted remark about not plucking eyebrows and planning to let the mustache grow, indicating a lack of concern for society's beauty standards. The following verse contemplates on the singer's past and present, trying to reconcile with the idea that 'where they are', is greatly affected by their journey. The cliche of 'knowing where you've been to feel where you're going' is acknowledged but also described as tiring.
The song then shifts to the singer's relationship with her father, specifically focusing on a chain that belonged to his mother who he had to leave behind. This highlights the theme of culture and displacement, as the father had to abandon his roots to start a new life. The chorus combines two contrasting emotions- feeling like a clown and laughter. It is almost as if she is trying to come to terms with her emotions by using humor. The bridge of the song cites "feeling like a joke", and perhaps this is a reference to the way society often perceives deviations from the norm.
The second verse talks of the societal trappings that the singer is subjected to: no money, no job, no citizenship, and an identity crisis. The line- "I know what you are, but what am I?"- depicts the feeling of being scrutinized by others and being expected to conform. The song ends with a repetition of the chorus, this time the singer transitions from feeling like a clown to a queen and then to standing. The lyrics' progression signifies an internal acceptance of oneself- first as a clown, then as a powerful queen, and finally as one who stands their ground.
Line by Line Meaning
I haven't plucked my eyebrows since last month
I have not had time to attend to my appearance as I used to
One of these days I'm gonna let my mustache grow back in
I desire to let my natural hair grow without taking it down
Don't know where I'm going, only where I've been
I am unsure of my future direction, but I am aware of my past experiences
I know that cliche's tired but I feel it on my skin
Although overused, the cliche applies to me and resonates with how I feel
I was worried that my papa lost the chain
I was concerned about my father losing his keepsake gifted by his mother
His mother gave him the day he left, never saw her again
His mother parted with the gift when he went away and passed before he could see her again
Sometime I feel like a clown, then I laugh, laugh, laugh, laugh, laugh
At times, I feel ridiculous or like an outsider, but I choose to laugh and not take things too seriously
Does your brain feel fine
When you're fighting
Do you feel mentally sound when you engage in conflict?
Does your brain feel fine
When you're loosing with your mind
Do you feel mentally sound when you experience internal defeat?
Ain't got no money, got no money
Got no job, got no kids
No country to live in
Who am I?
I lack basic necessities and a sense of belonging, which makes me question my identity and purpose
I know what you are but what am I?
I understand your perception of me, but I do not know how to perceive myself
Well, sometime I feel like a clown then I laugh, then I laugh
At times, I perceive myself as ridiculous or like an outsider, and I choose to laugh it off
Now I'm laugh clown laughing
I am currently laughing at the absurdity of things
And sometime I feel like a queen then I stand, then I stand
At times, I feel confident or empowered and choose to stand firm in that feeling
Now I'm standing
I am currently standing firm in my confidence
And sometime I feel like a joke
That I tell, then I tell, now I'm telling
At times, I perceive myself as the punchline to a joke, and I retell the joke unconsciously
Can't tell just how far it goes baby
Can you tell me just how far it goes
I am unable to gauge the extent of a situation, and I seek another's insight
Oh when in time all wounds do scars grow baby
We'll see how far back it goes
With time, all injuries leave marks, and we will eventually understand the depth of a past wound
Feel your way out of the morning darkness just in time
Find your way out of a difficult situation before it becomes too late
Your brain feel fine
When you're fighting
Are you mentally sound when you engage in conflict?
Does your brain feel fine
When you're loosing with your mind
Do you feel mentally sound when you experience internal defeat?
Can you feel your way out of the morning just in time
Can you find your way out of a difficult situation before it becomes too late?
Can you feel your way out of the morning, stand in line
Can you navigate a difficult situation and stay in control?
Writer(s): xenia rubinos
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