Happier Than Ever
Billie Eilish Lyrics

When I'm away from you
Whenever I am not with you

I'm happier than ever
I feel much happier and better emotionally

Wish I could explain it better
I desire to clarify this feeling even more effectively

I wish it wasn't true
I hope this feeling was not real

Give me a day or two
Allow me some time to think about it

To think of something clever
To come up with a wise solution

To write myself a letter
To compose a letter for myself

To tell me what to do
To guide me with what to do

Do you read my interviews?
Do you bother reading my interviews?

Or do you skip my avenue?
Or do you avoid engaging with me at all?

When you said you were passin' through
When you claimed you were coming around

Was I even on your way?
Did you even consider me in your journey?

I knew when I asked you to
I was well aware when I requested you

Be cool about what I was tellin' you
To stay calm when I tried to explain to you

You'd do the opposite of what you said you'd do
But instead, you did everything opposite of your promise

And I'd end up more afraid
And that makes me feel even more scared

Don't say it isn't fair
Do not claim that this is not justifiable

You clearly weren't aware
You were completely unaware

That you made me miserable
You caused me so much agony

So if you really wanna know
If you genuinely want to be informed

You call me again, drunk in your Benz
You phoned me while under the influence, driving your Mercedes Benz

Drivin' home under the influence
Driving while drunk or intoxicated

You scared me to death but I'm wastin' my breath
You terrified me, but it does not matter to you

'Cause you only listen to your fuckin' friends
Because you only take advice from your foolish friends

I don't relate to you
I don't associate with you

I don't relate to you, no
I don't relate to you at all

'Cause I'd never treat me this shitty
Because I won't treat myself as badly as you

You made me hate this city
You made me loathe living in this city

And I don't talk shit about you on the internet
I don't badmouth you on the web

Never told anyone anything bad
I have never portrayed you negatively to anyone

'Cause that shit's embarrassing, you were my everything
Because talking poorly of you is humiliating, and you were my everything

And all that you did was make me fuckin' sad
And all you did was fill me with suffering and misery

So don't waste the time I don't have
Please do not waste the time I don't possess

And don't try to make me feel bad
And please don't attempt to cause me to feel worse

I could talk about every time that you showed up on time
I could tell you about every single time you managed to arrive on schedule

But I'd have an empty line 'cause you never did
But I couldn't count any because you never arrived on time

Never paid any mind to my mother or friends
You never cared for or respected my mother or friends

So I shut 'em all out for you 'cause I was a kid
So I avoided them all for you, as I was still a child

You ruined everything good
You destroyed everything that was positive between us

Always said you were misunderstood
You regularly blamed being misperceived for your behavior

Made all my moments your own
You took over all my experiences

Just fuckin' leave me alone
Please just leave me be