Bittersweet
Allen-Lande Lyrics

The way that these things feel they feel so bittersweet
Despite the pleasure and success that comes with my achievements, there is a sadness and pain that accompanies it.

I trade away my life and my low self esteem
In order to achieve success, I have given up my sense of self-worth and the time and energy that could be devoted to my personal life.

There's days that I don't like it when I hit record
Sometimes, the creative process of making music is frustrating and I do not feel proud of my work.

Don't like the way things sound from my own vocal chords
I am insecure about my own voice and doubt my own ability to produce quality music.

My system's overloading from the rising storm
The pressure and stress of my career is becoming unbearable for me to handle.

I pray the day I wake up I won't have to mourn
I hope that I will be able to find peace and contentment in my life before it is too late.

Shawty paranormal say that she loves ghosts n things
My romantic relationship is strange and unusual, and my partner has an interest in supernatural phenomena.

Do I roll another or do I just go to sleep
I am unsure whether I should indulge in drugs or try to rest for the sake of my own well-being.

I asked for help from God and then they showed me everything
I sought guidance from a higher power and was given clarity about my situation.

But if I'm being honest wish I could fix everything
Although I seek guidance, I feel powerless to change the trajectory of my life and career.

Off of the xans that I take with to work
I rely on prescription drugs in order to cope with the demands of my job.

My life is in danger please call up a nurse
My drug use has become a serious problem and I require immediate medical attention.

They ask what I tried and yet none of it works
Doctors and therapists are attempting to help me, but their treatments are proving ineffective.

My therapist worried that I'm getting worse
Even my healthcare providers are concerned about the state of my mental and emotional health.

The money the money it's all about bands
In the music industry, success is measured by financial gain and not artistic expression.

They wanna hear music that makes 'em all dance
Audiences expect upbeat and catchy music rather than introspective or emotional content.

If that's what we lie about we'll fill up stands
Musicians are compelled to create disingenuous music in order to maintain popular appeal and financial success.

They only gon' hear me when I wear these brands
My artistic expression is only valued when it is paired with a recognizable brand or product.

Losing consciousness my body's now an empty shell
The stress and pressure of my career has reduced me to a lifeless and unfulfilled existence.

Throwing all my feelings down inside a wishing well
I am suppressing my emotions and desires for my career goals, hoping they will be fulfilled through my success.

Medically induce me in a state where I can sleep
I am so overwhelmed with stress that I require medication to help me find rest and relaxation.

But maybe death is where I've always been supposed to be
Despite my attempts to achieve success and happiness, I feel that my destiny may have always been to lead a miserable or short existence.