Ayria has been intensively and successfully touring across the globe over the past 3 years gaining a very solid reputation for putting on energetic live performances. Ayria toured the U.S.A as the chosen supporting act for legendary electronic-goth band The Crüxshadows (over 80 shows) and supported Combichrist. Ayria has also toured U.K., Europe, Russia, Mexico and Japan. Not fitting into any one musical category has allowed Ayria to gain a very broad fan base of underground goth, various underground club scenes as well as more mainstream audiences who are all addicted to Ayria’s infectious hooks.
Ayria has released three full length albums on the Belgian label [labelAlfa Matrix, including the highly acclaimed Hearts For Bullets released in September 2008. This release brings 12 hard hitting, tightly written and produced tracks each track uniquely evolving the Ayria sound. Hearts For Bullets was produced in Canada by none other than Sebastian R. Komor. Ayria hits straight and hard with Jennifer’s in-your-face sonic approach hanging between minimal electro, gritty bass synth lines and forceful stomping beats while never straying from the extremely feminine side of the project. Extravagant, provocative, bitchy and edgy yet all gut wrenchingly emotional and lyrically insightful; she hits a target somewhere between influences of Nitzer Ebb, M.I.A., Miss Kittin and Ladytron.
Before Ayria:
Jennifer Parkin is also known for her earlier work in Epsilon Minus, having released two albums as the lead vocalist, before leaving to form Ayria. Jennifer was also featured as a guest vocalist on many other projects, including Implant, Glis, Parallel Project, Aiboforcen and the Mexican project Isis Signum. Ayria has completed remixes and added vocals for bands such as Angelspit and Celldweller.
Official website: https://ayria.com/
Cutting
Ayria Lyrics
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Show me what is real
I tried to back away but everwhere's the same
And in this over-conscious world all I want to do is dream
I don't know what you held on to
To get this far but I need some too
And there's just no resistence
To stop this all from happening
Today the pain
It got so bad I had to scream
I'm cutting myself
Because I cannot face
The world around me
Is nothing
I'm cutting up myself
Because there's no way out
Dispersing what I feel
So I feel nothing
I don't know what to do
To be as numb as you
I must be doing something wrong to always feel this down
With an overwhelming urge to shout at those around
I tried to reach out to the past
But the lesson learned is to not look back
The memories will just confuse
An overwhelmed and frightened youth
I've learned to accept it
I know that that's pathetic
I can't explain to others
I know that they'll reject it
Today the pain
It got so bad I had to scream
I'm cutting myself
Because I cannot face
The world around me
Is nothing
I'm cutting up myself
Because there's no way out
Dispersing what I feel
So I feel nothing
Today the pain
It got so bad I had to scream
Today the pain
It felt so bad I had to scream
I had to scream
I had to scream
I had to scream
The lyrics of Ayria's song Cutting delve into the struggles of an individual who is grappling with some intense emotional pain. The individual is lost and overwhelmed, and they don't seem to have a clear idea of what to do to make themselves feel better. The first verse shows the confusion and desperation felt by the individual as they ask for guidance on how to feel and what is real. The world around them seems cloying, and they crave escapism in dreams.
In the second verse, the individual describes the extent to which they feel hollow and empty. They compare themselves with others who display a numb demeanor, clearly indicating that they feel different and disconnected. They are frustrated with their inability to shake off their feelings of despair, and their almost obsessive need to vent these feelings through destructive means- by cutting themselves.
The final verse reveals that the individual has considered going back to their past for answers but foregoes the idea due to the confusion and disruption memories bring. They have accepted their current state, even if it may come across as pathetic to others, and they are aware of the stigma that comes with telling others about their struggles. The song ends with the individual in pain, screaming out with frustration.
Overall, the song's lyrics are heavy, almost harrowing, and touch on topics that are often left unspoken. The song delves into the struggles of mental health, including depression, self-harm, and a general feeling of disconnection from the world.
Line by Line Meaning
Tell me how to feel
I don't know how to feel and I need someone to guide me
Show me what is real
I am lost and disconnected from what's real and need someone to show me
I tried to back away but everwhere's the same
I tried to escape my problems but they follow me everywhere
And in this over-conscious world all I want to do is dream
The world is too overwhelming for me and all I want to do is escape into my dreams
I don't know what you held on to
I don't know what others hold on to to survive
To get this far but I need some too
I need something to hold on to as well to make it through
Because I'm slipping from existence
I feel like I'm losing myself
And there's just no resistence
I can't stop myself from slipping away
To stop this all from happening
I wish I could stop myself from feeling this way
Today the pain
The pain I feel right now
It got so bad I had to scream
The pain was unbearable and I had to release it somehow
I'm cutting myself
I'm using cutting as a form of self-harm
Because I cannot face
I can't deal with or handle the reality of the world around me
The world around me
The reality of the world and my existence in it
Is nothing
It feels empty and meaningless to me
I'm cutting up myself
I'm inflicting harm on myself
Because there's no way out
I feel trapped and like there's no escape from my pain
Dispersing what I feel
I'm trying to numb the overwhelming emotions I'm feeling
So I feel nothing
I'm trying to numb myself so I don't feel anything
I don't know what to do
I feel lost and don't know how to cope
To be as numb as you
I wish I could be as emotionally numb as others
I must be doing something wrong to always feel this down
I blame myself for feeling this way
With an overwhelming urge to shout at those around
I feel like lashing out at others for not understanding me
I tried to reach out to the past
I tried to find comfort in my past memories
But the lesson learned is to not look back
I realized that dwelling on the past only confuses and overwhelms me
The memories will just confuse
Thinking about the past only adds to my confusion and pain
An overwhelmed and frightened youth
I was a scared and overwhelmed child
I've learned to accept it
I've accepted my situation and pain
I know that that's pathetic
I feel like it's pathetic that I can't handle my own emotions
I can't explain to others
I can't articulate my feelings to others
I know that they'll reject it
I fear being rejected or not understood by others
Today the pain
The pain I feel right now
It got so bad I had to scream
The pain was unbearable and I had to release it somehow
Today the pain
The pain I feel right now
It felt so bad I had to scream
The pain was overwhelming and I couldn't hold it in anymore
I had to scream
I had to let out my pain and emotions
I had to scream
I couldn't keep it inside me any longer and had to release it
I had to scream
Screaming was the only way to cope with my pain
Contributed by John P. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Kristi-Ann
on Six Seconds (Spetsnaz Mix)
What is the meaning??