Dark Lotus made its debut with the single "Echo Side", which was later released on Insane Clown Posse's 1999 album The Amazing Jeckel Brothers. It was later announced that each member "would act as a 'petal' of the lotus," and that there would be six members. After speculation as to who the sixth member would be, including rumors that Esham would join the group, it was announced that Marz would be a member.
Dark Lotus released their first album, Tales from the Lotus Pod, in 2001. Mike E. Clark was brought in to produce the album, but left the project after producing four songs, and Fritz the Cat produced the rest of the album. The album peaked at #1 on the Billboard Heatseekers chart, #6 on the Top Independent Albums chart, and #158 on the Billboard 200. Marz left the group, and was replaced by James Lowery. In 2002, Tales from the Lotus Pod was reissued in a new version removing Marz' vocals. On April 6, 2004, Dark Lotus released their second studio album, Black Rain. It peaked at #3 on the Top Independent Albums chart, and at #71 on the Billboard 200.
Lowery left the group, and a third album, The Opaque Brotherhood, was released without him. It peaked at #4 on the Top Independent Albums chart, #23 on the Top R&B/Hip-Hop Albums chart, #45 on the Top Internet Albums chart, and #45 on the Billboard 200.[4] Allrovi reviewer Stewart Mason praised the album, writing "Nothing on The Opaque Brotherhood will convince anyone who isn't already a fan, but the tormented lyrics and matter-of-fact delivery remove a layer or two of distance and artifice from the band's familiar themes, and make them that much more disturbing as a result.".
I Wanna Die
Dark Lotus Lyrics
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Now that I'm dead and gone
Look at me
I'm floating like the breeze
With my roots strong like trees
I'm filtered in your memories
Holding a candle light vigil
Saying a prayer
Buried with the paint on my face
I put the chase up long enough
I live the lifestyle wrong and tough
And now my life span's up
I give a fuck
I'm about to run it in the after life
And hopefully they put my soul in the butcher knife
[Shaggy 2 Dope:]
If I was to die
It'd make a lot of people happy
No funeral possesions
No plot at the cemetery
Finally
I can be alone in my own world
The wagons come take me away from the killing fields
If I was to die
Would you finally shut your mouth?
Understand what I am
Understand what I'm about
Like curse
Place me up high on your pedastil
I'm about to find out
(SHAGGY IT'S TIME TO GO)
[Chorus x2:]
I wanna die
So I can see the otherside
I wanna die
So I can fly (Take Me With You)
I wanna die
Take me to the otherside
I wanna die
So I can fly (Take Me Away)
[Violent J:]
I wanna die
Maybe I'll get angel wings
So I can cut them off
Cook them up
I have some helly wing dings
I'd take my hallo off
Get myself a ladder
Hang it on the wall
Maybe you'll think it's a gold record
Death
Everybody follow my hearse
Why does everybody always gotta go and die first?
Before their homies are missing them
Family members kissing them
Everybody even enemies stop dissing them
I want to die
So I can haunt my buddies
Stand behind them in the mirror with my eyes all bloody
Stick my long, black, cold tongue all in the ear
And be like, "I'm only playing"
And disappear
I wanna die
And have everything answered
What happened to my father?
Why was I a bastard?
What is thunder?
Is it really God bowling?
And nightime's a blanket
And all the stars are the holes in it
[Chorus x2]
Jamie Madrox:
Your answers are unneccesary
You understand
Never question the emotions
Of an unstable man
I got the petals of the Lotus
And the pedal to the floor
Following a black hearse
In the rain through a thunder storm
Never once did I invision
Me being stuck in such a situation
He made decisions
And now his spirit levitating
I can see him waving at me
Through the window of the hearse
He's crying blood
It all stops and it gets worst
[Blaze Ya Dead Homie:]
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
At least that's what I was told
When I was on the come up
Been to the grave and it ain't no joke
Resurfaced to the earth with the spirits I envoke
Cut down in my prime
When my block got hit
Now I'm riding in the back of a hearse and shit
Darkness, pitch black
Never seeing no one
And the devil got his darkest demons
Riding shotgun
[Chorus x2]
Take me away
Take me with you
Take me away
Take me with you
Take me away [echo]
The lyrics to the Dark Lotus song "I Wanna Die" delve into various aspects of death and afterlife. Each member of the group shares their own thoughts and feelings about death, ranging from Monoxide Child's peaceful acceptance to Violent J's curiosity to Blaze Ya Dead Homie's fear of the unknown. Shaggy 2 Dope expresses his desire to be free from the judgment and scrutiny of others upon his death. Jamie Madrox reflects on the loss of a friend and the inevitability of death.
The chorus, "I wanna die so I can see the other side, I wanna die so I can fly, take me to the other side," represents a shared longing to know what awaits after death. The metaphor of flying represents the freedom from the limitations of life on Earth. While some lyrics express fear or regret, overall, the song suggests a willingness to face death and proceed with curiosity and acceptance.
Overall, the lyrics of "I Wanna Die" convey a complex range of emotions associated with death, from fear to curiosity to acceptance. The song suggests a desire to explore the unknown realm after death, both for the freedom it represents and the answers it may provide.
Line by Line Meaning
Now that I'm dead and gone
I am dead and gone.
Look at me
I'm floating like the breeze
With my roots strong like trees
I'm filtered in your memories
Holding a candle light vigil
As a deceased person, I am now free like the wind and my presence lives on in the memories of those who knew me. There is a candlelight vigil to honor my memory.
Saying a prayer
My name is graced
Buried with the paint on my face
People are saying prayers for me and my name is held in high regard. I am being buried wearing my face paint, as a tribute to my legacy.
I put the chase up long enough
I live the lifestyle wrong and tough
And now my life span's up
I give a fuck
I'm about to run it in the after life
And hopefully they put my soul in the butcher knife
I spent a long time chasing things in life and lived a rebellious life. Now that I am dead, I am ready to face the afterlife and hope to be put to good use.
If I was to die
It'd make a lot of people happy
No funeral possesions
No plot at the cemetery
Finally
I can be alone in my own world
The wagons come take me away from the killing fields
My death would make some people happy. I don't want any possessions or cemetery plots at my funeral. I want to finally be alone in death and I want to be taken away from the pain I experienced in life.
Would you finally shut your mouth?
Understand what I am
Understand what I'm about
Like curse
Place me up high on your pedastil
I'm about to find out
If I die, I want people to understand who I was and why I did the things I did. I want to be respected and not spoken ill of. I want to be placed on a pedestal and finally see how people truly viewed me.
I wanna die
So I can see the otherside
I wanna die
So I can fly (Take Me With You)
I wanna die
Take me to the otherside
I wanna die
So I can fly (Take Me Away)
I want to die so that I can see the afterlife and be free to fly in heaven. I want to be taken to the afterlife and fly away from the pain and suffering of life.
I wanna die
Maybe I'll get angel wings
So I can cut them off
Cook them up
I have some helly wing dings
If I die, maybe I'll get angel wings, but I'll probably just cut them off and use them for a macabre feast.
Death
Everybody follow my hearse
Why does everybody always gotta go and die first?
Before their homies are missing them
Family members kissing them
Everybody even enemies stop dissing them
At death, everybody will be following my hearse. Why does everybody always have to die first? Before people start missing them, enemies included, and family members start showing love.
I want to die
So I can haunt my buddies
Stand behind them in the mirror with my eyes all bloody
Stick my long, black, cold tongue all in the ear
And be like, "I'm only playing"
And disappear
I want to die so I can haunt my friends. I'll stand behind them in the mirror with bloody eyes and scare them for fun. Then, I'll disappear and say, "I'm only playing."
I wanna die
And have everything answered
What happened to my father?
Why was I a bastard?
What is thunder?
Is it really God bowling?
And nightime's a blanket
And all the stars are the holes in it
If I die, all my questions and doubts would be answered. What happened to my father? Why was I born out of wedlock? Is thunder really just God bowling? Does nighttime act as a blanket with the stars as holes?
Your answers are unneccesary
You understand
Never question the emotions
Of an unstable man
I got the petals of the Lotus
And the pedal to the floor
Following a black hearse
In the rain through a thunder storm
Never once did I invision
Me being stuck in such a situation
He made decisions
And now his spirit levitating
I can see him waving at me
Through the window of the hearse
He's crying blood
It all stops and it gets worst
Don't bother giving me answers, I understand. Never question the emotions of an unstable man. I have the petals of the Lotus and I'm driving behind a black hearse in a thunderstorm. I never envisioned being in this situation, but here I am. I can see the spirit of my deceased friend waving to me from the hearse, crying blood. Things feel like they can't get any worse.
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
At least that's what I was told
When I was on the come up
Been to the grave and it ain't no joke
Resurfaced to the earth with the spirits I envoke
Cut down in my prime
When my block got hit
Now I'm riding in the back of a hearse and shit
Darkness, pitch black
Never seeing no one
And the devil got his darkest demons
Riding shotgun
I've been told we come from ashes to ashes and dust to dust. I've been to the grave and realized it's no laughing matter. I am now alive again, along with the spirits I call upon. I died young when my neighborhood was under attack. Now, I'm in the back of a hearse, swallowed by darkness, and the devil's demons are beside me.
Take me away
Take me with you
Take me away
Take me with you
Take me away [echo]
Take me away to the afterlife where I can be free and fly. Let me join you on your journey: take me with you.
Contributed by Nicholas I. Suggest a correction in the comments below.