After a solo tour in the fall of 2003, Alexakis decided to continue with Everclear, organizing a new band that made its debut in March of 2004. The new lineup consisted of bass player Sam Hudson, guitarist Dave French, and drummer Eric Bretl. In the summer of 2004, the band added keyboard player Josh Crawley, and swapped Bretl for former Everclear drum tech Brett Snyder. The new lineup released its first recording, a cover of Woody Guthrie's This Land Is Your Land, that summer. A self-released EP of performances recorded for XM Satellite Radio called Closure was given out at shows in the fall of 2004.
Free of a major label, Alexakis spent the ensuing year and half slowly recording material for a new Everclear release. He admitted that the time after the breakup of the original lineup served as a "wake up call", during which he suffered his third divorce and a filing for bankruptcy. Alexakis announced the completion of the album in early 2006,titled Welcome To The Drama Club. The new band is now on Eleven Seven Music.
In August of 2008, drummer Brett Snyder left the band after four years. He was then replaced by Tommy Stewart, who previously played in bands Fuel and Godsmack.
All Fucked Up
Everclear Lyrics
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And I am ready to break
I don't wanna be the guy
Who is always on the outside
I wanna find my own
Good place
All fucked up
And I don't know how
How I ever got to where I feel
Like I am dying on the inside
I want to be happy
But I don't know how
I am all fucked up
And it's always the same
I always get so close,
Then I let it get away
I got no one but
Myself to blame
I'm all fucked up
And I don't know why
If the rest of my life
Is going to be like this
Think I would rather die
I am all fucked up
Yes, I am all fucked up
You're happy
When you are all fucked up
Yes, I am all fucked up
I am all fucked up
Yes, I am ready to break
I don't wanna be the guy
Who is always on the outside
I wanna find my own
Good place
All fucked up
And I don't know how
How I ever got to where I feel
Like I'm dying on the inside
I want to be happy now
I am all fucked up
And it is always the same
I always get so close
Then I let it get away
I got no one but
Myself to blame
I am all fucked up
And I don't know why
If the rest of my life
Is going to be like this
Than I think I would rather die
I am all fucked up
The song "All Fucked Up" by Everclear is a powerful and emotional expression of the struggles of the singer who is dealing with feelings of being lost, trapped, and isolated. The lyrics depict an individual who is struggling to find his place in life, and who feels disconnected from the world around him. He wants to be happy and to find his own good place, but he doesn't know how. He blames himself for not being able to achieve his goals and for letting opportunities slip away.
Throughout the song, the singer's emotions intensify, as he becomes more and more distressed. He declares his readiness to break and emphasizes that he doesn't want to be the outsider always. The repetition of the phrase "all fucked up" emphasizes the depths of the singer's despair and isolation. He can't place why he feels this way, but he knows that he doesn't want to live the rest of his life feeling disconnected and unhappy. It's clear that he is in a dark place and is struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
The song's lyrics paint a raw, painful, and unfiltered picture of the singer's inner turmoil, as he struggles to find meaning and purpose in his life. The chorus repeats the phrase, "I am all fucked up," suggesting that the singer is stuck in a rut and can't see a way out. The verses depict his struggles with himself emotionally and his inability to find solace or happiness in his life.
Line by Line Meaning
I am all fucked up
I am struggling and in a state of turmoil
And I am ready to break
I am close to breaking point and can't handle much more
I don't wanna be the guy
I don't want to be the outcast or the one left out
Who is always on the outside
I want to belong and be a part of something
I wanna find my own
I want to discover what makes me happy
Good place
and find my own sense of contentment
And it's always the same
My struggles and failures keep repeating themselves
I always get so close,
I almost achieve what I want
Then I let it get away
But somehow I mess it up and fail
I got no one but
There's no one to blame but me
Myself to blame
For my own shortcomings and mistakes
And I don't know why
I don't understand why I keep failing
If the rest of my life
If things continue to be like this
Is going to be like this
If my circumstances don't change
Than I think I would rather die
I'm so unhappy I would rather not live
Yes, I am all fucked up
I am definitely struggling and having a hard time
You're happy
Perhaps you are happy despite the struggles
When you are all fucked up
Though that doesn't seem to be the case for me
And it is always the same
My struggles are a recurring theme in my life
Like I'm dying on the inside
I feel so unhappy and it's affecting me deeply
I want to be happy now
I want to find happiness and do so soon
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