Asylum
Kings & Creatures Lyrics

It's so cold in here feel like I'm in the frozone
The emotional numbness I feel is overwhelming, as if I am frozen in my own despair.

Can somebody light a match in my head
I need someone to help spark a new perspective in my mind and bring light into the darkness of my thoughts.

So I can learn how to accept and how to move on
I am struggling to come to terms with my past and find the strength to move forward.

Man my teacher steady giving me F's
Life keeps disappointing me, it's like I am constantly failing in every aspect.

I be there but guess I'm absent during roll call
Physically present, but mentally checked out and disconnected from reality.

Cause I'm somewhere else inside of my head
My mind is consumed by thoughts and emotions, making it hard to focus on the present.

I'm so lost I think I accidentally dozed off
Feeling disoriented and detached from reality, almost like I am drifting into unconsciousness.

Cause I was laying in a casket just dead
My inner turmoil and despair have left me feeling emotionally dead and lifeless.

I could feel the rhythm of my heart when we first begun now its Impossible
In the beginning, I felt alive and hopeful, but now that feeling seems unattainable and out of reach.

So I'll be walking in the dark till my legs go numb then I'll Fall in a hole
I will continue to wander aimlessly in my pain until I finally succumb to my own despair.

And when I do please don't go try and find me
When I hit rock bottom, please don't try to save me or offer false hope.

Cause I'm long and gone
I am too far gone in my misery to be truly saved or helped by anyone.

I'll look at you and say that I'm just fine please
I will put on a brave face and pretend to be okay, but deep down I am struggling immensely.

Just save your hope
Please don't waste your optimism and faith on me, as I am unable to accept it or believe in it.

She probably like why does he always say I'll see you later
Others may wonder why I always say goodbye, but the truth is I am trapped in my own world of pain and isolation.

Cause I will I see you all the time inside my dome
I may physically distance myself, but you are always on my mind as I struggle with my inner demons.

But a dream is all it is so I stay by my lonesome
Despite my longing for connection, I realize that my desires are unattainable and I must face my struggles alone.

And drink then put my mask on to hide in my bong
I use substances and distractions to mask my true emotions and hide from the pain I am feeling.

And go record eleven songs just to get one outcome Ooo yeah ooo yeah
I pour my heart and soul into my creative endeavors, hoping to find some sense of purpose or meaning amidst my despair.

Should I use the blade or the gun stuck in the middle like Malcolm Ooo yeah ooo yeah
Feeling torn and conflicted about how to cope with my pain, much like Malcolm X's famous quote about the 'ballot or the bullet.'

So don't try and find me cause I'm trying to hide
I push others away and isolate myself, as I struggle to come to terms with my inner turmoil.

There's no one by my side
I feel completely alone and abandoned by those around me, adding to my feelings of loneliness.

I left them all behind
I have distanced myself from others in an attempt to shield them from my pain and protect myself from further hurt.