Fingertips
Lana Del Rey Lyrics

When I look back
Reflecting on my past experiences and memories

Tracing fingertips over plastic bags
Running my fingers over disposable material as a means of self-soothing and thought processing

Thinking, 'I wish I could extrapolate some small intention
Yearning to understand a particular action or gesture, hoping to deduce underlying intent

Or maybe get your attention for a minute or two'
Desiring temporary acknowledgement or recognition

Will I die? Or will I get to that ten-year mark?
Wondering about the possibility of an early death or reaching the age of 10 years

Where I beat the extinction of telomeres?
Surpassing the cellular limits of aging and decreasing telomeres within the human body

And if I do, will you be there with me, Father, Sister, Brother?
Contemplating if certain family members will be present during significant milestones in life

Charlie, stop smoking
Urging someone named Charlie to quit smoking

Caroline, will you be with me?
Questioning if a person named Caroline will accompany me through life

Will the baby be alright?
Concerned about the well-being of an unborn child

Will I have one of mine?
Questioning if I will have children of my own

Can I handle it even if I do?
Doubting my ability to cope with the challenges of parenthood

You said that I might
Recalling that someone made a suggestion or prediction

It's not fair or so they said
Acknowledging an unfair situation or accusation

To carry a child
Recognizing the physical and emotional burden of pregnancy and giving birth

I guess I'll be fine
Resignation to my uncertain future

It wasn't my idea the cocktail of things that twist neurons inside
Not being responsible for the neurological conditions and imbalances I experience

But without them, I'd die
Realizing that medication and treatment are necessary to sustain my health

They say there's irony in the music, it's a tragedy
Acknowledging the tragic irony in certain songs and music

I see nothing Greek in it
Not understanding the supposed connection to Greek mythology

Give me a mausoleum in Rhode Island with Dad, Grandma, Grandpa and Dave
Wishing to be buried with loved ones in a specific location

Who hung himself real high
Referring to the suicide of a person named Dave

In the National Park sky, it's a shame and I'm crying right now
Expressing sadness and loss over the death of Dave in a scenic location

To get to you, save you if I take my life
Believing that suicide is a means to be reunited with a loved one

Find your astral body, put it into my eyes
Hoping to merge with or see the spirit of the loved one

Give you two seconds to cry
Offering a brief moment to grieve and process emotions

Take you home, I, I'll give you a blanket
Offering comfort to the deceased loved one, symbolized by a blanket

Your spirit can sit and watch TV by my side
Imagining the spirit of the loved one present as a companion while watching television

'Cause, baby, I ran through a time when I felt you were doing it
Remembering a moment when it felt like the loved one was with me

I couldn't handle it, I was in Monaco
Feeling overwhelmed and unable to cope while in a different country

I couldn't hear what they said on the telephone
Being unable to clearly hear a conversation over the phone

I had to sing for the prince in two hours
Having a performance scheduled in front of royalty in two hours

Sat in the shower
Sitting down and taking refuge in the bathtub or shower

Gave myself two seconds to cry
Allowing a brief moment to express emotions

It's a shame that we die
Regretting the inevitability of death

When I was fifteen, naked, next-door neighbors did a drive-by
Recounting an embarrassing or inappropriate incident from teenage years

Pulled me up by my waist, long hair to the beach side
Being physically lifted out of an uncomfortable situation with long hair sweeping behind

I wanted to go out like you, swim with the fishes
Desiring a fate similar to a loved one who died by drowning

That he caught on Rhode Island beaches
Referring to aquatic life caught on local beaches in Rhode Island

But, sometimes, it's just not your time
Recognizing that fate and destiny play a part in life's outcomes

What kind of mother was she to say I'd end up in institutions?
Reflecting on a negative comment or prediction made by a mother figure

All I wanted to do was kiss Aaron Greene and sit by the lake
Recalling a simple desire or fantasy in adolescence

Twisting lime into the drinks that they made
Adding lime to mixed drinks or cocktails

Have a babe at sixteen, the town I was born in and died
Fantasizing about having a baby at a young age and living and dying in a specific town

Aaron ended up dead and not me
Expressing disbelief that a person desired in youth has died while they are still alive

What the fuck's wrong in your head to send me away never to come back
Questioning the reasoning behind someone's decision to keep me at a distance forever

Exotic places and people to take the place of being your child?
Wondering if someone replaces me with other cultures and individuals to fulfill their parental needs

I give myself two seconds to cry
Allowing myself a brief moment of sadness

Let it crash over me like the waves in the sea
Letting the emotional pain and sadness come and go like waves in the ocean

Call me Aphrodite
Identifying with the Greek goddess of love, beauty, and sensuality

As they bow down to me
Imagining others admiring and worshiping me as a goddess

Sunbather, moon chaser, queen of empathy
Describing myself as a person who enjoys the beach and the night, with a strong ability to empathize with others

I give myself two seconds to breathe
Taking a brief moment to relax and collect myself

And go back to being a serene queen
Returning to a state of calmness and self-assurance

I just needed two seconds to be me
Expressing a need to be true to oneself and take a moment of self-reflection