She was born in Hampshire and has lived in Devon, Brighton and London. She is of Finnish descent.
Hackman went to Bedales School where she met Cara Delevingne. Together they formed a short-lived band where Hackman played drums and Delevingne played guitar and sang.
Johnny Flynn also studied at the same school and knew and appreciated Hackman's music. He was instrumental in getting her first record deal with Transgressive and produced her debut single.
In 2013 she toured Australia and Europe as an opening act for Laura Marling
My Lover Cindy
Marika Hackman Lyrics
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Let's hope the feeling's mutual in the end
Symbiosis, can we keep it how it was?
Now the levy is broken
I want more
'Cause I'm a greedy pig
I'm gonna get my fill
And I'll suck you dry, I will
I'm no pariah, but I'll try to pretend
I hope you keep your distance now and then
Same prognosis, it was fated from the start
We could be together, take my heart
But I'm a lousy lover, even if I try
I can go for a couple of weeks and the feeling's calcified
And if I lose away my mind (I'm not the one, I'm not the one, but I like you)
And if I lose away my mind (I'm not the one, I'm not the one, but I like you)
And if I lose away my mind (I'm not the one, I'm not the one, but I like you)
And if I lose away my mind (I'm not the one, I'm not the one, but I like you)
'Cause I'm a greedy pig
I'm gonna get my fill
I'm gonna keep my eyes on the prize
And I'll suck you dry, I will
'Cause I'm a fucking pig
I'm gonna get my fill
I'm gonna keep my eyes on the prize
And I'll suck you dry, I will
Oh, I will
The opening line of Marika Hackman's song My Lover Cindy, "If I was a liar, I would call you my friend," sets the tone for the entire track. Hackman acknowledges that she is not completely honest with her lover and fears that their relationship may not be mutual. She questions whether they can keep their symbiotic relationship the same, now that the emotional levy has been broken. Despite this, the singer remains greedy and seeks to maintain control over the relationship, vowing to "keep [her] eyes on the prize." Hackman seems to be treading a fine line between honesty and deception, and the lyrics suggest that the singer may struggle to maintain a healthy relationship with her lover.
The lyrics in the latter half of the song reveal the singer's shortcomings as a lover. She admits to being a "lousy lover," and her feelings towards her lover can "calcify" after just a few weeks. This vulnerability is juxtaposed with the singer's trademark greed and her desire to "get [her] fill" by sucking her lover dry. The closing lyrics, "Cause I'm a fucking pig, I'm gonna get my fill," drives home the singer's self-awareness of her emotionally manipulative tendencies.
Overall, Marika Hackman's My Lover Cindy is a haunting track, with lyrics that dig deep into the complexities of romantic relationships. The singer's vulnerability and selfishness are starkly juxtaposed, leaving the listener feeling conflicted about the state of the relationship.
Line by Line Meaning
If I was a liar, I would call you my friend
I am willing to use deceit to manipulate your emotions in order to gain your trust and affection.
Let's hope the feeling's mutual in the end
I hope that you reciprocate my feelings of attraction and desire.
Symbiosis, can we keep it how it was?
I want to maintain the current balance and connection between us, without any changes or disruptions.
Now the levy is broken
The emotional barriers between us have been broken down, allowing for increased intimacy and vulnerability.
I want more
I desire a greater level of emotional and physical closeness with you.
'Cause I'm a greedy pig
I am aware of my selfish and insatiable desires for your attention and affection.
I'm gonna get my fill
I am determined to obtain as much of what I want from you as possible.
I'm gonna keep my eyes on the prize
I am focused on achieving my ultimate goal, regardless of the cost.
And I'll suck you dry, I will
I will take everything from you, draining you of your emotional and physical resources.
I'm no pariah, but I'll try to pretend
I do not want to be an outcast, so I will pretend to be something I am not.
I hope you keep your distance now and then
I need some space and time alone, even though I desire your affection.
Same prognosis, it was fated from the start
We are destined to be together, no matter what obstacles we may face.
We could be together, take my heart
I am offering you my heart and my commitment, hoping that you will reciprocate.
But I'm a lousy lover, even if I try
Even if I make an effort to be a good partner, I am still inadequate and clumsy in my expression of love.
I can go for a couple of weeks and the feeling's calcified
My emotions towards you can quickly become stagnant and unresponsive, even if at first they were intense.
And if I lose away my mind (I'm not the one, I'm not the one, but I like you)
Even if I lose my sense of self, I cannot deny my attraction to you.
Cause I'm a fucking pig
I am emphasizing my selfishness and lack of concern for your wellbeing.
Oh, I will
I will continue to pursue my own desires, regardless of the consequences for you.
Lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: MARIKA LOUISE HACKMAN
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@maayan7232
If I was a liar, I would call you my friend
Let's hope the feeling's mutual in the end
Symbiosis, can we keep it how it was?
Now the levee's broken
I want more
'Cause I'm a greedy pig
I'm gonna get my fill
I'm gonna keep my eyes on the prize
And I'll suck you dry, I will
I'm no pariah, but I'll try to pretend
I hope you keep your distance now and then
Same prognosis, it was fated from the start
We could be together, take my heart
But I'm a lousy lover, even if I try
I can go for a couple of weeks and the feeling's calcified
And it burns away my mind (I don't know why, I don't know why, but I like you)
And it burns away my mind (I don't know why, I don't know why, but I like you)
And it burns away my mind (I don't know why, I don't know why, but I like you)
And it burns away my mind (I don't know why, I don't know why, but I like you)
'Cause I'm a greedy pig
I'm gonna get my fill
I'm gonna keep my eyes on the prize
And I'll suck you dry, I will
'Cause I'm a fuckin' pig
I'm gonna get my fill
I'm gonna keep my eyes on the prize
And I'll suck you dry, I will
Oh, I will
@mmhmm2174
If I was a liar, I would call you my friend
Let's hope the feeling's mutual in the end
Symbiosis, can we keep it how it was?
Now the levee's broken
I want more
'Cause I'm a greedy pig
I'm gonna get my fill
I'm gonna keep my eyes on the prize
And I'll suck you dry, I will
I'm no pariah, but I'll try to pretend
I hope you keep your distance now and then
Same prognosis, it was fated from the start
We could be together, take my heart
But I'm a lousy lover, even if I try
I can go for a couple of weeks and the feeling's calcified
And it burns away my mind (I don't know why, I don't know why, but I like you)
And it burns away my mind (I don't know why, I don't know why, but I like you)
And it burns away my mind (I don't know why, I don't know why, but I like you)
And it burns away my mind (I don't know why, I don't know why, but I like you)
'Cause I'm a greedy pig
I'm gonna get my fill
I'm gonna keep my eyes on the prize
And I'll suck you dry, I will
'Cause I'm a fuckin' pig
I'm gonna get my fill
I'm gonna keep my eyes on the prize
And I'll suck you dry, I will
Oh, I will
@angelamarreiros2919
It's amazing how you can have a crush on someone you've never met personally or know much about. Just her voice, rhythm and style is enough for me!
@BoltRunner
What the
@unepersonne412
@@BoltRunner "What the" yourself.
@alejandrobriones8579
The most underrated artist I've discovered in the last 3 years.
@m.a.d.m.5425
I woke up listening to Marina and then I open YouTube to see this! Could I be any happier?! I love your music Marika!
@hellaagnes8818
I was in the concert tonight. You were amazing and I am glad that I found this band. I fall in love and I need you more. Come back someday to visit Poland again! I would love to hear you more!
@aynnedias6250
Sempre quis ver alguém praticando esgrima sem aquela proteção toda _________ que lindo!
@theripenedheart
Still one of my favorite songs ever
@tashsteeds1002
The two singles off this album have been incredible and I'm so excited to hear the rest. My tiny gay heart is so full (also the L word reference is my favourite thing ever to happen)
@veronicaproctor184
please tell me the reference !