Surgically Removing the Tracking Device
Say Anything Lyrics


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Tearing out my hair
On a bedroom floor
Empty all the meds
Never anymore
For sure
Throbbing in my flesh
Breaking out in scarlet swords
Therapy I've been enslaved
I think I'll medicate this rage

So now I've crossed the line
(Tearing out my on a bedroom floor)

Fixing up the drugs
With a tiny flame
Put 'em in my lungs
And forget my name
I blame my parents for molesting me
With self-fulfilling prophecies
The teacher for indulging me
His shit dressed up in fury, fear and shame

So now I've crossed the line
(Put 'em in my lungs, forget my name)

High and I'll drive
I'll get high and I'll drive

If I were the keys
Then where would I be
If it's up to me
Then I will be free
If I were the keys
Then where would I be
If it's up to me
Then I will be free





Yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Overall Meaning

In Say Anything's song, "Surgically Removing the Tracking Device", it is clear that the singer is experiencing immense emotional pain and choosing to self-medicate to rid themselves of that pain. The opening lines, "Tearing out my hair on a bedroom floor/Empty all the meds never anymore/For sure", describe the singer seemingly at their wit's end, unable to cope with their emotions and willing to try anything to make themselves feel better. The following lines, "Throbbing in my flesh/Breaking out in scarlet swords/Therapy I've been enslaved/I think I'll medicate this rage", indicate the severe physical and emotional pain the singer is experiencing and their desire to escape it through drugs.


The next verse, "Fixing up the drugs/With a tiny flame/Put 'em in my lungs/And forget my name", further highlights the singer's desperation to escape their emotional pain through substance abuse. The lines, "I blame my parents for molesting me/With self-fulfilling prophecies/The teacher for indulging me/His shit dressed up in fury, fear, and shame", suggest that the singer's traumatic experiences have led them to this point, and that their pain is not solely a result of their own choices. This verse also speaks to the idea that the singer feels powerless, as they blame others for their current state of being.


The chorus, "If I were the keys/Then where would I be/If it's up to me/Then I will be free", could be interpreted as the singer questioning their path in life and their sense of control over it. They seem to be searching for some form of agency and freedom, but are unsure of how to achieve it. Overall, the song conveys a sense of desperation and hopelessness, as the singer struggles to cope with their inner turmoil and pain.


Line by Line Meaning

Tearing out my hair
Distraught and upset, physically pulling out hair from my head


On a bedroom floor
This act of desperation is taking place in a private, possibly isolated and dark location


Empty all the meds
Getting rid of any remaining medication that was meant to help, but no longer does


Never anymore
No longer wanting to rely on medication for relief from pain or mental distress


For sure
Determined to make a change and stick to it


Throbbing in my flesh
Feeling intense physical and emotional pain


Breaking out in scarlet swords
Experiencing self-harm through cutting, reflecting the pain I feel inside


Therapy I've been enslaved
Feeling trapped and forced to continue therapy, even if it is not helpful or fulfilling


I think I'll medicate this rage
Choosing to self-medicate with drugs and alcohol to cope with anger and frustration


So now I've crossed the line
Acknowledging that my actions have gone too far and may have negative consequences


Fixing up the drugs
Preparing to use drugs by heating or mixing them in ways that are potentially dangerous


With a tiny flame
Using a small and dangerous method to heat up drugs for use


Put 'em in my lungs
Inhaling drugs directly into my body, bypassing the liver and bloodstream


And forget my name
Losing myself in a high or drunken stupor, forgetting who I am and what I'm doing


I blame my parents for molesting me
Feeling anger and resentment towards my parents for the abuse I experienced as a child


With self-fulfilling prophecies
Feeling stuck in patterns of negative behavior and repeating them, as if fulfilling a prediction


The teacher for indulging me
Blaming a teacher for not intervening or helping when I was struggling with mental health issues


His shit dressed up in fury, fear and shame
Feeling like the teacher's methods and attitudes exacerbated my mental health issues, rather than helping


High and I'll drive
Intending to drive while under the influence of drugs or alcohol, putting myself and others in danger


If I were the keys
Fantasizing about being in control, about having a choice and a chance to get away


Then where would I be
Wondering what my life would be like if I were in control and could make my own choices


If it's up to me
Feeling like my choices are limited by external factors, like abuse and mental health issues


Then I will be free
Hoping for a future where I am no longer controlled by my circumstances, but can make my own choices and be happy


Yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
A mantra of hope and determination, repeated to try and convince myself that things will get better




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Written by: MAX BEMIS

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