On My Own
Screeching Weasel Lyrics


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once upon a time it thought i wouldn't see tomorrow fist clenched eyes wide open waiting for someone to follow alcohol and sedatives just kept it all at bay no sex or drugs or rock and roll could nake the living hell that seemed unchangable just go away no it's here to stay i didn't find a god i'll leave that for the weak of mind i didn't find twelve steps i'd rather leave that all behind i watched as calmly as i could as my life seemed to fall apart then i sat and thanked myself for my own sick and damaged heart i learned it's time to start looking at reality and what i'll always be and especially all those things that i don't want to see looking at reality hate and love and rage and pain and i do not feel ashamed and i will fo ahead and face the truth the reality i need to free myself from self-preservation i will be right here i must believe that i won't ever betray myself i'll be right here now i can see everything is interconnected and i will stay here with you science and dreams mind and body the power of love and the power of soul yes i will stay here with you




Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Screeching Weasel's "On My Own" reflect the struggles of the singer with addiction and facing reality. The song opens with the singer reminiscing about a time when they didn't think they would see tomorrow, with a clenched fist and open eyes waiting for someone to follow. The singer then mentions relying on alcohol and sedatives to keep their demons at bay, but realizing that sex, drugs, and rock and roll couldn't make the living hell that seemed unchangeable just go away. The singer realizes that the darkness is here to stay and the only way out is to face reality.


Continuing with the theme of reality, the singer goes on to say that they didn't find a god or rely on twelve-step programs that encourage the belief in a higher power. Instead, the singer watches their life fall apart and thanks themselves for their own sick and damaged heart. The singer realizes that it's time to start looking at reality for what it is, accepting everything that comes with it, including hate, love, rage, and pain. The singer acknowledges that they don't feel ashamed of who they are and will face the truth.


In the last verse, the singer states that they will be right there with themselves, not betraying themselves, and facing everything head-on. The singer acknowledges that everything is interconnected, including science and dreams, mind and body, the power of love and the power of soul. The singer ends it all by stating that they will stay there, with themselves, and with whoever is listening to the song.


Line by Line Meaning

once upon a time it thought i wouldn't see tomorrow
There was a time when I didn't think I would live to see another day.


fist clenched eyes wide open waiting for someone to follow
I was anxious and looking for direction, hoping someone would guide me.


alcohol and sedatives just kept it all at bay
I used alcohol and drugs to escape my problems, but it only numbed my pain temporarily.


no sex or drugs or rock and roll could make the living hell that seemed unchangable just go away
No amount of pleasure or distractions could make my unbearable life circumstances disappear.


no it's here to stay
My problems are a part of me, and I have to learn to deal with them.


i didn't find a god i'll leave that for the weak of mind
I didn't turn to religion to solve my problems because I see it as a crutch for those who can't handle reality.


i didn't find twelve steps i'd rather leave that all behind
I didn't follow the traditional recovery process because I don't believe in it.


i watched as calmly as i could as my life seemed to fall apart
I observed my life spiraling out of control without giving in to panic.


then i sat and thanked myself for my own sick and damaged heart
I accepted and appreciated my own flaws and imperfections.


i learned it's time to start looking at reality and what i'll always be
I realized it's time to face the truth about who I am and my circumstances.


and especially all those things that i don't want to see
I acknowledge the parts of my life that I find uncomfortable and difficult to face.


looking at reality hate and love and rage and pain and i do not feel ashamed
I face the reality of my emotions without feeling embarrassed or weak.


and i will go ahead and face the truth the reality i need to free myself from self-preservation
I will continue to confront the truth, even if it's painful, so I can move past my self-destructive tendencies.


i will be right here i must believe that i won't ever betray myself
I will stay committed to my own wellbeing and not let myself down.


i'll be right here now i can see everything is interconnected
I recognize that everything in life is interconnected and I am a part of a greater whole.


and i will stay here with you science and dreams mind and body the power of love and the power of soul yes i will stay here with you
I choose to embrace all aspects of life, including science, creativity, the mind and body, and emotional and spiritual wellbeing.




Lyrics © Wixen Music Publishing
Written by: BILL RICE, JERRY G FOSTER

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