Carry On
Shyheim Lyrics

Mister education, I'm on my way, let's go, uh huh
I'm determined to better myself and succeed, let's do this

Ask yourself, if you was me, yeah, carry on, but you / ain't got now
Challenges and adversity have made me who I am, you wouldn't understand

Layin' in my cell, starin' at the ceiling, oh what a fucked up feeling
Feeling trapped and hopeless, stuck in a bad situation

The things that I used to adore, I no longer find appealing
Incarceration has changed my perspective and what matters to me

And the girl I loved so much, she started exhaling
The one person who I thought I could count on has given up on me

While I was jailing, my niggaz turned the other cheek
My friends abandoned me and left me to deal with the consequences alone

So I stopped calling, I sensed they ain't want to speak
I realized that our friendship was not as strong as I thought it was

I couldn't go to sleep, no one to hug but my sheets
Feeling lonely and isolated, with only my bedding for comfort

Kept bangers for the beef, that follow me from the street
I stayed armed to protect myself from the violence and conflict of the streets

Dear mama, I wrote you a letter, why you ain't write back?
Feeling hurt and abandoned by my mother's lack of response or support

Must of went right back, to the pipe and crack
Assuming my mother relapsed into drug addiction and couldn't respond

If it wasn't for grandma, I would of been hung up
My grandmother was the only one who believed in me and helped me get through my struggles

But I heard her voice in my head, tellin' me to be tough
My grandmother's words of encouragement and strength keep me going

Last night I couldn't sleep, I tossed and turned
Struggling with inner turmoil and anxiety, unable to rest peacefully

Heard hell was hot and dark, and the fire really burns
An ominous fear of death, punishment, and suffering in the afterlife

My lawyer firm, couldn't get this day to germ
My legal team was not able to successfully get me out of trouble or reduce my sentence

Took a deep inhale, blew out the smoke, like fuck it kid
Feeling defeated and resigned to my fate, I accept my circumstances and give up

It is what it is, I'mma die in jail
Knowing that I am unlikely to be released, I must come to terms with living out my life behind bars

For every G mackin', in this sad fashion, we started laughing
Despite the hardships we share, we find joy and humor in our camaraderie

The funny thing was, it wasn't nothin' funny
We laugh to hide our pain and discomfort in a macabre situation

At the end nothing matters, the God,drugs or the money
Ultimately, all the things we value and fight for in life will not matter when we are gone

Got my greens on, sittin' with my feet up
Feeling relaxed and nonchalant in my situation, enjoying some small comforts

Yesterday, in the fish tank, a bitch nigga got ate
Witnessing violence and punishment against another inmate in the prison

But I'm really tryin' to chill, get closer to home
I am focused on enduring my time in prison and returning to my family

And God forget, the fish kill, yea, I'm that real deal
Despite my challenges and struggles, I am strong and authentic in living my life