Substance Sequence
Sianvar Lyrics

Too many days (muscles aching, routine lacking) I got away (insert substance sequence) Cameras watching actors acting.
After too many days of feeling physically drained and mentally stuck in a boring routine, I use a substance to escape reality and watch the world around me as if it's a performance being put on for my entertainment.

Paranoid.
The substance I'm using makes me feel extremely anxious and paranoid.

Dark evil ocean, I'm craving more.
I feel swallowed up by my addiction and crave more of the substance that is dragging me down into a dark and twisted world.

Good intuition left at the shore.
I know that using this substance is not a good idea, but I ignore my instincts and indulge anyway.

Drift with my brother, fishing for more.
I find comfort in using the substance with a friend, like we're out on a boat fishing for more of the drug.

Dark evil ocean, keep us from shore.
The allure of the substance keeps me and my friend at bay from the safety of sobriety.

Smashing up the pieces.
In a fit of drug-induced anger, I break things around me.

Cleaning up balloons.
I try to erase the evidence of my substance use by cleaning up the balloons used to ingest the drug.

Coming down, coming down.
The high is wearing off and I am returning to reality.

Lesser now, lesser now.
As the drug leaves my system, I feel less and less in control of my body and mind.

Wash off the poisons.
I try to rid my system of the toxins left behind from the substance.

Dissect in portions.
I break down each step of my substance use to try and understand what led me to this point of addiction.

Smash the fucking head, core removal works the best.
In a violent and desperate attempt to get rid of the addiction, I imagine smashing apart the source of it in my head.

Wash out the poisons.
My efforts to cleanse my system of the drug continue.

Iceberg abortion.
I compare the pain and struggle of overcoming addiction to an iceberg that must be terminated before it can cause further harm.

Smash the fucking head, core removal works the best.
I return to imagining violently removing the source of addiction from my mind, recognizing that this is the best course of action.

Come back to me.
I yearn for the person I was before falling into the trap of addiction, hoping to recover my former self.

Foil as the paper, solids turn to vapor.
I reflect on the transformation of the drug from its initial solid form to its vapor when heated on aluminum foil.

Common sense, distancing.
I acknowledge that using the drug goes against my better judgement and healthy boundaries.

Toxic level danger, destructive behavior.
I recognize the dangerous and destructive nature of my drug use.

Family, friends, furthering.
I acknowledge the importance of my relationships with family and friends in maintaining a healthy and fulfilling life.

Superior Ave. takes me.
I am taken down a path of temptation and addiction by the allure of Superior Avenue.

Magnolia Ave. takes me.
Even though I want to distance myself from addiction, Magnolia Avenue continues to pull me in.

Muscles aching, routing lacking.
I am physically and mentally drained, lacking any structure or routine in my life.

Insert substance sequence.
The substance I am addicted to, but do not name in the song.

Too many days (paranoid) I got away.
While the substance provides a temporary escape from reality and paranoia, it ultimately makes my life worse.

Dark evil ocean, I'm feigning more.
My addiction feels like a never-ending abyss, always craving more of the drug.

I only want what I came for.
The substance is the only thing I truly desire, to the point of obsession and addiction..

This isn't worth what I paid for.
Even though using the substance feels like an escape in the moment, the consequences and harm it causes are ultimately not worth the temporary high.

Everybody's listening.
The weight of addiction feels like everyone around me is aware of and watching my descent.

Smashing!
Returning to violent thoughts of smashing apart the addiction in my mind.

Substance Sequence!
The name of the song, drawing attention to the power of addiction and the hold it can have on a person.