Be My Escape
Relient K Lyrics

I've given up on giving up slowly
I'm no longer trying to quit my bad habits little by little.

I'm blending in so you won't even know me
I'm trying to disappear into the crowd and hide from the pain of life.

Apart from this whole world that shares my fate
I feel alone and separate from everyone around me, even though we all face similar problems in life.

This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
I see one final chance for salvation, and I'm afraid of losing it.

Because I know to live you must give your life away
I realize that in order to truly live and be happy, I need to be unselfish and put others first.

And I've been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I've kept my fear and feelings of inadequacy inside for too long.

I've been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
I've been trapped in my own mind, and only God can provide the way out.

And I've been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
I'm desperate to escape my current situation, even if it means taking a big risk.

And even though, there's no way in knowing Where to go
I'm unsure of what the future holds and where I need to be.

promise I'm going because
But I'll keep moving forward anyway because

I gotta get outta here
I need to escape this rut I'm in and find a better way of life.

I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I'm trapped in my current predicament due to my own poor choices in the past.

And I'm begging you, I'm begging you, I'm begging you to be my escape.
I'm crying out to God for help and guidance, asking Him to be the one who saves me.

I'm giving up on doing this alone now
I'm no longer trying to handle my problems on my own.

'Cause I've failed and I'm ready to be shown how
My attempts to solve my own problems have not worked, and I know I need someone else to guide me.

He's told me the way and I'm trying to get there
I believe God has shown me the right path, and I'm doing my best to follow it.

And this life sentence that I'm serving
I feel like I'm stuck in an ongoing struggle throughout my entire life.

I admit that I'm every bit deserving
I accept that I've made mistakes and I deserve some of the struggles I'm facing now.

But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair
God's love and forgiveness is so powerful that it can change our circumstances and attitudes in a way that doesn't make logical sense.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
I am a prisoner in the sense that my own human nature and weaknesses hold me back.

Self detained and forced to live in this mess I've made
I'm stuck in a situation of my own making, and I feel trapped by my own bad choices.

And all I'm asking is for you to do what You can with me
I'm asking God to take me as I am and use me in the best way possible, despite my flaws.

But I can't ask You to give what You already gave
I realize that God has already given me everything I need to succeed, and I don't want to take that for granted or abuse it.

I fought you for so long
I've been resisting God's guidance and help for a while, trying to do things my own way.

I should have let you in
I see now that I should have surrendered to God's plan and trusted Him earlier.

Oh how we regret those things we do
It's painful to look back and see how our past mistakes have hurt us and others.

And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
I was being selfish and trying to protect myself instead of looking out for others' best interests.

But so were you
God was also looking out for my best interest by offering me grace and forgiveness, even when I didn't deserve it.