Cage
DIR EN GREY Lyrics

シビレを切らしてる
Growing impatient, I draw from the masochistic blood inside me, waiting for you, my sadistic lover, with the hope to receive your poisonous kiss.

悲嘆故に美徳見えず
Your virtue is overshadowed by your grief; you are the only mother figure for me, burying memories deep enough to evade recognition, like my first mother.

時計は左回りでも
Though the clock goes counterclockwise, I can never change the sins I've committed, they're burned into the understanding of my first and final confidant.

嫌がる僕を見て
Looking at me, full of resistance, choosing decisively with a forced but gentle touch, a decision that I can never permit myself to reveal.

幼い頃の虐待がね
The childhood violence inflicted upon me is something that I cannot forget, like why is it that my mother isn't here anymore? Oh, please tell me.

Ah いつかはやさしさに気付いて
Someday, you'll realize the kindness within the holy embrace of a cradle, like Mother Mary.

悲痛故に前が見えず
Your relief is blurred by grief, my last mother, at least let me go unnoticed by you, like my first mother.

最初で最後の理解者 壊した
Perhaps I was just too gentle; I projected my old trauma and destroyed the only person who understands me, at least they were the first and last.

嫉妬深い君は いつでも 冷血なの?
You're always so jealous, are you really that heartless?

決して君には言えない
I can never say it to you.

傷を深めてゆこう
Let's deepen our wounds.

僕には優し過ぎたのかなあ? 昔のトラウマを映し 最後の君まで壊した僕はサド?
Was I too kind to myself? Did I reflect on the traumas from the past? Did I become the sadistic one who ruined you? At least, my last lover?