Not Strong Enough
Boygenius Lyrics

Black hole opened in the kitchen
She feels like a void, lost and disconnected, as if there's a hole in her universe

Every clock's a different time
Her life is falling apart, and everything around her feels disjointed and out of sync

It would only take the energy to fix it
The answer to lift herself up could be simple, but she doesn't know where to start or how to move forward

I don't know why I am
She's filled with doubt and confusion about her identity and place in the world

The way I am
She's struggling to be the person she wants to be but feels weighed down by her shortcomings

Not strong enough to be your man
She knows she's not capable of being the strong and steadfast person her partner needs and deserves

I tried, I can't
She's done her best but can't seem to succeed or make progress on her own

Stop staring at the ceiling fan and
She's stuck in a rut and can't shake herself out of a negative thought cycle

Spinning out about things that haven't happened
She's anxious about the future and can't stop worrying about negative outcomes that may never come to pass

Breathing in and out
Even though she feels overwhelmed, she's doing her best to stay calm and present

Drag racing through the canyon
She's living fast and recklessly, putting herself in danger without care or concern

Singing, "Boys Don't Cry"
She's trying to mask her pain and vulnerability by projecting a tough exterior

Do you see us getting scraped up off the pavement?
She's self-destructing and doesn't know how to stop it, asking rhetorically if others can sense how bad things have gotten

I lied, I am
She's admitting to her partner that she can't be the person she promised to be, even though she tried and wanted to be

Just lowering your expectations
She's lowering their expectations of her because she can't live up to them, not wanting to let them down further

Half a mind that keeps the other second guessing
Her mind is torn in two, and she can't make decisions or trust herself

Close my eyes and count
She's trying to escape reality or do something mindless to distract from her pain

Always an angel, never a god
She's humble and doesn't see herself as powerful or mighty; she's just a regular person trying to make sense of the world

There's something in the static
Her mind is filled with noise and confusion, as if there's white noise buzzing around inside her head

I think I've been having revelations
She's had moments of clarity and insight, but they don't stick around long enough to truly change anything

Coming to in the front seat, nearly empty
She's waking up and realizing that time is passing her by, feeling as if she's running out of opportunities and resources

Skip the exit to our old street and go home
She's tempted to revisit the past as a way of finding comfort, but knows it won't help her move forward

Go home alone
She has to face her demons alone, knowing that no one else can save her but herself