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B. Fleischmann Lyrics

I'm tired of waiting they told me just be patient boy
I'm tired of being told to wait. I'm ready for my success now.

I'm tired of seeing lames get on homie I'm taking score
I'm frustrated that people who don't deserve success are getting it while I wait. But I'm keeping track.

Used to have people that I was steadily praying for
I had people in my life that I really cared about and hoped for their success.

That fell out of my life and that space is no longer vacant for them
Those people are no longer in my life and I'm moving on without them.

I still wish them well but that shits from a distance now
I still hope they do well, but I'm not as involved in their lives as I used to be.

I made I peace it with the rest they got to figure out
I've made peace with the people who are still in my life. The rest are on their own.

We all running a race just on a different mile
We're all trying to succeed, but we're all at different stages in our journey.

We all shopping for success just on different Aisle
We're all looking for success, but we have different paths to get there.

In O nine I was rapping my ass off
In 2009, I was working really hard at rapping.

Hit after hit like they were throwing fast ball
I was putting out a lot of great music, one after the other.

Hid a lot pain fuck it I took my mask off
I was hiding my pain, but then I decided to be real and open about it.

And I'm way too old now to be at the bar when it's last call
I'm too old to be partying and wasting time when I should be focusing on my success.

Every time I drop a record got to go up with up, so I know they fuck with it
I have to keep making better and better music to make sure people like it and support me.

Slow down stop rushing it
I need to slow down and take my time with my music and my success.

Flow like I'm mad homie all I see is red like republicans
I'm rapping with intense passion and energy, like I'm angry. Everything I see is colored by that intensity.

And I finally understand it now
I've reached a new level of understanding about life and success.

All of those years when we were rapping at Ms. Janet's house
We used to work on our music at Ms. Janet's house.

We was building the 81 Dream before we planned it out
We were working toward our dream of success before we even knew what our plan was.

Rarely asked for help but never got it when my hands were out
I always tried to do everything on my own, but when I did ask for help, I didn't get it.

I seen my brother get on I love it I'm glad he made it
I'm happy for my brother's success.

Different from Sampson man I love to see them happy faces
I'm not jealous of my brother's success. I love seeing him happy.

Half baked in places I should've been sober in
I made some mistakes and choices that I shouldn't have when I wasn't thinking clearly.

Made it out of a place you ain't suppose to win, yea
I succeeded despite the odds being against me.

What you all think I ain't supposed to grin
I'm allowed to be happy and proud of my success.

I cried a lot I don't lost some of my closest friends
I've been through a lot of pain and loss, including losing some of my closest friends.

And some of them still got a heart beat
Some of those friends are still alive.

And some of them are six feet deep this shit get hard B
Some of those friends have passed away, and it's been really tough for me.

Eddie Murphy with it I wish we could trade places
I sometimes wish I could trade my life with someone else's.

Instead I grind down to the wire like I'm Clay Davis
But instead of giving up or trading places, I keep working hard toward success like Clay Davis.

Be patient never second placing like clay Akins
I keep being patient and working hard, never settling for second place like Clay Aiken.

I'll be elated on the day I get to say that we made it
I'll be really happy and proud when I can say I've achieved my goals and succeeded.

We won't ever supposed to make it out the hood
It was unlikely we'd ever succeed coming from our background.

So many people told me we never would
A lot of people were doubtful and negative about our chances of success.

And now my heads to the sky it's all good now
But despite the negativity, I'm positive and optimistic about my success now.

I remember going weeks never leaving the room
I used to spend weeks holed up in a room.

My back up against the wall minus the pair of shoes
I was in a really tough spot, with nothing to support me except myself.

Between signing up for shit I won't prepared to do
I was taking on commitments and responsibilities I wasn't actually ready for.

And looking in the mirror hating the picture I'm staring to
I didn't like what I saw when I looked in the mirror, and I was unhappy with myself.

Some'll say I'm nonchalant or that I care too much
Some people think I don't care enough, while others think I care too much.

Whatever I touch, it seems like it's never enough
No matter what I do, it never feels like it's enough for some people.

I'm stuck in a rut, smoke and pour my mourning's in cups
I feel like I'm stuck in a bad situation and I sometimes drink or smoke to cope with my emotions.

I'm fuckin it up, next morning I'm throwing it up
But coping through drugs and alcohol is making things worse, not better.

So many people praying for a nigga
A lot of people are rooting for me and hoping for my success.

So many names I can't remember laying wit a nigga
There are so many people supporting me that I can't even remember them all.

You said that you want it but it's looking like you playin nigga
Some people say they want to succeed, but their actions don't match their words.

Tell me you don't get it let me put this Shit in laments nigga
If you don't understand what I'm saying, let me explain it more clearly.

You ain't no magician why you always tryna trick off
You aren't magical, so why are you always trying to deceive people?

You ain't no politician why you lying to your bitch dog
You aren't a politician, so why are you lying to your partner?

Mad at your baby mama it's your fault you let that shit off
If you're having problems with your baby mama, it's probably because you screwed up somehow.

I can name a bunch of flaws but I ain't tryna get too pissed off
There are a lot of things that bother me, but I don't want to get too angry about it.

These voices in my head put brainwaves in the undertow
I have a lot of thoughts and internal voices that are affecting me in a negative way.

Of my beautiful mind tell me where the fuck is Russell Crowe
A reference to the movie A Beautiful Mind, and the character played by Russell Crowe. I'm wondering where my own Russell Crowe is to help me.

Thinking bout my ex I want her back but I'm like fuck her though
I sometimes think about my ex and want her back, but I don't really feel that way.

Cuz she said that she love me and she left so I don't trust it no
I don't trust her love because she left me after saying she loved me.

Feel like Tiki Barber had some bags that I fumbled
I feel like football player Tiki Barber, who had a bad habit of fumbling the ball during games.

And I dropped the ball a couple times I couldn't juggle
I've made some big mistakes and failed at certain things I tried to do.

And Teylor always tell me that it's beauty in the struggle
My friend Teylor reminds me that there is something beautiful about going through tough times.

So you got to pop your big shit, stop rapping wit a muzzle
You have to be confident and believe in yourself, not hold back like you're muzzled.

And say it with your chest lil Nigga stop being humble
Be proud and confident in what you say and do, don't hold back or be too modest.

Tell them you the best and ain't no lying in your jungle
Let everyone know that you are the best, and you're not lying or exaggerating.

That means you the truth my nigga just took a stumble
You are the truth, but you just had a misstep or mistake.

Time to hit them wit some new shit kill it like Brian Gumbel
It's time to come out with something new and amazing, like news anchor Brian Gumbel.

And hit them in the tooth of them niggaz ready to rumble
Take on your haters and critics and come out on top.

Cuz everybody falls even Scarlet took a tumble
Everyone makes mistakes, even the fictional character Scarlet O'Hara.

It's crazy how we comfortable with humor in the struggle still
It's strange how we can still find some humor in tough situations.

But put my heart in this put that shit my fucking will
I'm putting everything I have into my work and my success.

Until a nigga make it
Until I achieve my goals and become successful.