Dark Lotus made its debut with the single "Echo Side", which was later released on Insane Clown Posse's 1999 album The Amazing Jeckel Brothers. It was later announced that each member "would act as a 'petal' of the lotus," and that there would be six members. After speculation as to who the sixth member would be, including rumors that Esham would join the group, it was announced that Marz would be a member.
Dark Lotus released their first album, Tales from the Lotus Pod, in 2001. Mike E. Clark was brought in to produce the album, but left the project after producing four songs, and Fritz the Cat produced the rest of the album. The album peaked at #1 on the Billboard Heatseekers chart, #6 on the Top Independent Albums chart, and #158 on the Billboard 200. Marz left the group, and was replaced by James Lowery. In 2002, Tales from the Lotus Pod was reissued in a new version removing Marz' vocals. On April 6, 2004, Dark Lotus released their second studio album, Black Rain. It peaked at #3 on the Top Independent Albums chart, and at #71 on the Billboard 200.
Lowery left the group, and a third album, The Opaque Brotherhood, was released without him. It peaked at #4 on the Top Independent Albums chart, #23 on the Top R&B/Hip-Hop Albums chart, #45 on the Top Internet Albums chart, and #45 on the Billboard 200.[4] Allrovi reviewer Stewart Mason praised the album, writing "Nothing on The Opaque Brotherhood will convince anyone who isn't already a fan, but the tormented lyrics and matter-of-fact delivery remove a layer or two of distance and artifice from the band's familiar themes, and make them that much more disturbing as a result.".
My Head is Haunted
Dark Lotus Lyrics
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But my closet happens to be inside of my head like a pocket
Behind of my eye socket, right in line with my mind
And I'm tryin' to lock it away, but it's comin' back everytime
And I can feel it gettin' stronger, hopin' I live no longer
Choking myself while I'm having visions it's all over but it's not
And I wake up everytime and I'm still haunted in my mind
Listen close you can hear it whispering (die!)
If you live in a haunted house you can leave it
If you hear ghost stories choose not to believe it
My dilemma's deeper try to perceive it
My head is haunted, can you conceive it?
I'm screaming at random, shit is terrifying
Right, left outta the blue I start crying
I saw an exorcist but he quit the case
I bit off his shit and then spit it in his face
Living in my mind (I'm forever haunted)
Nothing they've defined (Always I am taunted)
Will they ever let me go?
With them I've combined (miss that by the wanted, no)
Fear creeps over me
Pupils dilate
Pale I become now
Face with wild hate
What is it?
Impairing me
Daring me to take another breath
(Come on doc you're scaring me to death!)
Let's get it over
Shit is gettin' colder
Everything I've told her
Lost in the roll up
Story getting older
Call me the coroner
Decaying, laying on the grim reaper's shoulder
I close my eyes and I'm face to face with a poltergeist
Not a polar bear but my temperature, it's cold as ice
I got a head on me, filled up with 50 entities
Summon kinetic energy, shock me with electricity
And I'm haunted just like a host
It's entertaining a bank with up at least a 100 ghosts
All seen it just like a scene of a massacre
My head is moving
Think that they're driving and I'm the passenger
Torture is a constant
At least three ghosts occupy my brain
One is the saint, two are insane
They beat down the good ghost and torture is an constant
I thought it might help, moved in to a convent
Now I get nosebleeds and migrane shakes
I drink holy water, snort blessed rice cakes
Whatever it takes but it doesn't know harm
They takeover, I'm in the corner chewing on my arm!
Living in my mind (I'm forever haunted)
Nothing they've defined (Always I am taunted)
Will they ever let me go?
With them I've combined (miss that by the wanted, no)
Fear creeps over me
Pupils dilate
Pale I become now
Face with wild hate
What is it?
Impairing me
Daring me to take another breath
(Come on doc you're scaring me to death!)
Let's get it over
Shit is gettin' colder
Everything I've told her
Lost in the roll up
Story getting older
Call me the coroner
Decaying, laying on the grim reaper's shoulder
[Verse 5 - Blaze Ya Dead Homie:]
Is it all in my head? Taunting me, haunting me
Want to see everyone dead simultaneously
Light the match, choke the flame, fire rain is insane
Shadows inside are addicted to pain
Bang my head off the floor
Shove it in between the door
Broke my nose, it don't stop still wanting more
I'm bloody and bruised by my own apparition
This is my life, my unstable condition
Living in my mind (I'm forever haunted)
Nothing they've defined (Always I am taunted)
Will they ever let me go?
With them I've combined (miss that by the wanted, no)
Fear creeps over me
Pupils dilate
Pale I become now
Face with wild hate
What is it?
Impairing me
Daring me to take another breath
(Come on doc you're scaring me to death!)
Let's get it over
Shit is gettin' colder
Everything I've told her
Lost in the roll up
Story getting older
Call me the coroner
Decaying, laying on the grim reaper's shoulder
Dark Lotus's song "My Head is Haunted" is a haunting depiction of a person who is tormented by their own mind. The lyrics suggest that there is a dark presence within the singer's mind that is causing them tremendous emotional and psychological distress. The lyrics use metaphors to describe this haunting presence, such as the metaphor of a skeleton in the closet, and the metaphor of a pocket inside of the singer's head where their haunted thoughts reside. The singer describes being unable to escape this presence, despite repeated attempts to lock it away. The haunting presence is depicted as growing stronger with each passing day, and the singer is fearful that it will ultimately lead to their demise.
The lyrics of the song suggest that the singer has sought help from various sources, including an exorcist, but that none of these attempts have been successful in driving away the haunting presence. The singer describes seeing visions and hearing whispers that are extremely frightening. The lyrics use vivid imagery to describe the physical sensations that the singer experiences when they are confronted with these visions and whispers. They experience extreme fear, their pupils dilate, and they become pale with wild hate. The lyrics suggest that the singer is in a state of constant torment, and that they are unable to find any respite from their haunted thoughts.
Line by Line Meaning
Everybody's got a skeleton in their closet
Everyone has secrets or things they want to hide.
But my closet happens to be inside of my head like a pocket
The things I want to hide are inside my own mind.
Behind of my eye socket, right in line with my mind
The things I want to hide are located deep within my brain.
And I'm tryin' to lock it away, but it's comin' back everytime
I'm trying to forget or ignore my dark thoughts, but they keep resurfacing.
And I can feel it gettin' stronger, hopin' I live no longer
My dark thoughts are becoming more intense and I feel like I can't live with them anymore.
Choking myself while I'm having visions it's all over but it's not
I feel like I'm suffocating and having thoughts of death, but I can't escape them.
And I wake up everytime and I'm still haunted in my mind
Even when I wake up from my nightmares or bad thoughts, they still linger in my mind.
Listen close you can hear it whispering (die!)
My dark thoughts and desires are whispering for me to die.
My dilemma's deeper try to perceive it
My problem is more complicated than others can understand.
My head is haunted, can you conceive it?
My mind is haunted by dark thoughts and desires that are difficult to escape or overcome.
Living in my mind (I'm forever haunted)
The thoughts and desires that haunt me are always present in my mind.
Nothing they've defined (Always I am taunted)
The exact nature of my dark thoughts and desires is undefined, but they constantly taunt me.
With them I've combined (miss that by the wanted, no)
My mind and my dark thoughts have become one, and it's not something I wanted.
Fear creeps over me
I am constantly filled with fear.
Pupils dilate
I become scared and my pupils dilate.
Pale I become now
My fear makes me physically appear pale.
Face with wild hate
I start to hate myself for having these dark thoughts and desires.
What is it?
I am unsure of what is happening to me.
Impairing me
My dark thoughts and desires are causing me harm.
Daring me to take another breath
I am struggling to continue living with my dark thoughts and desires.
(Come on doc you're scaring me to death!)
I'm asking my doctor to help me because I'm scared I might hurt myself.
Let's get it over
I want to find a way to escape my dark thoughts and desires.
Shit is gettin' colder
Things are only getting worse for me and my mental state.
Everything I've told her
I've shared my thoughts and feelings with someone, but I still can't escape them.
Lost in the roll up
My thoughts and desires have consumed me, leaving me feeling lost.
Story getting older
My situation has been going on for a while and it's getting worse.
Call me the coroner
I feel like I'm dying on the inside.
Decaying, laying on the grim reaper's shoulder
I feel like I'm already dying and the grim reaper is waiting to take me away.
Is it all in my head? Taunting me, haunting me
I am questioning whether my dark thoughts and desires are real or just inside my head, but they are taunting and haunting me either way.
Want to see everyone dead simultaneously
My dark thoughts and desires involve wanting to see everyone die at the same time.
Light the match, choke the flame, fire rain is insane
My thoughts involve starting fires and causing destruction.
Shadows inside are addicted to pain
The dark thoughts inside me crave and enjoy causing pain.
Bang my head off the floor
I become so consumed by my dark thoughts that I hurt myself physically.
Shove it in between the door
I become so desperate to escape my dark thoughts that I physically try to harm myself.
Broke my nose, it don't stop still wanting more
I have hurt myself so much but my dark thoughts are still present and even stronger.
I'm bloody and bruised by my own apparition
My dark thoughts have caused me to hurt myself so badly that I am physically bloody and bruised.
This is my life, my unstable condition
My mental state and dark thoughts have taken over my life and made me unstable.
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