Epilogue-What If
Emilie Autumn Lyrics

Here you sit in your high-backed chair
You are sitting comfortably, thinking highly of yourself

Wonder how the view is from there
You are curious about what it's like to be in your position

I wouldn't know 'cause I like to sit Upon the floor, yeah upon the floor
I prefer to be humble and grounded, not inflated with ego

If you like we could play a game
We can interact and pretend to be on equal footing

Let's pretend that we are the same
Let's assume that we have equal worth and value

But you will have to look much closer Than you do, closer than you do
You need to take a closer look at me to recognize my true value

And I'm far too tired to stay here anymore And I don't care what you think anyway
I am exhausted trying to fit into your expectations and opinions don't matter to me at this point

'Cause I think you were wrong about me Yeah what if you were, what if you were
You have made assumptions about me that may be incorrect, and we should consider that possibility

And what if I'm a snowstorm burning What if I'm a world unturning What if I'm an ocean, far too shallow, much too deep What if I'm the kindest demon Something you may not believe in What if I'm a siren singing gentlemen to sleep
I may be someone who defies expectations or labels and is unique in my own way, but that doesn't mean I am unworthy of recognition and respect

I know you've got it figured out Tell me what I am all about And I just might learn a thing or two Hundred about you, maybe about you
You think you know everything about me, but you should give me the chance to tell you about myself, and in the process, we both may learn something new

I'm the end of your telescope I don't change just to suit your vision 'Cause I am bound by a fraying rope Around my hands, tied around my hands
You only see me from afar, and I won't change myself to fit your limited view, but my circumstances may be challenging and restrictive

And you close your eyes when I say I'm breaking free And put your hands over both your ears Because you cannot stand to believe I'm not The perfect girl you thought
You refuse to accept that I am growing and changing in ways that do not align with your ideal image of me, and it makes you uncomfortable

Well what have I got to lose And what if I'm a weeping willow Laughing tears upon my pillow What if I'm a socialite who wants to be alone What if I'm a toothless leopard What if I'm a sheepless shepherd What if I'm an angel without wings to take me home
I am willing to embrace my complexity and be true to myself even if it means not fitting into a neat category, and that's okay

You don't know me Never will, never will I'm outside your picture frame And the glass is breaking now
You have a limited perception of me, and it is starting to crack as you realize there's more to me than meets the eye

You can't see me Never will, never will If you're never gonna see
You will never fully understand me if you refuse to acknowledge my complexity and refuse to see me for who I am

What if I'm a crowded desert Too much pain with little pleasure What if I'm the nicest place you never want to go What if I don't know who I am Will that keep us both from trying To find out and when you have Be sure to let me know
I may be a place of both pain and pleasure, and discovering who I am is a journey we both need to take together for a deeper understanding

What if I'm a snowstorm burning What if I'm a world unturning What if I'm an ocean, far too shallow, much too deep What if I'm the kindest demon Something you may not believe in What if I'm a siren singing gentlemen to sleep Sleep... Sleep...
I am a complex and multifaceted person, and you need to see me beyond your limited perception and stereotypes