Marry Me
Emilie Autumn Lyrics

Marry me, he said, through his rotten teeth, bad breath, and then
Despite the prospect of marrying an authoritarian, unattractive man, I have been asked to marry him

Marry me instead of that strapping young goatherd, but when
He is requesting me to marry him over a more youthful and attractive partner

I was in his bed, and my father had sold me
I had no choice but to marry him due to my father's decision to sell me off

I knew I hadn't any choice, hushed my voice, did what any girl would do and
I understood that I had no alternative but to remain subdued and comply with his wishes, as that is what society expects of women

When I'm beheaded at least I was wedded
If I am executed, having been married gives me at least some sense of security or accomplishment

And when I am buried at least I was married
Even after I am dead, being buried as a married woman rather than an unwed one provides some form of social validation

I'll hide my behavior with wine as my savior
I will rely on alcohol to conceal my emotions and fulfill my desires

But, oh, what beautiful things I'll wear
Despite the negative aspects of this marriage, I can at least enjoy beautiful clothes and accessories

What beautiful dresses and hair
I can express myself through my appearance, even if I am not content in other areas of my life

I'm lucky to share his bed
Being allowed to share a bed with my husband is considered fortunate, even if it is not a positive experience for me

Especially since I'll soon be dead
Since I am aware that my life will soon come to an end, I must appreciate any positivity I can find

Running in the gardens enjoying men, women, and flowers
I can find pleasure in being free to interact with others and enjoy my physical surroundings

Then I break a glass and I slit my own innermost thigh
As a form of rebellion, I may cause myself physical damage to prevent sexual activity

So that I can pretend that I'm menstru...well, unavailable
Making myself appear ill or menstruating is a way for me to avoid male advances or unwanted sexual activity

My life is arranged but this union's deranged
Although my marriage was predetermined, it is not ideal or rational

So I'll fuck who I choose for I've nothing to lose
Since I have little control over my life, I will seek pleasure where I can find it and worry less about consequences

And when master's displeased I'll be down on my knees again
If my husband is displeased, I must humble myself and seek to please him, as my subservience is expected

When dining on peacock I know I won't swallow
I may refuse to eat certain foods as an act of rebellion or control

Through balls, births, and bridge games I know what will follow
I am aware of the expectations placed on me as a woman and of the societal norms that I must follow

Or at least until husband finds someone younger
I am aware that my husband may replace me with a younger woman in the future

Yes, fertilization is part of my station
My role as a wife includes bearing children for my husband, as is expected of women

I laugh as he drabs me in anticipation
I may outwardly express happiness, even if I am not pleased with my situation

Of sons who will run things when I'm under covers
My sons will have the power when I am no longer alive, as women do not typically hold positions of authority

But whose children are they? Why, mine and my lover's!
I may engage in sexual activities with someone other than my husband, and any resulting children may not necessarily be his

So why do I wish I was...
Despite possessing certain comforts and privileges, I am unhappy and long for a different situation or life