Growing up in Malibu, California, she began learning the violin at the age of four and left regular school five years later with the goal of becoming a world-class violinist; she practiced eight or nine hours a day and read a wide range of literature. Progressing to writing her own music, she studied under various teachers and went to Indiana University, which she left over issues regarding the relationship between classical music and the appearance of the performer. Through her own independent label Traitor Records, Autumn debuted with her classical album On a Day: Music for Violin & Continuo, followed by the release in 2003 of her album Enchant.
She appeared in singer Courtney Love's backing band on her 2004 America's Sweetheart tour and returned to Europe. She released the 2006 album Opheliac with the German label Trisol Music Group. In 2007, she released Laced/Unlaced; the re-release of On a Day... appeared as Laced with songs on the electric violin as Unlaced. She later left Trisol to join New York-based The End Records in 2009 and release Opheliac in the United States, where previously it had only been available as an import. Currently she is on tour to promote her newest album Fight Like A Girl. She played the role of Painted Doll in Darren Lynn Bousman's 2012 film The Devil's Carnival.
306
Emilie Autumn Lyrics
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In only six years
If it was an accident
Where are the tears
I am still unidentified
Behind the Cathedral
Is where my body hides
But I'm not inside
In early one day
If it was a game then
Why couldn't I play
I am the abandoner
But still I remain
As my frozen pulse quickness
As the black plot thickens
like the story I heard
A lifetime ago
Where a girl
And this is funny
Took her life
And what she doesn't know
Is how long it takes
For the water to rise
And the breath to stop fighting
And the cold to close her eyes
Morality plays
On stages of sin
The easy way out
Or the easy way in
I am still overglorified
My reasons to live
Were my reasons to die
But at least they were mine
Now I'm freedom unbound
Cut the laces of life
The pistol
The poison
The noose
Or the knife
I have chosen my instrument
And said no goodbyes
As my frozen pulse quickens
As the black plot thickens
Like the story I heard
A lifetime ago
Where a girl
And this is funny
Took her life
And what she doesn't know
Is how long it takes
For the water to rise
And the breath to stop fighting
And the cold to close her eyes
The song 306 by Emilie Autumn speaks about the tragic story of a young girl who presumably committed suicide. The lyrics suggest that the girl's body was found six years after her death, and the singer wonders why nobody shed tears for her if it was an accident. The girl's body was found behind the cathedral, but she isn't there anymore, which indicates that she might have been buried or cremated. The song then switches to the perspective of the girl who committed the act. She talks about how her reasons to live were the same as her reasons to die, but at least they were hers. She also talks about how she chose to die by her own instrument, and there were no goodbyes.
The lyrics suggest that the girl was ignored in life and ignored in death. The song represents the despair and hopelessness of those who aren't heard or seen in society. Furthermore, it highlights the lack of empathy of society towards those who choose to end their own lives. The song conveys a message that society should be vigilant and sensitive towards people who need help and support.
Line by Line Meaning
In only six years
In just six years of existence on this planet
If it was an accident
If my death was unintentional
Where are the tears
Why isn't anyone mourning or shedding a tear for me?
I am still unidentified
No one knows who I am even after my death
Behind the Cathedral
My body is hidden behind a cathedral
Is where my body hides
My corpse is not inside the cathedral, but hidden behind it
But I'm not inside
My body is not inside the building
Just one of sixteen
My death is just one of sixteen similar incidents
In early one day
One day, early on
If it was a game then
If my death was part of a twisted game
Why couldn't I play
Why wasn't I given a chance to play or participate in the game?
I am the abandoner
I chose to abandon the world and end my life
But still I remain
Even after my death, my presence lingers
As my frozen pulse quickness
As my heart rate speeds up in my final moments
As the black plot thickens
As the plot of my demise becomes more and more twisted
Like the story I heard
Similar to the story I once heard
A lifetime ago
It feels like a lifetime ago since I heard that story
Where a girl
The story was about a girl
And this is funny
Ironically enough
Took her life
She too ended her own life
And what she doesn't know
Unknowingly
Is how long it takes
The duration it takes
For the water to rise
For the water to submerge her body
And the breath to stop fighting
For her to finally stop struggling for breath
And the cold to close her eyes
And for the coldness of death to finally claim her
Morality plays
Lessons about morality
On stages of sin
On the provocative stages of sinful behavior
The easy way out
The simple escape route, death
Or the easy way in
Or the tempting, pleasurable sinful path
I am still overglorified
Even in death, my existence is exalted
My reasons to live
The reasons that kept me alive
Were my reasons to die
Were the same reasons that eventually led to my death
But at least they were mine
At least my reasons were truly mine
Now I'm freedom unbound
By killing myself, I have achieved a sense of liberation
Cut the laces of life
I cut ties with life and chose death
The pistol
The gun
The poison
The toxic substance
The noose
The hangman's rope
Or the knife
The sharp blade
I have chosen my instrument
I picked my method of taking my own life
And said no goodbyes
I didn't say farewell to anyone
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: EMILIE AUTUMN
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