Throughout the 90's, Ghoulspoon forged its own path and gained a reputation and following in the SoCal area through hard work and regional touring with the likes of Incubus, Korn, 311, Deftones, No Doubt, Sublime, Kid Rock, System of a Down, Static-X, Sugar Ray, Foo Fighters, The Cult, Snot, Kottonmouth Kings, Powerman 5000, and (hed) pe among many others. The band earned a huge fan base and many accolades including handfulls of San Diego Music Awards nominations and 1 win for "Best Hard Rock/Metal Band" in 2001.
Over its career, Ghoulspoon released several demos and 3 albums - “To Serve Man (1993)”, “Medication (1996)”, and “Fever (1999)”, selling over 10,000 units without the help of a manager, booking agent, or major record label. After going through years of lineup changes and enough scandal and debauchery to fill a two part VH1 Special, the band changed a few members and was reborn as Divided by Zero in 2002.
Suspension
Ghoulspoon Lyrics
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To drown myself in peace
I never wanted anymore than just everything
When you can no longer act
It triggers mad collapse
And then you run out of ways
To stop the suffering
Stood up and let down
I've never owned anything that wasn't broken
I can't take another day on my knees
Explaining all the words that weren't spoken
When it comes down
And takes us all away
Will it come down?
Bring it down
Let me up
I've had enough of all of this
I think I'm ready to leave it all behind
Is there enough room for me?
Enough air to breathe
Too much space
Has crippled my climb
An obstructed view
Has covered holes upon holes
Upon crumbling beauty we ride
39 crooked smiles
Buried miles away from nothing
Stand in line
Take your place next to the millions who've tried
And all I want is for these thoughts to leave my mind
I want to be left behind
The lyrics of Ghoulspoon's "Suspension" reflect the struggle of the singer to find peace within themselves. The first verse outlines the singer's desire for space and peace, but also their sense of being overwhelmed by life's demands. They feel as though they have nothing left to give and no way to control their suffering. They have been disappointed repeatedly and feel trapped in a cycle of defeat. Despite their desire for a perfect life full of everything, they have come to realize that they have never really had anything that was not flawed or broken. The second verse continues this sense of despair, with the singer feeling as though they are suffocating and need to leave everything behind. They are haunted by thoughts that they cannot escape, and they long to be free from their own mind.
The chorus of the song ruminates on the inevitability of life's end, with the singer questioning whether it will come down and take us all away. They seem both resigned to and fearful of this possibility, unsure of what it might bring. The song touches on themes of disappointment, loss, and the search for meaning in a world that does not always offer clear answers. It portrays the difficulty of grappling with one's own mortality and the fear that accompanies it.
Line by Line Meaning
I need some room to breathe
I feel suffocated and need some space for myself
To drown myself in peace
I want to escape the chaos around and find inner peace
I never wanted anymore than just everything
I always aimed high and never settled for anything less than everything
When you can no longer act
When you lose the ability to pretend
It triggers mad collapse
It causes a mental breakdown
And then you run out of ways
And then you exhaust all your options
To stop the suffering
To alleviate the pain
Stood up and let down
Disappointed and deserted
Disappointed again and again
Frequently let down and disheartened
I've never owned anything that wasn't broken
I've always had damaged possessions and broken dreams
I can't take another day on my knees
I can't bear to be submissive anymore
Explaining all the words that weren't spoken
Describing what was left unsaid
When it comes down
When everything falls apart
And takes us all away
And takes us all to our fate
Will it come down?
Will everything collapse?
Bring it down
Destroy it all
Let me up
Allow me to escape the chaos
I've had enough of all of this
I can't endure this anymore
I think I'm ready to leave it all behind
I want to start over and leave everything from the past behind
Is there enough room for me?
Will there be space for me to start afresh?
Enough air to breathe
Enough freedom and opportunity to grow
Too much space
Too much distance from reality
Has crippled my climb
Has hindered my ability to progress
An obstructed view
A distorted perspective
Has covered holes upon holes
Has concealed numerous issues beneath a facade
Upon crumbling beauty we ride
We continue living in a world that is gradually falling apart
39 crooked smiles
39 insincere and dishonest intentions
Buried miles away from nothing
Hidden far away from everything
Stand in line
Join the queue of those waiting for a chance
Take your place next to the millions who've tried
Join the millions of others who have struggled to succeed
And all I want is for these thoughts to leave my mind
I want to escape my troubled thoughts
I want to be left behind
I want to abandon everything and find peace
Contributed by Mason F. Suggest a correction in the comments below.