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J.Y. Park Lyrics

I fucked up again by letting you pretend there was something when the whole time nothing ever existed
I made a mistake by enabling you to pretend that there was a connection between us when, in reality, it was non-existent.

we'll keep up false connections through the phone lines of faulty wire and blown transformers
We will maintain fake connections even though the phone lines are damaged and the wires are not functioning properly.

replicate the sound it takes to move through the cables
We will imitate the sounds that are made when communication flows through the cables.

there's nothing there I want to hear
There's no message or content that I wish to receive.

in-between waking up and sleeping through there was little less than nothing that I could do
During the times when I was not fully awake or asleep, I was powerless and unable to do anything significant.

but many times I think you tried just to turn me on
I believe that you made attempts to excite me for your own purposes.

and many times I think you cried just to lead me on
I suspect that you pretended to be emotional and upset just to manipulate me.

right now I'm dying in my bed
I am currently suffering and struggling in my own personal space.

you'll make sounds and rape the reasons and reassure yourself I won't hang up.
You will make noises and try to convince yourself that I will not hang up on you.

Concentrate and duplicate the same mistake to perfection
Focus intently and repeat the same error until it becomes flawless.

explaining you as I turned away you turned to stay
As I attempted to distance myself from you, you refused to leave and insisted on explaining yourself.