"I Always Wanna Die (Sometimes)" is an experimental Britpop power ballad with an electronic sound. The production comprises melancholic acoustic guitar strums, a cascading piano, shuffling drums, cinematic strings and elements of 1980s and 1990s adult contemporary rock. Lyrically, the song explores Healy's struggle with suicidal thoughts and details the desire for a different life and a return to the past. Thematically, the song reflects upon depression, isolation and loneliness.
Upon release, "I Always Wanna Die (Sometimes)" received generally positive reviews from contemporary music critics. Reviewers praised the production, lyrics and its placement on the album's tracklist, drawing numerous comparisons between the song and Oasis' "Champagne Supernova". It peaked at number 70 on the UK Singles Chart, number 16 in New Zealand, number 67 in Ireland and number 31 on the US Billboard Hot Rock & Alternative Songs chart.
I Always Wanna Die
The 1975 Lyrics
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But you're sat on a train again
Your memories are sceneries
For things you said but never really meant
You build it to a high to say goodbye
Because you're not the same as them
But your death, it won't happen to you
It happens to your family and your friends
And I always wanna die
Sometimes
I always wanna die
Sometimes
You win, you lose, you sing the blues
There's no point in buying concrete shoes
I refuse
And I always wanna die
Sometimes
I always wanna die
Sometimes
I always wanna die
Oh, am I me through geography?
A face collapsed through entropy
I can hardly speak
And when I try, it's nothing but a squeak
On the video
Living room for small
If you can't survive, just try
And I always wanna die
Sometimes
I always wanna die
Always wanna die (always wanna die)
Always wanna die
And I always wanna die (always wanna die)
Always wanna die
Sometimes (sometimes)
Sometimes (sometimes)
I sometimes
Always wanna die (always wanna die)
Always wanna die (always wanna)
Sometimes
The 1975's song "I Always Wanna Die" speaks to feelings of despair and hopelessness, as well as the inevitability of death. The opening lines "I bet you thought your life would change, but you're sat on a train again" depict a sense of disappointment in life and the monotony that can come with it. The following lines "Your memories are sceneries, for things you said but never really meant" suggest the idea of not being true to oneself or one's desires and instead living a life defined by societal expectations.
The chorus, "And I always wanna die, sometimes. I always wanna die, sometimes" is a powerful statement that speaks to the stark contrast between wanting to keep living and feeling as though death would be a release from the struggles of life. This mental conflict is further explored in the lines "You win, you lose, you sing the blues, there's no point in buying concrete shoes. I refuse" which express the feeling of being trapped and helpless, but also refusing to let go of life altogether.
The later lines "Oh, am I me through geography? A face collapsed through entropy. I can hardly speak, and when I try, it's nothing but a squeak" speak to the idea of losing oneself and identity through time and the physical decay of the body. The video reference and "living room for small" line may suggest the way in which we try to capture and hold onto memories of ourselves or our loved ones, but ultimately they are fleeting and unable to preserve our true essence.
Line by Line Meaning
I bet you thought your life would change
You had high hopes for your life, but it hasn't turned out the way you expected it to.
But you're sat on a train again
You're stuck in your routine, doing the same things over and over again.
Your memories are sceneries
You often reflect on past events in your life as if they were landscapes.
For things you said but never really meant
You regret saying things you didn't truly believe or mean.
You build it to a high to say goodbye
You create drama or conflict in your relationships to avoid having to say goodbye to someone.
Because you're not the same as them
You feel like an outsider or different from those around you.
But your death, it won't happen to you
You don't think you'll die any time soon or that death isn't something that will affect you personally.
It happens to your family and your friends
You understand that the impact of death is felt by those left behind more than by the deceased person.
I pretend
You may put on a facade or pretend to be someone you're not to fit in with others.
And I always wanna die
You have a persistent feeling of wanting to escape or end your life.
You win, you lose, you sing the blues
Life is full of ups and downs, and expressing your sadness through music can be therapeutic.
There's no point in buying concrete shoes
It's pointless to feel weighed down by your past mistakes or regrets.
I refuse
You're determined not to let your negative thoughts consume you.
Oh, am I me through geography?
You're questioning whether you're who you are because of where you come from or where you live.
A face collapsed through entropy
You feel like you're slowly breaking down or deteriorating, both mentally and physically.
I can hardly speak
Your emotional distress makes it difficult for you to express yourself.
And when I try, it's nothing but a squeak
Even when you attempt to speak up, it feels like your voice is too small to be heard.
On the video
You feel like your life is being recorded or watched by others, like a movie or show.
Living room for small
You feel trapped or confined in your small space or environment.
If you can't survive, just try
Even when things seem impossible or overwhelming, it's important to keep trying and pushing forward.
Always wanna die
Your persisting urge to escape or end your life.
Sometimes
Your feelings of wanting to die aren't consistent, but they do recur.
I sometimes
You acknowledge that your feelings aren't always present, but they exist.
Always wanna die
Your persisting urge to escape or end your life.
Lyrics © CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Downtown Music Publishing
Written by: Adam Brian Thomas Hann, George Bedford Daniel, Matthew Timothy Healy, Ross Stewart MacDonald
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Kanno Yoichi
on Chocolate
Hey now, call it a spliff because I know that you will
Oh you bite your friends like chocolate
You said we go where nobody know
We got guns hidden under our petticoats
And we never gonna quit it, no
We're never gonna quit it, no
マリファナを頼むのは、君がそれを欲しがるからさ
君は友人をチョコレートみたいに噛むんだ
誰も知らないところへ行こうって言って
ペチコートの下の銃を掴んだ
僕らはやめないよ
絶対に終わらない
Now run run away from the boys in the blue
Oh my car smells like chocolate
And now I think about what you do
I think about what they say
I think about how to think
Pause it play, pause it play, pause it
今は逃げるんだ、あの青い制服の男たちから
チョコレートの香りがする俺の車で
今は君のすることを考えて
奴らの吐く言葉を考えて
どうやって考えるべきかを考えて
ちょっと待って、いったん止めて考えよう
Oh we go where nobody know
We've got guns hidden under our petticoats
And we're never gonna quit it, no
We're never gonna quit it, no
僕らは誰も知らないところへ行く
ペチコートの下の銃を掴む
僕らはやめないよ
絶対に終わらない
Yeah, we're dressed in black from head to toe
We've got guns hidden under our petticoats
And we're never gonna quit it, no
We're never gonna quit it, no
頭の先からつま先まで真っ黒な出で立ちで
ペチコートの下の銃を掴んだ
僕らはやめないよ
絶対に終わらない
Now you're never gonna quit it
Now you're never gonna quit it
Now you're never gonna quit it
If you don't stop smoking it
Thats's what she said
あなたはやめてはだめ
逃げてはだめ
諦めてはダメ
葉っぱをやめないならね
これが彼女の言葉
She said we're dressed in black from head to toe
We've got guns hidden under our petticoats
And we're never gonna quit it, no
We're never gonna quit it, no
頭の先からつま先まで真っ黒な出で立ちで
ペチコートの下の銃を掴んだ
僕らはやめないよ
絶対に終わらない
Hey now we're building up speed
As we're appoaching the hill
Oh my hair smells like chocolate
Hey now you say you're gonna quit it
But you're never gonna quit it
Go get it, go get it, go get it, go get it, go
Play cool
スピードを上げていく
丘に近づくにつれて
髪はチョコレートの香りがする
君はやめるって言ってるけど
絶対にやめられないよ
さあ、やって
クールにさ
Oh you said
We go where nobody know
We've got guns hidden under our petticoats
And we're never gonna quit it, no
We're never gonna quit it, no
僕らは誰も知らないところへ行く
ペチコートの下の銃を掴む
僕らはやめないよ
絶対に終わらない
Yeah, we're dressed in black from head to toe
We've got guns hidden under our petticoats
And we're never gonna quit it, no
We're never gonna quit it, no
頭の先からつま先まで真っ黒な出で立ちで
ペチコートの下の銃を掴んだ
僕らはやめないよ
絶対に終わらない
Well I think we better go
Seriously better go
I said the feds are here you know
Seriously better go
Well I think we better go
I said the feds are here you know
Said Rebecca better know
Seriously better go
僕らは逃げるべきだって思うんだ
真剣にさ
捜査官がすぐそばにいる
絶対に逃げたほうが良い
逃げるべきだ
捜査官がすぐそばにいる
レベッカ分かってくれ
逃げたほうが良いんだ
We go where nobody know
We've got guns hidden under our petticoats
And we're never gonna quit it, no
We're never gonna quit it, no
僕らは誰も知らないところへ行く
ペチコートの下の銃を掴む
僕らはやめないよ
絶対に終わらない
Yeah, we're dressed in black from head to toe
We've got guns hidden under our petticoats
And we're never gonna quit it, no
We're never gonna quit it, no
頭の先からつま先まで真っ黒な出で立ちで
ペチコートの下の銃を掴んだ
僕らはやめないよ
絶対に終わらない
Well I think we better go
Seriously better go
I said the feds are here you know
Seriously better go
Well I think we better go
I said the feds are here you know
Said Rebecca better know
Seriously better go
僕らは逃げるべきだって思うんだ
真剣にさ
捜査官がすぐそばにいる
絶対に逃げたほうが良い
逃げるべきだ
捜査官がすぐそばにいる
レベッカ分かってくれ
逃げたほうが良いんだ