Damaged
BMike Lyrics

I been
I have experienced a lot of difficult things in my life

I been through a lot of crazy things in my life
I have been through many chaotic and challenging experiences in my life

And somehow
Despite everything, there is a sense of mystery and wonder

You're always there to
You are consistently present to

Always there to pick up the pieces
You are always there to help me with whatever needs fixing

And except me for who I am
You accept and love me just the way I am

So listen
Please pay attention to what I have to say

I never meant for you to deal with all this pressure
I never wanted you to have to bear the weight of my struggles

Or for you to deal with all this pain that don't belong to you
I never intended for you to have to suffer because of my past

You carry all my burdens from my past on a stretcher
You bear the weight of my past traumas and difficulties with great care and patience

So the very least that I can do is write this song for you
I want to express my gratitude and appreciation through this song

Baby, you don't have to choose to stay but yet you do it anyway
You choose to stay with me despite the difficulties and challenges we face together

And for a moment I get glimpses of what's in the heaven's gates
Being with you makes me feel like I have a glimpse of paradise

You show me beauty in the rain, even smiling when it's pouring
You help me see the beauty in every situation, even the difficult and unpleasant ones

The creases on the corners of my
The lines and wrinkles on my

Lips don't feel so foreign to my senses
I am becoming more comfortable with expressing my emotions and vulnerability

I sense that you might leave me in an instant
I am afraid that you may leave me suddenly without warning

You don't, it's just my insecurities are up to mischief
I know you won't leave me, but my own doubts and fears cause me to think otherwise

You reassure me
You comfort me and provide reassurance

You show me love and then it cures me
Your love and care help heal me from my emotional wounds

Not with words because the actions of your promise does it for me
You show your love through your actions rather than just empty words

It's lovely, I'm used to feeling cold that's below subzee
Your warmth and kindness are a pleasant change from my usual feelings of loneliness and despair

Roll beneath my mind that if I wished I could not unsee, it's crazy
There are memories and experiences that I wish I could forget, but I am unable to do so

I know the baggage in my trunk is ugly
I am aware that my past experiences and struggles are not pleasant or attractive

But you still choose to love me
Despite my flaws and past difficulties, you still choose to love and be with me

How can you love someone so damaged?
Why do you choose to love someone with so much emotional baggage and trauma?

Feel it in my palms, feeling so beyond, you don't know I am dispond
I feel overwhelmed with emotion, and you may not even know the extent of my despair

Every day this thing gets harder to manage
Each day, it becomes more challenging to cope and manage with my emotional struggles

Been there from the start
You have been there for me from the very beginning of our relationship

Even when you saw the black that's covering my heart
Even when you saw the darkness and pain in my heart, you still chose to love and care for me

I show you scars that I deal with that where you have lawn
I share with you the wounds and scars from my past that you may not have experienced

And you tell me I've never looked more beautiful
You see the beauty in me despite the pain and scars I carry

So I'm sorry that I'm damaged
I apologize for the emotional burden I may place on you because of my past experiences

I'm sorry for the pain
I apologize for any emotional pain I may cause you

Sorry that you probably have to deal with it again
I regret that you may have to bear witness to my emotional pain and trauma again

I said that I'm sorry for the pain but I can't help this shit
I apologize for the emotional burden my past experiences may place on you, but it is not something I can control

I wish you never felt this shit
I wish that you did not have to experience the emotional pain and trauma that I carry

Promise you're my angel, but I'ma probably go to hell for this
I promise that you are a blessing in my life, but I fear that my struggles may cause you more pain and suffering

Mentally I'm sick, and now I'm choose to break your fucking heart
I am mentally unwell, and I fear that my struggles may damage or hurt our relationship in some way

My life's a tragic flick and I ain't choose to play this part
My life has been filled with hardship and pain that I did not choose or want

I take a part my heart and let you find the missing pieces
I trust you enough to share with you the broken pieces of my heart, hoping you can help me heal

It's lost inside the dark and being consumed by all my demons
My heart is consumed by darkness and haunted by my past traumas and demons

I slowly weaken, my wounds and cuts they only deepen
My emotional wounds continue to deepen, and I feel myself becoming more broken and weak

And while you heal me you become a victim of mistreatment, I'm fucking sorry
As you help heal me, you may suffer as a result of the pain and trauma I carry, and I feel regretful and apologetic for this

The traces of my past just haunt me
The memories and pain from my past continue to linger and haunt me

The future's daunting when the present feels so damn disheartening
The future feels incredibly overwhelming and bleak when the present is filled with so much pain and despair

How could you want me? You found me right when I had lost me
I am amazed that you could love and want me, especially when I am struggling to find myself

You hold me tight through all our fights although it's so exhausting
Even when we face conflict and difficulties, you hold me close and continue to love and support me

And it's so lovely, you never let the pressure crush me
Your love and care provide a sense of comfort and strength that helps me cope with the challenges I face

I made you feel so low, while you put no one else above me
I am aware that my struggles may cause you pain and hurt, but you continue to prioritize me and our relationship above everything else