Worst Mistakes
Josh A Lyrics

Stressed all the time
I am constantly experiencing stress

I've been makin' my worst mistakes
I have been making bad decisions and choices

Of my life, still been searching for purpose
Despite living for a significant amount of time, I still haven't found my purpose and reason for being alive

I don't know why all this pain finally surfaced
I cannot comprehend why my suffering has become so evident and pronounced recently

Stressed out my mind, made mistakes but I'm learning
My mind is overwhelmed and burdened, and although I have made mistakes, I am trying to learn from them

And I've been makin' all of the worst mistakes of my life
I have been making extremely bad decisions and choices, ones that I will most likely regret

'Stakes of my life
The decisions that I am making will have a huge impact on my life

Try so hard to keep it together
I am attempting to keep my life and mind from falling apart and spiraling out of control

I'm runnin' for cover but that don't suffice
I am trying to escape from my pain and struggles, but my attempts are not enough

What's wrong with me?
I do not understand why I am going through what I am going through

Feels like all the songs we're making just ain't songs to me
The music we are creating doesn't feel like meaningful art to me anymore

Just a way to ventilate the demons calling me
The songs are just a way for me to cope with and release the inner demons that are haunting me

Just a way to keep me sane so they won't bother me
These songs are the only way I can maintain my sanity and prevent these demons from tormenting me further

And I'm sorry I don't answer when you call me
I apologize for not responding to your calls or messages

I know you've been worried
I am aware that you are concerned about me

Really nothing 'gainst you just the way that I am
I don't have anything against you, I'm just struggling with my own personal issues

All the pain that I've been dealing with has gone to my head, no
The pain and suffering that I have been experiencing has severely affected my mental state

On and on I'm thankful
Despite my troubles, I am grateful for what I have

I'm so fuckin' grateful
I am extremely grateful for what I have, despite my struggles

That I never let go
I haven't given up and I am still holding on

Screamin' all these melodies inside of my head
I have various melodies and tunes constantly playing in my head

I hope I hear 'em when I'm fading, racing thoughts in my bed
I hope I can continue to hear these melodies when I am losing consciousness or falling asleep, and am consumed by a flood of thoughts

I'll make you proud I won't quit now
I am determined to succeed and make you proud of me, and I will not give up now

When there's nowhere to run I'll stand my ground, no
Even if I am cornered or in a difficult situation, I will stand my ground and not back down

I've been down one too many times
I have been knocked down and defeated too many times

But I'll fight 'til I can find the light
I will continue to fight and struggle until I attain clarity and am able to move forward

I've been there done all that before
I have experienced similar situations of hardship and struggle before

Don't care what's one more war?
One more difficulty or struggle won't deter me or affect me much

I'll be here if you need me, I swear
I will be present and available if you need me, I promise

I drag you down but I know you still care
I know that despite how I negatively impact you, you still care about me

And if you hear me, I'm so sorry
If you can hear me, I apologize for the pain and burden that I have caused you

I'll be better in the morning
I know that I can improve and I will make an effort to do so starting tomorrow