Jan is a graduate of law studies at the Adam Mickiewicz University in Poznań. He worked with Jerzy Grotowski's Theater Laboratory in the late 1970s and created the Orchestra of the Eighth Day in 1977. He recorded his first album "Music For The End," in 1982 for Flying Fish Records (Chicago). In 1989 he moved to Los Angeles. His music was released by Sony Classical, Decca, Varese Sarabande, Milan and Savitor Records. He gives concerts in the USA and in Europe.
In 2005 Jan Kaczmarek received an Oscar for the music (score) in Finding Neverland, directed by Marc Forster. J.A.P.K. also won The National Board of Review award for Best Score of the Year, and was nominated for both a Golden Globe and BAFTA's Anthony Asquith Award for Achievement in Film Music. In addition to his work in films, Jan was commissioned to write two symphonic and choral pieces for two important national occasions in Poland. “Cantata for Freedom” (2005) to celebrate 25th anniversary of Solidarity movement, and "Oratorio 1956” (2006) to commemorate 50th anniversary of bloody uprising against totalitarian government in Poznan, Poland. Both premiers were broadcast live on national television.
Jan A.P. Kaczmarek is a member of the Academy of Motion Picture Arts and Sciences.
Jan is also setting up an Institute inspired by the Sundance Institute, in his home country of Poland, as a European center for development of new work in the areas of film, theatre, music and new media. The Institute website (currently under construction) is: http://rozbitek.org. It is anticipated that Rozbitek Institute will be officially open in 2008.
MEMORY
Jan A.P. Kaczmarek Lyrics
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Nothing's the same
Searching for a person to blame
Learning with age
My demons wanna come out to play
But they in a cage
Fueled by depression and rage
Sorrow and pain
Speaking up the sorrow and pain
I'm running away
But I think that it's time for a change
A brand new slate
The Ice thin but still I skate
I Guess I'm brave
Or maybe it's the drugs taking over all this pain
I don't need an umbrella I guess I'm used to the rain
The way I act out in public you'd think I do it for the fame
But I'm true to the music my nigga this is not a game
Point to my wrist in the clutch and everybody loving my wave
I tried to work a 9-5 and that shit was slavery
But I stuck to my grind went to work and made it pay for me
These niggas gone hate, want me dead say they gone pay for me
And so I stay strapped wit that blick it ain't no catchin me
The woman the weed and the weather that shit the recipe
I carried my talents back to Lakeland think that was made for me
I still got a piece of my city won't stay away from me
You ask me how I'm doin inside it's day to day for me
My mama told me to watch my lungs they fading away
I smoke an ounce a day to keep depression away
Woods glass or wax which one should I choose today
I'm in love wit all the drugs they keep the pain away
It's like with every other hit I see a brighter day
Either that or them xannys they take the pain away
I been sippin so much purple turned my liver grey
Tryina fill this void but honestly too much fucking space
I been movin state to state I'm tryna find my place
Fucked around and found a super model give me face
Movin in this chally you would think I'm on the chase
150 on the dash but this is not a race
I'm on my own level
Yuh
can't nobody take my place
I need me a new bezel
Yuh
Fuck that shit I need a wraith
It's Petal to the metal
Yuh
Put my mom in new a space
I got it out the gutter
Yuh
I got Steak all on my plate
Fuck nigga you don't want static
Yuh
Pull up on me and my niggas gone spazz
I got skeletons in my closet
yuh
I don't GB but my entourage move when I move so don't to touch my Patek
Yuh
Don't be mistaken I keep that bitch on me them bullets they fly like lightening
I ain't really in to fightin naw
Me I rather I just knock em off
Shoot like curry I like to ball
And my glock hold 30 and all
Legal wit papers ain't dirty at all
Won't lose a wink about murdering y'all
You niggas pussy you fertile and all
I am not worried bout none of you niggas you niggas is goofy
What's wrong wit y'all
My mama told me to watch my lungs they fading away
I smoke an ounce a day to keep depression away
Woods glass or wax which one should I choose today
I'm in love wit all the drugs they keep the pain away
It's like with every other hit I see a brighter day
Either that or them xannys they take the pain away
I been sippin so much purple turned my liver grey
Tryina fill this void but honestly too much fucking space
The lyrics of Jan A.P. Kaczmarek's "Memory" describe a journey through the past, where the singer is looking for someone to blame for how everything has changed. He speaks about having depression and rage, and his demons are caged but still want to come out and play. He feels sorrow and pain but is still brave enough to try to start over and create a brand new slate despite the thinness of the ice he's skating on. He chooses the drugs to keep the pain away, which might be the reason why he sees a brighter day, or maybe it's the Xanax. The lyrics also express how he has been moving from state to state, trying to find his place but still carrying a piece of his city with him. The song reveals how he has skeletons in his closet and won't lose a wink about murdering anyone giving him trouble.
Line by Line Meaning
Took a trip down memory lane
Reminiscing on past experiences
Nothing's the same
Realization that things have changed
Searching for a person to blame
Trying to find someone to attribute problems to
Learning with age
Growing wiser over time
My demons wanna come out to play
Inner struggles trying to surface
But they in a cage
Repressing inner demons
Fueled by depression and rage
Being driven by negative emotions
Sorrow and pain
Feelings of sadness and hurt
Speaking up the sorrow and pain
Expressing and acknowledging these difficult emotions
I'm running away
Trying to escape from problems
But I think that it's time for a change
Realization that change is needed
A brand new slate
Starting fresh
The Ice thin but still I skate
Moving forward despite obstacles
I Guess I'm brave
Acknowledging bravery in facing challenges
Or maybe it's the drugs taking over all this pain
Usage of drugs as a coping mechanism
I don't need an umbrella I guess I'm used to the rain
Being accustomed to difficulties and hardships
The way I act out in public you'd think I do it for the fame
Misunderstandings about one's true intentions
But I'm true to the music my nigga this is not a game
Staying committed to and passionate about music
Point to my wrist in the clutch and everybody loving my wave
Being successful and admired by others
I tried to work a 9-5 and that shit was slavery
Feeling oppressed by a traditional work schedule
But I stuck to my grind went to work and made it pay for me
Commitment to working hard and achieving success
These niggas gone hate, want me dead say they gone pay for me
Facing criticism and threats from others
And so I stay strapped wit that blick it ain't no catchin me
Protecting oneself from danger
The woman the weed and the weather that shit the recipe
Indulging in pleasures
I carried my talents back to Lakeland think that was made for me
Returning to one's hometown with a sense of purpose
I still got a piece of my city won't stay away from me
Taking pride in one's roots and connection to a place
You ask me how I'm doin inside it's day to day for me
Struggling with inner demons on a daily basis
My mama told me to watch my lungs they fading away
Concerns about the effects of drug usage on health
I smoke an ounce a day to keep depression away
Using drugs to cope with mental health issues
Woods glass or wax which one should I choose today
Choosing between different forms of drugs
I'm in love wit all the drugs they keep the pain away
Dependence on drugs for emotional relief
It's like with every other hit I see a brighter day
Finding temporary relief through drug usage
Either that or them xannys they take the pain away
Alternative drug usage for pain relief
I been sippin so much purple turned my liver grey
Harmful effects of drug usage
Tryina fill this void but honestly too much fucking space
Feeling empty and trying to cope with too much trauma
Fucked around and found a super model give me face
Unexpected positive events in the midst of difficult times
Movin in this chally you would think I'm on the chase
Giving the impression of chasing success
150 on the dash but this is not a race
Working towards success at one's own pace
I'm on my own level
Achieving unique levels of success and individuality
can't nobody take my place
Confidence in one's position and accomplishments
I need me a new bezel
Desire for upgraded material possessions
Fuck that shit I need a wraith
Aspiring towards even greater success and wealth
It's Petal to the metal
Not holding back in pursuit of success
Put my mom in new a space
Providing for family and loved ones
I got it out the gutter
Overcoming adversity and achieving success
I got Steak all on my plate
Achieving abundance in one's life
Fuck nigga you don't want static
Challenging those who may stand in the way of success
Pull up on me and my niggas gone spazz
Defending oneself and one's crew against threats
I got skeletons in my closet
Hiding shameful or embarrassing secrets
I don't GB but my entourage move when I move so don't to touch my Patek
Being surrounded by loyal friends and protectors
Don't be mistaken I keep that bitch on me them bullets they fly like lightening
Protecting oneself and one's success with weapons
I ain't really in to fightin naw
Avoiding physical altercations
Me I rather I just knock em off
Choosing more efficient and violent methods of retaliation
Shoot like curry I like to ball
Drawing comparisons to successful basketball player Steph Curry
And my glock hold 30 and all
Using a powerful gun for protection
Legal wit papers ain't dirty at all
Avoiding legal troubles
Won't lose a wink about murdering y'all
Lacking remorse for harming others
You niggas pussy you fertile and all
Expressing contempt for others' perceived weakness
I am not worried bout none of you niggas you niggas is goofy
Feeling superior to others and disregarding their opinions
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Written by: Jamir Carter
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