Darkness
Nena Lyrics

I'm scared of swimming in the sea
Nena feels a sense of fear towards swimming in the sea as the dark shapes that move under her trigger her anxieties.

Dark shapes moving under me
The mere thought of the unknown creatures lurking beneath the sea sends shivers down Nena's spine, making her feel vulnerable.

Every fear I swallow makes me small
Nena feels weaker every time she succumbs to her fears, losing her self-confidence and becoming insignificant.

Inconsequential things occur
As Nena lets her fears take hold of her, trivial things start to matter, and she starts overthinking about mundane issues.

Alarms are triggered
Nena's fears act as an alarm, alerting her of any possible danger or harm she may face.

Memories stir
Nena's past experiences related to her fears resurface, further intensifying her anxieties.

It's not the way it has to be
Nena realizes that she doesn't have to live in constant fear and wants to take control of her life and emotions.

I'm afraid of what I do not know
Nena's fears stem from her lack of knowledge and understanding of certain things, making her feel uneasy.

I hate being undermined
Nena dislikes feeling inferior or underestimated, and this fear stops her from expressing herself fully.

I'm afraid I can be devil man
Nena's fears also include the possibility of her becoming someone she dislikes or despises, such as a demon-like character.

And I'm scared to be divine
Nena feels intimidated by the idea of being godly or superior, as it demands her to set high standards for herself, which she may not live up to.

Don't mess with me my fuse is short
Nena's anxiety levels have reached a point where she has a low tolerance for any external stimuli, and she may react aggressively.

Beneath this skin, these fragments caught
Nena's fears seem to have taken root inside her, and she feels a sense of fragmentation or brokenness within her.

When I allow it to be
Nena realizes that she has the power to control how she feels and thinks, and she allows herself to be vulnerable.

Theres no control over me
Nena is free from the mental and emotional constraints that arise from her fears, and she feels liberated.

I have my fears
Nena acknowledges that her fears exist and that she cannot eradicate them entirely.

But they do not have me
Nena refuses to let her fears define her and knows that she can overcome them.

Walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods
As Nena moves forward in her life, she often finds herself in unfamiliar terrain, representing the unknown and unpredictable future she faces.

The deeper I go, the darker it gets
The further Nena progresses into the darkness, the more profound and unsettling her fears become.

I peer through the window, knock at the door
Nena strives to confront her fears head-on, but she is unsure if what lies ahead of her is safe or harmful.

And the monster I was so afraid of
The monster represents Nena's inner fears that she has always tried to run away from or avoid.

Lies curled up on the floor
The monster, in reality, appears harmless and vulnerable, and this realization somewhat comforts Nena.

Is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy
The monster resembles a child-like figure, highlighting the innocent and harmless nature of Nena's fears.

I cry until I laugh
Nena goes through a cathartic experience, where she releases all her fears and emotions, eventually finding humor in them and moving forward.

I'm afraid of being mothered
Another one of Nena's fears includes the idea of being overly cared for and restricted by a maternal figure.

With my balls shut in the pen
Nena fears being emasculated and losing her individuality, represented by her balls, within a restrictive setting.

I'm afraid of loving women
Nena's fears regarding relationships manifest in the fear of loving women, indicating her concerns regarding intimacy and commitment.

And I'm scared of loving men
Nena also fears entering into relationships with men, indicating her fear of losing control over her emotions and being vulnerable.

Flashbacks coming in every night
Triggered by her fears and anxieties, Nena's past traumas and memories resurface, further intensifying her fears.

Don't tell me everythings alright
Nena doesn't want to be comforted with false assurances that things will be okay, and she wants to accept her fears and overcome them.

I own my fear
Nena accepts that her fears are a part of her, but now she is in control of them and refuses to let them overpower her.

So it doesn't own me
Nena has triumphed over her fears, and they no longer can control her thoughts and emotions.